Halloween. Base trick-or-treating. The standard. Three hundred kids in three hours.
Wednesday morning meal prep — Sunday afternoon, hours of containers. The freezer is full. The future-me thanks present-me. Donna taught me this routine. Donna's freezer was always full. Donna saved her sanity with quart bags labeled in Sharpie.
Ryan went to his counselor Wednesday. He always comes home calmer. I am calm too, just from him being calm. The man Torres was killed with — Ryan calls his wife twice a year on Torres's birthday and the anniversary. The military widows are their own community.
I went to the commissary Saturday morning. Got the grocery haul under sixty bucks for the week, which is a small victory. The cashier knows me. We talked about her grandkids while she scanned the chicken thighs and the family-size box of pasta. Small-town energy on a Marine base in California.
The Friday before-school morning was chaos. Three kids, two backpacks, one missing shoe. We all made it to the bus. I drank cold coffee at nine AM because that's when I sat down. Standard.
Ryan's friends came over Friday for a beer. I made wings and chips. They demolished both. Standard Marine appetite — they eat like they are still on rations. The kitchen looked like a battlefield by the end. They cleaned up. Marines clean up. Donna would have been impressed.
Dad called. He has been gardening. He is sending zucchini updates again. The PTSD is managed. He talks more than he used to. He is becoming his own version of healed, which I did not think was possible at fourteen.
Caleb's school had a fundraiser this week. I baked cookies because I always bake cookies. The cookies were the standard chocolate chip. They sold out in twenty minutes. I am the cookie mom of this PTO and I have stopped fighting it.
I read the blog comments at the kitchen table with my coffee. A young spouse in Lejeune emailed me about deployment cooking. I wrote her back at length. I told her about the freezer. I told her about Donna. I told her she would survive. I sent her three of Donna's recipes.
Donna sent a recipe card in the mail this week. She has been doing this for years. The recipes go in the binder. The binder is full. The newest one is for a green bean casserole that uses fresh green beans and fried shallots and which I will absolutely make for the next holiday.
The kitchen counter has a chip in it from someone before us. Some military housing thing. I have stopped asking what. The chip is fine. The whole kitchen is provisional. We are renting from Uncle Sam.
Hazel and I had a hard moment Tuesday at homework time. She is in a season of testing limits. We worked through it. We always do. She is mine.
I made a casserole for a neighbor whose husband is deployed. I dropped it off. She cried. I told her, eat the casserole, baby. The food is the saying. The casserole was a mostly-frozen tater-tot situation that took fifteen minutes of effort and six months of practice to perfect.
Reading another military memoir at night. They make Ryan tense. They steady me. We negotiate. He doesn't ask what I'm reading. I don't tell him. The arrangement works.
Ryan came home tired Wednesday. He showered, ate, sat on the couch, was asleep by eight. Standard for a Marine who has been up since four-thirty for PT and stayed late for a brief. The schedule is the schedule. The body adapts because it has to.
Donna’s latest recipe card is still on the counter — I keep moving it and then moving it back, which means I’m not ready to file it yet. When I dropped the casserole off next door this week and watched my neighbor cry over a tater-tot dish, I remembered what Donna always said: the food does the talking. These Party Puffs are straight from that same school of thought — flaky, creamy, warm, and full of the kind of chicken-and-comfort filling that belongs in a pot pie but travels better. I make them in batches, freeze half, and keep the other half ready for whoever needs them next.
Party Puffs
Prep Time: 20 min | Cook Time: 22 min | Total Time: 42 min | Servings: 24 puffs
Ingredients
- 2 cups cooked chicken, finely shredded
- 4 oz cream cheese, softened
- 1/4 cup frozen peas, thawed
- 1/4 cup finely diced celery
- 2 tablespoons finely diced onion
- 1 tablespoon Dijon mustard
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1/2 teaspoon dried thyme
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- 1/4 teaspoon salt
- 2 cans (8 oz each) refrigerated crescent roll dough
- 1 egg, beaten (for egg wash)
- 1 tablespoon sesame seeds or everything bagel seasoning (optional)
Instructions
- Preheat. Heat oven to 375°F. Line two baking sheets with parchment paper and set aside.
- Make the filling. In a medium bowl, combine shredded chicken, softened cream cheese, peas, celery, onion, Dijon mustard, garlic powder, thyme, salt, and pepper. Mix until well combined and creamy. Taste and adjust seasoning.
- Prep the dough. Unroll crescent dough onto a lightly floured surface. Press the perforations together firmly to form two solid rectangles. Using a sharp knife or pizza cutter, cut each rectangle into 12 equal squares (approximately 2 inches each), giving you 24 squares total.
- Fill and seal. Place a rounded teaspoon of filling in the center of each square. Fold the dough over the filling to form a triangle or rectangle, then press the edges firmly with a fork to seal completely. Transfer to the prepared baking sheets, spacing about 1 inch apart.
- Egg wash. Brush the tops of the puffs with the beaten egg. Sprinkle with sesame seeds or everything bagel seasoning if using.
- Bake. Bake for 18–22 minutes, until deep golden brown and puffed. Rotate pans halfway through for even browning.
- Cool and serve. Let rest on the pan for 5 minutes before serving. Serve warm. To freeze: cool completely, arrange in a single layer on a baking sheet, freeze until solid, then transfer to labeled quart freezer bags. Reheat from frozen at 350°F for 12–15 minutes.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 118 | Protein: 6g | Fat: 7g | Carbs: 8g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 210mg