Summer hit Nashville like somebody opened an oven door and forgot to close it. It's June and it's already 92 degrees and Chloe's pre-K is done for the year and now I have a four-year-old and a fifteen-month-old at home all day with Mama while I work, and Lorraine Mitchell at sixty-one years old is chasing a toddler through an apartment that doesn't have central air because the window unit in the living room is the only thing standing between us and actual heatstroke.
I bought a kiddie pool at Walmart for $12. Best twelve dollars I've ever spent. Mama puts the kids in the pool on the patio every afternoon and Chloe splashes Jayden and Jayden eats the water and Mama sits in a lawn chair with a glass of sweet tea and looks like a woman who has earned the right to sit. She has. She really has.
I got my financial aid package from Nashville State. Full Pell Grant. It covers tuition and most of the fees. I still need about $400 for books and supplies, but $400 is a number I can work toward. That's five extra shifts at Waffle House. That's one catering gig I haven't booked yet. That's something, not nothing, and the difference between something and nothing is everything when you're building from scratch.
Marcus's mom Wanda came by on Saturday to see the kids. She brought Chloe a dress and Jayden a stuffed elephant. She sat on my couch and held Jayden and said, "He looks just like Marcus did at this age." I didn't say what I was thinking, which was: I hope that's where the similarity ends. Instead I said, "He's a good boy." Because he is. He is the best boy. He is nothing like his father yet, and I'm going to do everything I can to keep it that way — not because Marcus is evil, but because Marcus is absent, and absence is its own kind of damage, and Jayden deserves someone who stays.
I made a pasta salad this week that I'm unreasonably proud of. Rotini noodles, cherry tomatoes from a neighbor's garden (Mrs. Patterson next door grows them and leaves bags of them on my porch like a tomato fairy godmother), black olives, Italian dressing, and cubed cheddar cheese. Cold. Cheap. Perfect for when it's too hot to turn on the stove. Chloe picked out the olives. Jayden ate the cheese and ignored everything else. I ate it for lunch three days in a row and felt like a genius.
Keandra at work asked me what I'm doing for the summer. I said, "Surviving." She laughed. I wasn't entirely joking. Summer with two small kids on one income in a house that hits 85 degrees by noon is not a vacation. It's an endurance test with popsicle breaks. But it's also: Chloe chasing fireflies in the yard at dusk. Jayden falling asleep in the kiddie pool and having to be carried inside, warm and limp and impossibly peaceful. The smell of honeysuckle through the open windows at night. Nashville summer has a sound — crickets and distant music and the hum of air conditioners working overtime — and that sound is the soundtrack of my whole life. It's home. It's always been home.
Two months until school starts. I'm ready. I'm not ready. Both things are true. I'm learning to hold two truths at the same time, which I think is what growing up actually is — not choosing between scared and brave, but being both, all the time, and doing the thing anyway.
Somewhere in the middle of all that — the heat and the fireflies and the holding-two-things-at-once — I needed a meal that didn’t ask anything of me. No standing over a hot stove, no timing anything just right, no surviving the kitchen on top of everything else. Pasta salad is my summer answer every time: make it once, eat it twice, and feel just a little bit like you’ve got things handled. Here’s the version I keep coming back to.
Easy Italian Pasta Salad
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 10 min (pasta only) | Total Time: 25 min (plus 30 min chill) | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 12 oz rotini pasta
- 1 cup cherry tomatoes, halved
- 1 can (3.8 oz) sliced black olives, drained
- 6 oz sharp cheddar cheese, cubed small
- 1/2 cup Italian dressing (store-bought is perfect)
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- 1/4 teaspoon garlic powder
- Salt for pasta water
Instructions
- Cook the pasta. Bring a large pot of salted water to a boil. Add the rotini and cook according to package directions until just al dente, about 8–9 minutes. Do not overcook — it will soften more as it chills.
- Cool it down fast. Drain the pasta and rinse under cold running water for a full minute, tossing as you go, until the pasta is completely cool. Shake off excess water well.
- Combine. In a large bowl, toss the cooled pasta with the cherry tomatoes, black olives, and cubed cheddar. Pour the Italian dressing over everything and add the black pepper and garlic powder. Stir until evenly coated.
- Chill. Cover and refrigerate for at least 30 minutes before serving. The pasta will absorb the dressing as it sits — if it looks dry after chilling, drizzle with another tablespoon or two of dressing and toss again.
- Serve cold. Taste for seasoning and add salt or more dressing as needed. Serve straight from the fridge. Keeps covered in the refrigerator for up to 4 days.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 340 | Protein: 12g | Fat: 14g | Carbs: 42g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 520mg