First week of May. Houston has already decided it's summer — ninety-one degrees on Thursday, humidity you could swim through. I grew up in this weather and I still haven't made peace with it. The smoker doesn't mind the heat. I mind the heat. The smoker and I have different priorities.
Spent the week on wedding logistics, which for me means food. Lourdes and I had our first planning call on Tuesday. She's methodical in a way I appreciate — she had a spreadsheet with dishes, quantities, prep times, and serving temperatures. I had a napkin with "brisket" written on it. We complement each other. We settled on a menu: my brisket and pulled pork, her pancit and lumpia, a joint spring roll station (my Vietnamese rolls, her Filipino-style), pho from Mai (non-negotiable — Mai insisted), and James volunteered to make jollof rice, which wasn't on anyone's list but no one objected because jollof rice objections don't exist.
The guest list has grown to a hundred and twenty people. I did the math on the brisket: three full packers, roughly forty-two pounds of raw meat, which will yield about twenty-five pounds of finished product. That's enough. Barely. I'll probably do four just in case, because running out of brisket at my daughter's wedding is a scenario I will not allow to occur in this or any timeline.
Kevin came to Tuesday's meeting again. He's at forty-five days now. He talked more this time — about his job in restaurant kitchens, about how every kitchen he's worked in runs on alcohol and adrenaline, about how getting sober in that environment is like trying to quit swimming while standing in a pool. I understood. The shrimp boats were the same way. Drinking wasn't optional; it was part of the culture, the same way steel-toed boots were part of the culture. You didn't question it. Until you had to.
I talked to Kevin after the meeting. I didn't lecture him or give advice — I just told him about the boats, about the night in the storm, about Carlos. He listened without interrupting, which is a skill most people don't have. When I was done he said, "You ever think about drinking when you cook?" I said, "Every time I deglaze a pan." He almost smiled. That's progress.
Made gỏi cuốn — fresh spring rolls — with the kids Wednesday night. Not the fried kind. The fresh ones: rice paper, shrimp, vermicelli, lettuce, mint, cilantro, wrapped tight and dipped in peanut sauce. They're the most meditative thing I cook. The wrapping process requires attention and gentleness — too tight and the paper tears, too loose and they fall apart. Like most things worth doing, the margin between right and wrong is narrow and the only teacher is repetition.
The rolls themselves don’t take long to assemble, but the pickled carrots and daikon — the do chua — are what give them their backbone, that bright acidic crunch that keeps every bite from going soft and sweet. I made a jar before the kids arrived Wednesday night, the same way my mother always had a jar going in the back of the fridge: sharp and cold, ready when you needed it. If Wednesday taught me anything it’s that the meditative part of wrapping only works when every component is already right, and the pickles have to be right first.
Pickled Carrots and Daikon
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 5 min | Total Time: 30 min (plus 1 hr resting) | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 2 medium carrots, peeled and cut into matchsticks
- 1/2 lb daikon radish, peeled and cut into matchsticks
- 1 tsp kosher salt
- 1 tsp sugar (for initial macerating)
- 3/4 cup rice vinegar
- 1/2 cup warm water
- 3 tbsp sugar
- 1 tsp salt
Instructions
- Salt the vegetables. Combine carrot and daikon matchsticks in a bowl. Sprinkle with 1 tsp salt and 1 tsp sugar, toss to coat, and let sit 10 minutes until slightly softened. Rinse under cold water and squeeze out excess moisture with your hands.
- Make the brine. In a small saucepan over medium heat, combine rice vinegar, warm water, 3 tbsp sugar, and 1 tsp salt. Stir until sugar and salt fully dissolve, about 2—3 minutes. Remove from heat and let cool slightly.
- Pack and pickle. Pack the carrots and daikon tightly into a clean 1-pint jar or heatproof container. Pour the warm brine over the vegetables, making sure they are fully submerged.
- Rest before serving. Let sit at room temperature for at least 1 hour before using. For best flavor, refrigerate overnight. Keeps refrigerated for up to 2 weeks.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 35 | Protein: 0g | Fat: 0g | Carbs: 8g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 290mg