Termination dust on the Chugach. The body still in winter mode. A Code Blue Wednesday morning that we did not save. I stood in the parking lot for fifteen minutes before I got in my car.
Lourdes is 74. She is in the kitchen. She is luminous.
I made nilaga Saturday. The beef bone soup, slow simmer, the body warmed.
The blog has four hundred subscribers now who get the posts via email. The subscribers are the loyal core. The loyal core is the chorus.
I called Lourdes Sunday night. The call was the call. The call was always the call.
I took a walk on the coastal trail Saturday. The light was good. The body was tired but moving.
The salmon in the freezer is from August. Joseph's catch. The bag is labeled in his handwriting — "for Grace." I will use it next week.
The grocery store had no calamansi. I substituted lime. The substitution was acceptable. The acceptable is the working version of perfect.
I had a long phone call with Dr. Reeves on Wednesday. We talked about pacing and rest and the way the body keeps a log of what it has carried. Dr. Reeves said, "Grace. The body remembers. The mind forgets. The cooking is the bridge." I wrote the line down. The line is now on a sticky note above the kitchen sink.
Auntie Norma called Sunday afternoon. She is now seventy-nine. She wanted a recipe. I gave it to her. She wanted to know how my week was. I told her, briefly. She told me about her week. The exchange took eighteen minutes. The eighteen minutes was the keeping.
I made tea late at night. The tea was the small comfort. The comfort was the marker.
Angela texted me a photo of the kids. I texted back a heart. The exchange took thirty seconds. The thirty seconds was the keeping.
I read a chapter of a novel before bed each night this week. The novel was about a Filipina nurse in California. The novel was good. The novel was, in some way, my own life adjacent.
Lourdes called me twice this week. The first call was about a church event. The second was about a recipe variation she had remembered from her childhood. The remembering was the gift.
The therapy session this month was about pacing. Dr. Reeves said, "Grace. The pacing is the love for the future self." I am working on the pacing. The pacing is harder than the loving.
The Anchorage sky was the Anchorage sky. The mountains were the mountains. The inlet was the inlet. The geography was the geography.
I cleaned the kitchen Sunday afternoon. I wiped the stove. I scrubbed the sink. I reorganized the spice cabinet. The cleaning was the small reset. The reset was the marker. The marker said: the week is over, the next week begins, the kitchen is ready.
A blog reader sent me a photograph of her grandmother's wooden mortar and pestle, used since 1962. The photograph was holy. I wrote her back. The writing back is the work.
I checked email at the kitchen table while the rice cooked. There were one hundred and twenty unread messages. I closed the laptop. The unread can wait.
I sat on the balcony in the cold for ten minutes Sunday night with a cup of broth in my hands. The cold was the cold. The broth was the broth. The body held both.
The neighbors invited us over for a small dinner Thursday. They are an Iñupiaq family — Aana and her grandson Joe. We ate caribou stew and rice. I brought lumpia. The kitchens of Anchorage have always been the small UN. The food is the proof.
The nilaga carried Saturday and Sunday, but by midweek the pot was empty and the body still needed something. Beef has been the thread this season — the bone broth, the slow simmer, the thing that asks very little of you while you are standing at the stove not quite present. This baked flank steak is the weeknight version of that same instinct: low effort, real heat, the kind of meal that says the kitchen is still going even when you are not sure you are.
Baked Flank Steak
Prep Time: 10 min | Cook Time: 25 min | Total Time: 35 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 lbs flank steak
- 2 tablespoons olive oil
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 teaspoon soy sauce
- 1 teaspoon Worcestershire sauce
- 1/2 teaspoon smoked paprika
- 1/2 teaspoon onion powder
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
- 3/4 teaspoon salt
- 1 tablespoon fresh parsley, chopped (optional, for serving)
Instructions
- Preheat. Heat your oven to 400°F. Let the flank steak rest at room temperature for 10 minutes while the oven warms.
- Make the rub. In a small bowl, combine olive oil, garlic, soy sauce, Worcestershire sauce, smoked paprika, onion powder, salt, and black pepper. Stir until it forms a loose paste.
- Coat the steak. Pat the flank steak dry with paper towels. Rub the marinade evenly over both sides, pressing it gently into the meat.
- Sear first. Heat an oven-safe skillet over high heat. Add a thin film of oil. Sear the steak for 2 minutes per side until a crust forms.
- Bake. Transfer the skillet directly to the oven. Bake for 8–12 minutes depending on thickness and desired doneness — 130°F for medium-rare, 145°F for medium.
- Rest. Remove from oven, tent loosely with foil, and rest for 8 minutes. Do not skip the rest. The rest is the whole point.
- Slice and serve. Slice thinly against the grain. Arrange on a plate and scatter parsley over the top if you have it. Serve with rice or whatever the week has left.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 310 | Protein: 36g | Fat: 17g | Carbs: 2g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 480mg