Three years.
January 1, 2021. I drove to the river at first light, same spot on the Yellowstone south of town, the fast water in the middle channel running dark and cold under a gray January sky. Three years. I stood there for twenty minutes. I thought about the man who had sat in a truck outside a bar in Billings and decided not to go in. I thought about what three years of not going in had built. I thought about my father's hands on the documents that made the ranch partly mine. I thought about Linda Owens saying Derek would have liked who I'd become. I thought about the horses I'd helped and the ones still coming.
Twenty minutes is enough. Then you go home and make coffee and start the day. The anniversary is the acknowledgment, not the dwelling. You mark it and you move forward because moving forward is the point.
Cole Hartfield started Monday — January 4th, first full work week of 2021. We went to three accounts on his first day: the Henderson horses, which I know as well as any, then the Kowalski drafts, then a new residential account in Livingston. I watched him watch me. He's quiet in the right way — observational, not withdrawn. He notices what I do before he asks why, which is the correct sequence. The why is more useful when you've seen the what first.
Made a large pot of oatmeal Tuesday morning when it was twelve below and the truck didn't start on the first turn. Steel-cut oats with brown sugar and dried fruit and a knob of butter. The kind of breakfast that doesn't feel like compromise. I made enough for the three of us and Cole, who came in from the cold with the expression of a man who'd been standing outside longer than was comfortable, and ate two bowls without comment. That's the correct response to good oatmeal in twelve-below weather.
Steel-cut oats earned their place that Tuesday, and I’d make them the same way again in the same weather. But on the mornings when the day starts before I have time to stand at the stove — when Cole is already pulling on his boots and the first account is an hour out — I reach for a batch of this triple coconut granola I keep in a jar on the counter. It’s the same spirit as that pot of oatmeal: nothing fussy, nothing that feels like compromise, just something warm and real that tells whoever’s eating it that somebody paid attention. Three kinds of coconut and enough honey to matter. You make it once and it carries you through a week of early mornings.
Triple Coconut Granola
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 30 minutes | Total Time: 40 minutes | Servings: 10
Ingredients
- 3 cups old-fashioned rolled oats
- 1 cup unsweetened shredded coconut
- 1 cup large unsweetened coconut flakes
- 1/4 cup packed light brown sugar
- 1/2 tsp fine sea salt
- 1/3 cup coconut oil, melted
- 1/3 cup honey
- 1 tsp pure vanilla extract
- 1/2 cup toasted coconut chips, for finishing
Instructions
- Preheat the oven. Heat oven to 325°F. Line a large rimmed baking sheet with parchment paper.
- Combine the dry ingredients. In a large bowl, stir together the rolled oats, shredded coconut, coconut flakes, brown sugar, and salt until evenly mixed.
- Mix the wet ingredients. In a small bowl or measuring cup, whisk together the melted coconut oil, honey, and vanilla extract.
- Coat the oat mixture. Pour the wet ingredients over the dry ingredients and stir thoroughly until every oat and coconut piece is coated.
- Spread and bake. Spread the mixture in an even layer on the prepared baking sheet. Bake for 15 minutes, then remove and stir once, spreading back out evenly. Return to the oven and bake another 12–15 minutes until deep golden brown. Watch closely in the final few minutes — coconut toasts fast.
- Cool completely. Remove from the oven and press the granola lightly with a spatula if you want clusters. Let it cool on the pan without stirring for at least 20 minutes — it crisps as it cools.
- Finish and store. Once fully cooled, toss in the toasted coconut chips. Transfer to an airtight jar or container. Keeps at room temperature for up to two weeks.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 290 | Protein: 4g | Fat: 16g | Carbs: 35g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 95mg