Fall. The season that changes everything, every year, without fail. The maples turn. The air thins. The mornings need a jacket. Nashville in September is the exhale after summer — the relief of cooler air, the promise of sweaters, the specific beauty of a city that was built in a river valley and knows how to frame a sunset.
At church on Sunday, Terrence was there again. He sat two rows behind us. After service, he found me at the fellowship table (I was manning the cornbread, as always) and he said, "I was hoping you'd bring that cornbread again." I said, "I bring it every week." He said, "Then I'll be here every week." He smiled. I didn't smile back, not because I wasn't flattered but because I've been smiled at by charming men before and the last one left when the baby was six months old. I said, "The cornbread is free. The cook comes with conditions." He laughed. He said, "Fair enough." And walked away. And I stood at the cornbread table with a knife in one hand and a paper plate in the other and my heart doing something it hasn't done in years: noticing.
I am not looking for a man. I need to say that clearly, to myself, in writing, because the last time I wasn't looking, Marcus happened, and then Chloe happened (the best thing), and then Marcus left (the worst thing). I am not looking. I am building a career and raising two kids and planning community events and making Earline's cornbread and I do NOT have time for a music producer who shows up at church and compliments my food and has a smile that makes me forget to serve the next person in line.
Chloe has settled into first grade. Mr. Torres, she's decided, is "okay." He earned this upgrade from "nice but no stickers" by reading the class a chapter of Charlotte's Web — Chloe's favorite — and doing different voices for each character. She came home and said, "Mr. Torres does a REALLY good Templeton." High praise. Mr. Torres has been promoted to "okay" via rat voice. That's first grade.
I made a butternut squash risotto this week — my first risotto ever. Roasted butternut squash, arborio rice, broth, butter, parmesan, sage. It took forty-five minutes of stirring. FORTY-FIVE MINUTES. I stood at the stove and stirred and stirred and thought about nothing and everything and the risotto was creamy and golden and tasted like fall and patience and the specific satisfaction of a woman who used to make Hamburger Helper and now makes risotto. The distance between Hamburger Helper and risotto is not culinary. It's existential. Both feed you. One feeds you from the box. The other feeds you from the stirring.
That risotto taught me something I didn’t expect: that standing still and stirring is its own kind of thinking. I’ve been spending more time at the stove since then — not because I have extra time, but because those quiet forty-five minutes reminded me that cooking can be where you put yourself back together after a Sunday that had you noticing things you’re not ready to notice. This zucchini soup came the week after. It’s faster than risotto, gentler, and it asks almost nothing of you except to show up with a pot and pay a little attention — which, it turns out, is something I’m learning how to do again.
Zucchini Soup
Prep Time: 10 min | Cook Time: 25 min | Total Time: 35 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 2 tablespoons olive oil
- 1 medium yellow onion, diced
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 4 medium zucchini (about 1 1/2 lbs), sliced into half-moons
- 3 cups vegetable broth
- 1/2 teaspoon dried thyme
- 1/4 teaspoon ground black pepper
- 1/2 teaspoon kosher salt, plus more to taste
- 1/4 cup heavy cream
- 2 tablespoons fresh parsley, chopped, for garnish
- Crusty bread or cornbread, for serving (optional)
Instructions
- Sauté the aromatics. Heat olive oil in a large pot or Dutch oven over medium heat. Add the diced onion and cook, stirring occasionally, until softened and translucent, about 5 minutes. Add the minced garlic and cook for 1 minute more, until fragrant.
- Add the zucchini. Add the sliced zucchini to the pot along with the thyme, salt, and pepper. Stir to coat in the oil and cook for 4–5 minutes, until the zucchini begins to soften and picks up a little color at the edges.
- Simmer with broth. Pour in the vegetable broth and bring to a boil. Reduce heat to medium-low, cover loosely, and simmer for 12–15 minutes, until the zucchini is completely tender.
- Blend the soup. Use an immersion blender to puree the soup directly in the pot until smooth. Alternatively, carefully transfer in batches to a blender and blend until creamy. Return to the pot over low heat.
- Finish and season. Stir in the heavy cream and taste for seasoning, adjusting salt and pepper as needed. Heat gently for 2–3 minutes; do not boil once the cream is added.
- Serve. Ladle into bowls and top with fresh parsley. Serve warm with crusty bread or a square of cornbread alongside.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 140 | Protein: 3g | Fat: 10g | Carbs: 10g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 520mg