The Cedarhurst visits continue — day 90, approximately, and I have learned the routines of the facility the way I learned the routines of the school: the shift changes, the meal times, the activities schedule, the staff rhythms. I know which nurse is on duty on which day. I know which aide is patient with Marvin and which is efficient but rushed. I know that the activities director plays music on Thursday afternoons that Marvin responds to — big band, Sinatra, Ella — and that the responding is physical: a foot tap, a head nod, a rhythm in the body that the disease has not yet reached. I attend the Thursday music sessions when I can, sitting beside Marvin while Sinatra sings, and the two of us sit together in that room full of people whose minds are going but whose bodies remember how to swing, and the swinging is the mercy, and the mercy is the music.
I brought brisket on Monday, soup on Tuesday, kugel on Wednesday, chicken on Thursday, challah on Friday. The menu rotates. The love does not rotate. The love is constant, like the drive, like the parking lot, like the hallway, like the door to his room, like the chair where I sit, like the container I open, like the spoon I use to feed him when his hands are too unsteady. The feeding has become more involved — Marvin's fine motor skills are declining, and the fork is sometimes too much, and the spoon is sometimes too much, and on some days I feed him by hand, the brisket torn into small pieces and placed on his tongue, and the feeding by hand is the most intimate act of my life, more intimate than anything in forty years of marriage, because the feeding by hand is pure: I give. He receives. The food crosses. The chain holds.
The brisket I bring on Mondays is Marvin’s favorite, but some weeks I want something that bridges the familiar and the easy —something I can tear apart without ceremony, something silky enough that it barely asks anything of him at all. Stroganoff came to mind the way the right word comes: suddenly, and with certainty. The beef goes tender with patience, the sauce wraps around it like a held hand, and on the days when the spoon is too much and I feed him piece by piece, this is the dish I reach for —because it crosses from my hands to his tongue as gently as anything I know how to make.
Ultimate Beef Stroganoff
Prep Time: 15 minutes | Cook Time: 35 minutes | Total Time: 50 minutes | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 2 lbs beef sirloin or tenderloin, thinly sliced against the grain
- 1 teaspoon kosher salt, plus more to taste
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
- 2 tablespoons olive oil, divided
- 2 tablespoons unsalted butter
- 1 medium yellow onion, finely diced
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 10 oz cremini mushrooms, sliced
- 2 tablespoons all-purpose flour
- 1 cup beef broth
- 1 tablespoon Worcestershire sauce
- 1 tablespoon Dijon mustard
- 1 cup sour cream, room temperature
- 12 oz egg noodles, cooked according to package directions
- Fresh parsley, chopped, for serving
Instructions
- Season the beef. Pat beef slices dry with paper towels and season evenly with salt and pepper.
- Sear the beef. Heat 1 tablespoon olive oil in a large skillet over medium-high heat. Working in batches to avoid crowding, sear the beef for 1—2 minutes per side until browned. Transfer to a plate and set aside.
- Saute the aromatics. In the same skillet, melt butter with the remaining tablespoon of olive oil over medium heat. Add the onion and cook for 4—5 minutes until softened. Add garlic and cook 1 minute more.
- Cook the mushrooms. Add sliced mushrooms to the skillet and cook for 5—7 minutes, stirring occasionally, until they release their moisture and turn golden.
- Build the sauce. Sprinkle the flour over the mushroom mixture and stir to coat. Pour in the beef broth, Worcestershire sauce, and Dijon mustard. Stir and bring to a gentle simmer, scraping up any browned bits from the bottom of the pan. Cook for 3—4 minutes until the sauce begins to thicken.
- Finish with sour cream. Reduce heat to low. Stir in the sour cream until fully incorporated. Do not boil once the sour cream is added, or the sauce may separate.
- Return the beef. Add the seared beef (and any resting juices) back into the skillet. Stir gently to coat and warm through, about 2 minutes. Taste and adjust seasoning.
- Serve. Spoon the stroganoff over cooked egg noodles and garnish with fresh parsley. Serve immediately.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 520 | Protein: 38g | Fat: 22g | Carbs: 42g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 480mg