Three Bumble dates — all educational, none repeated. Made herself a steak after.
This is one of those weeks that divides time into before and after. The kind of week you remember not by date but by the feeling — the specific weight of it in your chest, the way the light looked, the way the kitchen smelled when you finally stood at the stove and did the only thing you know how to do, which is cook. I am 42 years old and I have learned that life delivers its biggest moments without warning and without ceremony, in kitchens and parking lots and hospital rooms, and the only response that matters is the one that comes after: what you make, what you serve, who you feed.
Mason is 14 now — growing into someone I recognize and marvel at. Lily is 12 — fearless on horseback and everywhere else, a force of nature in boots. Tom is steady beside me, the way Tom is always steady — present, patient, showing up every time he says he will, which remains the most radical thing any man has ever done for me.
Brett came over Wednesday, as he has every Wednesday for years, and we sat on the porch and talked about nothing important, and the nothing was the most important conversation of the week, because Brett and I don't need important. We need each other, at a table, with food between us, the way we've needed each other since he was fifteen and broken and I was thirteen and watching. The Wednesday dinners are the spine of my week. Everything else hangs from them.
I made solo steak dinner this week. The food is the evidence — of who I am, of what I've survived, of the people I feed and the love I put on plates. Every meal is a letter to the future, written in garlic and salt and the particular faith that comes from standing at a stove and believing that what you're making matters. It matters. It always matters.
The steak was for me — just me, standing at my own stove, answering to no one — and it deserved something beautiful beside it. Arugula is peppery and a little defiant, which felt right for the week I’d had. The nectarines were perfectly ripe, the kind of thing you’d only notice if you were paying attention, and I was paying attention. That’s what a solo dinner is: evidence that you’re still paying attention to yourself.
Nectarine Arugula Salad
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 0 minutes | Total Time: 10 minutes | Servings: 2
Ingredients
- 4 cups baby arugula, washed and dried
- 2 ripe nectarines, pitted and thinly sliced
- 1/4 cup thinly sliced red onion
- 1/3 cup crumbled gorgonzola or goat cheese
- 1/4 cup toasted pecans or walnuts
- 2 tablespoons extra-virgin olive oil
- 1 tablespoon white balsamic or champagne vinegar
- 1 teaspoon honey
- 1/2 teaspoon Dijon mustard
- Salt and freshly cracked black pepper, to taste
Instructions
- Make the dressing. In a small bowl or jar, whisk together the olive oil, vinegar, honey, and Dijon mustard until emulsified. Season with salt and pepper to taste. Set aside.
- Prep the salad base. Place the arugula in a large salad bowl. Scatter the sliced red onion over the top.
- Add the nectarines. Arrange the nectarine slices over the arugula. Their sweetness will balance the peppery greens — don’t skip them.
- Finish and dress. Scatter the crumbled cheese and toasted nuts over the salad. Drizzle with the dressing just before serving and toss gently to coat. Serve immediately alongside a pan-seared steak, or on its own as the whole quiet occasion it deserves to be.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 310 | Protein: 7g | Fat: 23g | Carbs: 22g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 290mg