Daylight saving. The kids are going to bed at five PM, which is its own form of psychological warfare. Ryan was on duty at Miramar. Standard week.
Caleb, 7, wants to be a firefighter still. Has not deviated. Hazel, 4, chaos incarnate. Put a peanut butter sandwich in the DVD player Wednesday. Showed zero remorse.
Chicken pot pie Sunday. Frozen pie crust because I am realistic.
Mom called Sunday. We talked while she was putting up tomatoes from the garden. She is sixty-something and gardening like she is forty.
Kids in bed. Dishes done. I sat at the table with a glass of wine and called my mom.
Caleb watched the firefighters at a school visit Wednesday and came home buzzing. He is going to be one. I have known this since he was four. Some kids tell you who they are early.
Caleb's school had a fundraiser this week. I baked cookies because I always bake cookies. The cookies were the standard chocolate chip. They sold out in twenty minutes. I am the cookie mom of this PTO and I have stopped fighting it.
I unpacked another box from storage Tuesday afternoon. Three years on this base and I am still finding things I packed in Twentynine Palms. Military-wife archeology — every box is a layer of geological history. I found a ceramic dish from Lejeune still wrapped in newspaper from 2020.
I read the blog comments at the kitchen table with my coffee. A young spouse in Lejeune emailed me about deployment cooking. I wrote her back at length. I told her about the freezer. I told her about Donna. I told her she would survive. I sent her three of Donna's recipes.
The PCS rumors are starting again. The official orders will come in a few months. We could move. We could stay. The waiting is the worst part. Three years here and I have learned to not put down deep roots in any military town. Nineteen-year-old me would not have believed how good I have gotten at packing.
Wednesday morning meal prep — Sunday afternoon, hours of containers. The freezer is full. The future-me thanks present-me. Donna taught me this routine. Donna's freezer was always full. Donna saved her sanity with quart bags labeled in Sharpie.
Ryan came home tired Wednesday. He showered, ate, sat on the couch, was asleep by eight. Standard for a Marine who has been up since four-thirty for PT and stayed late for a brief. The schedule is the schedule. The body adapts because it has to.
I made a casserole for a neighbor whose husband is deployed. I dropped it off. She cried. I told her, eat the casserole, baby. The food is the saying. The casserole was a mostly-frozen tater-tot situation that took fifteen minutes of effort and six months of practice to perfect.
Ryan went to his counselor Wednesday. He always comes home calmer. I am calm too, just from him being calm. The man Torres was killed with — Ryan calls his wife twice a year on Torres's birthday and the anniversary. The military widows are their own community.
Hazel and I had a hard moment Tuesday at homework time. She is in a season of testing limits. We worked through it. We always do. She is mine.
The Friday before-school morning was chaos. Three kids, two backpacks, one missing shoe. We all made it to the bus. I drank cold coffee at nine AM because that's when I sat down. Standard.
My therapy session was Tuesday. We talked about the deployment cycle and the way the body holds dread and the ways the body holds it. The hour passed. The work continues. I have been doing this work for years. The work pays.
Chicken pot pie Sunday is sacred in this house, but some Sundays the filling needs to go portable — into something Caleb can grab on the way to the bus and Hazel can eat without it ending up in the DVD player. These Tangy Beef Turnovers are what I reach for when I want that same warm, savory comfort in a form that survives the chaos. They freeze beautifully, they reheat in minutes, and they’re the kind of thing Donna would have had labeled in Sharpie in the back of her freezer — which is the highest compliment I know how to give a recipe.
Tangy Beef Turnovers
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 22 min | Total Time: 37 min | Servings: 8 turnovers
Ingredients
- 1 lb lean ground beef
- 1/2 cup finely diced yellow onion
- 2 cloves garlic, minced
- 2 tablespoons ketchup
- 1 tablespoon Worcestershire sauce
- 1 tablespoon yellow mustard
- 1 teaspoon apple cider vinegar
- 1/2 teaspoon salt
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- 1/4 teaspoon smoked paprika
- 1/2 cup shredded sharp cheddar cheese
- 2 packages (14.1 oz each) refrigerated rolled pie crusts (4 crusts total)
- 1 egg, beaten (for egg wash)
Instructions
- Preheat oven. Heat oven to 400°F. Line two baking sheets with parchment paper and set aside.
- Brown the beef. In a large skillet over medium-high heat, cook ground beef and diced onion, breaking up the meat, until no pink remains, about 6–8 minutes. Drain excess fat.
- Build the filling. Reduce heat to medium. Stir in garlic, ketchup, Worcestershire sauce, mustard, apple cider vinegar, salt, pepper, and smoked paprika. Cook 2–3 minutes until the liquid is mostly absorbed and the filling smells tangy and savory. Remove from heat and let cool 5 minutes, then stir in shredded cheddar.
- Cut the crusts. Unroll each pie crust on a lightly floured surface. Using a 5-inch round cutter or a small bowl as a guide, cut 2 circles from each crust (8 circles total). Re-roll scraps if needed.
- Fill and seal. Place about 3 tablespoons of beef filling onto one half of each dough circle, leaving a 1/2-inch border. Fold the dough over the filling to form a half-moon shape. Press edges firmly with a fork to seal. Place on prepared baking sheets.
- Egg wash and vent. Brush the tops of the turnovers with beaten egg. Use a sharp knife to cut two small slits in the top of each turnover to allow steam to escape.
- Bake. Bake 18–22 minutes, until the crusts are deep golden brown. Let rest 5 minutes before serving.
- Freeze for later. To freeze, cool completely, arrange in a single layer on a baking sheet, freeze until solid (about 1 hour), then transfer to labeled quart freezer bags. Reheat from frozen at 350°F for 20–25 minutes.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 390 | Protein: 18g | Fat: 22g | Carbs: 30g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 510mg