The pandemic continues and so do we. At the station, we have settled into a new normal that feels nothing like normal: masks on every call, decontamination after every patient contact, a constant low-grade anxiety that hums beneath the professional composure like an engine idling. We have not lost anyone on the crew — no COVID cases, no illness — and I attribute this to discipline, PPE, and the stubborn refusal of firefighters to admit vulnerability.
Travis grew up this month. Not physically — he is still the same golden-retriever-energy kid I hired — but professionally. He has handled the pandemic calls with a steadiness that I did not expect from someone with three years on the job. He wears his N95 without complaint. He decontaminates without being reminded. He checks on the crew's mental health with a quiet attentiveness that tells me he is paying attention to more than just the calls. I told him last shift, "You are becoming a firefighter." He said, "I thought I already was one." I said, "You were a probie who knew procedures. Now you are a firefighter who knows people." The distinction is everything.
At home: the rhythm has solidified into a pattern. Jessica works at the dining table from 8 to 5. Sofia does her school worksheets at the kitchen table from 9 to noon (she finishes them in ninety minutes and spends the remaining time reading or kicking the soccer ball in the backyard). Diego exists in a state of permanent chaos — playing, climbing, talking, screaming, eating — and I manage him on my off days with the same attention I give a multi-alarm fire: constant vigilance, rapid response, and the understanding that damage is inevitable but containable.
I have started cooking with Sofia as a daily activity. Not just helping me — actually cooking. She measures ingredients, cracks eggs (getting better — only twenty percent shell now), stirs batter, chops soft vegetables with her butter knife. This week we made banana bread together. From scratch: mashed bananas, flour, sugar, butter, eggs, a splash of vanilla, a pinch of cinnamon. She mixed the batter and poured it into the loaf pan and watched it through the oven window for forty-five minutes with the patience of a person who understands that good things take time.
The banana bread was perfect. Golden, moist, the cinnamon just barely there. We sliced it warm and ate it with butter at the kitchen table and Sofia said, "I made this." Not "we made this." "I made this." She is six years old and she made banana bread from scratch during a pandemic and claimed it entirely as her own. That is a Rivera move. I am so proud I could burst.
After Sofia claimed that banana bread so completely — not “we made this,” but “I made this” — I was not about to let the banana momentum die. The next morning I pulled out the overripe bananas on the counter and we did it again, this time for breakfast: whole grain banana pancakes, batter mixed by a six-year-old who now fully believes she is a chef. She is not wrong. If you have a kid who needs to own something right now, hand them a fork and let them mash the bananas. The rest takes care of itself.
Whole Grain Banana Pancakes
Prep Time: 10 min | Cook Time: 20 min | Total Time: 30 min | Servings: 4 (about 12 pancakes)
Ingredients
- 2 medium ripe bananas, mashed
- 1 cup whole wheat flour
- 1/2 cup all-purpose flour
- 2 teaspoons baking powder
- 1/4 teaspoon baking soda
- 1/4 teaspoon salt
- 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 1 tablespoon brown sugar
- 1 cup buttermilk
- 1 large egg
- 2 tablespoons unsalted butter, melted, plus more for the pan
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
Instructions
- Mash the bananas. In a large bowl, mash the ripe bananas with a fork until mostly smooth. A few small lumps are fine and add texture.
- Mix the dry ingredients. In a separate medium bowl, whisk together the whole wheat flour, all-purpose flour, baking powder, baking soda, salt, cinnamon, and brown sugar until evenly combined.
- Combine the wet ingredients. Into the bowl with the mashed banana, add the buttermilk, egg, melted butter, and vanilla extract. Stir until the wet mixture is uniform.
- Make the batter. Pour the dry ingredients into the wet ingredients and stir gently until just combined. Do not overmix — a few streaks of flour and a lumpy batter will produce lighter pancakes.
- Rest the batter. Let the batter sit for 5 minutes while you heat your pan. This allows the whole wheat flour to fully hydrate.
- Cook the pancakes. Heat a large nonstick skillet or griddle over medium heat and lightly butter the surface. Pour approximately 1/4 cup of batter per pancake. Cook until bubbles form across the surface and the edges look set, about 2–3 minutes, then flip and cook 1–2 minutes more until golden.
- Serve warm. Serve immediately with butter, maple syrup, or sliced fresh banana. Leftover pancakes keep well in the refrigerator for 2 days or can be frozen and reheated in the toaster.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 290 | Protein: 9g | Fat: 8g | Carbs: 48g | Fiber: 5g | Sodium: 360mg