February vacation week and I took Sofia to Puerto Rico. Just the two of us. Mother and daughter on the island, and I have not done this trip with just Sofia before — usually the whole family goes, or I go alone to see Mami — but this year I wanted my daughter to see Bayamon through my eyes before she graduates and goes off into the world and becomes too busy to take a week with her mother.
We stayed with Mami and Ana in the house in Hato Tejas. Mami looked smaller than the last time I saw her — seventy-nine is starting to show in her body even if her spirit is still the size of the island. She hugged Sofia and said, You are too thin. Eat something. Sofia has heard this her entire life from her grandmother and she has learned the only correct response, which is, Yes, Abuela, and to eat whatever is put in front of her.
I took Sofia to the places that made me. The corner where the piragua man used to park his cart. The school where I learned to read in Spanish. The bakery that still sells pan de agua, the crusty bread rolls that Mami used to buy every morning. We walked the streets of Hato Tejas and I showed her the spot where the concrete block house used to stand — the house where I grew up, seven children, three bedrooms, one bathroom, Abuela Consuelo in the kitchen. It is different now, the neighborhood changed, some houses newer, some gone, but the streets remember. The streets always remember.
Mami cooked for us. She insisted, even though her hands shake now and her memory is not what it was. She made arroz con habichuelas — rice and beans, simple, the meal she made a thousand times in that kitchen. I stood behind her and watched her hands work and I memorized everything — the amount of sofrito she added, the way she stirred the beans, the exact moment she knew the rice was done without looking at a clock. I memorized it because someday I will not be able to ask her, and when that day comes I will need to remember. I will need to cook her food from my memory the way she cooks it from hers.
Sofia and I sat on the porch at night and listened to the coqui frogs, the sound that exists nowhere else on earth, the tiny frogs that sing ko-KEE, ko-KEE in the dark, and Sofia said, Mami, this is beautiful. I said, This is home, mija. Even when we live in Hartford. Even when it is cold and gray and far away. This is home. The frogs said it better than I could. They always do.
Standing in my grandmother’s kitchen watching her hands move through that rice and beans — the sofrito, the stir, the silent knowing — I came home carrying something I didn’t want to lose. So I made my own version the week we got back, a rice and beans bowl built from everything I memorized, everything I refused to let go. It isn’t her arroz con habichuelas exactly, but it holds the same feeling: simple food made with intention, the kind that tastes like home even when home is far away. Here’s how I made it.
Mexican Haystacks (Rice & Beans Bowl)
Prep Time: 15 minutes | Cook Time: 25 minutes | Total Time: 40 minutes | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 2 cups long-grain white rice
- 4 cups water or low-sodium chicken broth
- 1 teaspoon salt
- 1 tablespoon olive oil
- 2 tablespoons sofrito (store-bought or homemade)
- 1 small yellow onion, finely diced
- 4 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 pound lean ground beef or ground turkey
- 1 teaspoon ground cumin
- 1 teaspoon smoked paprika
- 1/2 teaspoon dried oregano
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- 1 can (15 oz) pink or red kidney beans, drained and rinsed
- 1 can (15 oz) diced tomatoes with juices
- 1/2 cup low-sodium chicken or vegetable broth
- 1 teaspoon apple cider vinegar
For topping (choose your own):
- Shredded cheddar or Colby Jack cheese
- Sour cream
- Diced fresh tomato
- Sliced green onions
- Sliced black olives
- Shredded lettuce
- Pickled jalapeños
- Fresh cilantro
- Lime wedges
Instructions
- Cook the rice. Combine rice, water or broth, and salt in a medium saucepan. Bring to a boil over high heat, then reduce heat to the lowest setting, cover tightly, and cook 18 minutes. Remove from heat and let steam, covered, for 5 minutes. Fluff with a fork.
- Build the sofrito base. While the rice cooks, heat olive oil in a large skillet over medium heat. Add sofrito and onion and cook, stirring, until the onion softens and the sofrito deepens in color, about 4 to 5 minutes. Add garlic and cook 1 minute more.
- Brown the meat. Add ground beef or turkey to the skillet. Break it up with a wooden spoon and cook until no pink remains, about 6 to 7 minutes. Drain off excess fat if needed.
- Season and simmer. Stir in cumin, smoked paprika, oregano, and black pepper. Add the drained beans, diced tomatoes with their juices, and broth. Stir to combine. Bring to a gentle simmer and cook uncovered for 8 to 10 minutes, until the liquid reduces and the mixture thickens slightly. Stir in the apple cider vinegar and taste for salt.
- Build your haystacks. Spoon a generous mound of rice into each bowl. Ladle the bean and meat mixture over the rice. Let each person pile on their own toppings — cheese first so it melts slightly, then everything else. Serve with lime wedges on the side.
Nutrition (per serving, rice and bean base only, toppings not included)
Calories: 420 | Protein: 26g | Fat: 9g | Carbs: 55g | Fiber: 7g | Sodium: 480mg