I gave the presentation. And I didn't die.
Thursday morning, 8 AM, the hospital's main conference room. Forty-three attendees (I counted, because counting is what I do when I'm nervous). Dr. Okafor introduced me — "our clinical pharmacist who's been doing remarkable work with cardiac patients" — and then it was my turn.
I stood at the podium. I looked at the room. Forty-three faces. Lab coats. The specific confidence of physicians who have seen everything. And I thought about Amma standing in her kitchen, commanding the stove with the same authority these doctors command the operating room. If Lakshmi Krishnamurthy can run a six-dish thali production with no recipe and no fear, her daughter can present twenty slides to forty-three doctors.
I clicked to slide one. "The pharmacist-led cardiac MTM program: six-month outcomes." And I talked. For twenty minutes. Without saying "um" (much). Without losing my place. Without my voice shaking (after the first two minutes, which I'm pretending didn't happen).
The data landed. I could see it in the faces — the slight forward lean, the note-taking, the raised eyebrows at the adverse event prevention numbers. When I showed the case study of Mrs. Goldstein — the interaction I caught that two years of prescribers had missed — Dr. Winters, the pharmacy director, actually said "good catch" loud enough for the room to hear.
Questions afterward: seven. All genuine, none hostile. A hospitalist asked about expanding the program to heart failure patients. An internist asked about pharmacist-prescriber communication protocols. Raj asked nothing because he knew that asking a question would look like favoritism, but he caught my eye and gave me the smallest nod, and I felt it like a hand on my back.
Afterward, Dr. Okafor found me in the hallway. "Well done. The committee is going to recommend expanding the program." He shook my hand. I walked to the pharmacy, went into the medication room, closed the door, and cried for three minutes. Then I washed my face and went back to work.
I called Amma from the car on the way home.
"How was your presentation?"
"It went well, Amma."
"Of course it did. You're my daughter."
This is the closest Lakshmi Krishnamurthy comes to saying "I'm proud of you." And from Amma, it's everything.
Dinner tonight: I made nothing. Raj brought home Thai food — pad see ew and green curry and spring rolls — and we ate on the couch and I told him everything and he listened with his whole body the way he does when something matters.
"You were great," he said.
"I was scared."
"Those aren't mutually exclusive."
One year ago this week, I was a pharmacist at a CVS counter, filling prescriptions and watching the clock. Now I'm leading a program, presenting to doctors, catching the things that slip through the cracks. This is what Amma and Appa came to America for. Not the CVS counter. This.
Week fifty-two. One year of writing about food and life. One year of sambar and dosa and biryani and pot pie. One year of Amma's recipes and Raj's pancakes and Arvind's Sunday dinners and my own fumbling attempts to be all the things I'm supposed to be: daughter, wife, pharmacist, cook, Indian, American, both, neither, myself.
The food remembers. I write it down. The year turns.
After Arvind drove away and I finally let myself exhale, I wanted something that tasted like that dinner — the Thai food, the couch, the way he said those aren’t mutually exclusive like it was the simplest truth in the world. Thai iced tea felt exactly right: sweet and strong and a little unexpected, the kind of thing that looks simple but has more going on underneath than you’d expect. It’s become my quiet celebration drink, the thing I make when I need to mark a moment without making a fuss. Here’s how I make it.
Thai Iced Tea
Prep Time: 5 minutes | Cook Time: 5 minutes | Total Time: 10 minutes (plus chilling) | Servings: 2
Ingredients
- 3 cups water
- 3 tablespoons Thai tea mix (or strong-brewed Ceylon or orange pekoe black tea)
- 3 tablespoons sugar, or to taste
- 1/4 teaspoon vanilla extract
- 2 star anise pods (optional, for authentic flavor)
- 1/4 cup sweetened condensed milk, divided
- 1/4 cup evaporated milk or half-and-half, divided
- Ice, for serving
Instructions
- Brew the tea. Bring 3 cups of water to a boil in a small saucepan. Add the Thai tea mix (or tea bags) and star anise if using. Reduce heat and simmer for 3–5 minutes. The tea should be very dark and strong.
- Sweeten while hot. Remove from heat and stir in the sugar and vanilla extract until fully dissolved. Taste and adjust sweetness.
- Strain and cool. Pour the tea through a fine-mesh strainer into a pitcher, discarding the solids. Let cool to room temperature, then refrigerate until cold, at least 30 minutes (or speed it up by pouring over a cup of ice).
- Build the glasses. Fill two tall glasses generously with ice. Pour the chilled tea over the ice, filling each glass about 3/4 of the way.
- Add the cream. Spoon 2 tablespoons of sweetened condensed milk into each glass, then pour 2 tablespoons of evaporated milk or half-and-half over the top. Do not stir immediately — let it drift down through the tea for the classic layered look.
- Serve. Stir just before drinking, or hand your person a straw and let them do it themselves while you tell them everything.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 220 | Protein: 5g | Fat: 6g | Carbs: 37g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 95mg
About the cook who shared this
Priya Krishnamurthy
Week 52 of Priya’s 30-year story
· Edison, New Jersey
Priya is a pharmacist, wife, and mom of two in Edison, New Jersey — the town she grew up in, surrounded by the sights and smells of her mother's South Indian kitchen. These days, she splits her time between the hospital pharmacy, school pickups, and her own kitchen, where she cooks nearly every night. Her style is a blend of the Tamil recipes her mother taught her and the American comfort food her kids actually want to eat. She writes about the beautiful mess of balancing two cultures on one plate — and she wants you to know that ordering pizza is also an act of love.