I lost a patient this week. Not to COVID — or maybe to COVID; we do not know, the test results take days — but to the fear and the delay and the terrible machinery of a healthcare system running on fumes. Elderly woman, 78, living alone. She called 911 because she could not breathe. We arrived in six minutes. She was in respiratory distress — pale, gasping, oxygen levels dropping. We worked her. Rodriguez intubated. Travis ran the bag. I managed the scene. We transported. She died in the ER forty minutes later.
She might have had COVID. She might have had pneumonia. She might have had something that, two months ago, would have been caught early at a doctor's office, treated with antibiotics, and resolved. But she had not gone to the doctor because she was afraid — afraid of the virus, afraid of the hospital, afraid of the thing that the news was telling her would kill her. So she stayed home and the thing that killed her was staying home.
I drove to the station after the call and sat in my office with the door closed for twenty minutes. Rodriguez knocked and came in without waiting and sat across from me and did not say anything for five minutes. Then he said, "It is going to get worse before it gets better." I said, "I know." He said, "The crew needs you steady." I said, "I know that too." He stood up and left and I sat there for ten more minutes and then I went to the kitchen and made green chile stew for the crew because that is what I do when the world falls apart. I feed people. I cannot fix the world. I can fill a bowl.
At home: Jessica is working from the dining table, which has become her permanent office. Her laptop is surrounded by files and the printer hums all day. Sofia does worksheets at the kitchen table. Diego sits on the floor with his dinosaurs and his pots and pans and the general chaos of a two-and-a-half-year-old who has lost his routine and is expressing this through volume. The house is too small for four people and two jobs and one school and zero outside time. It is too small and too loud and too full and also the only safe place in the world.
I called Roberto every day this week. Every single day. Not because I had anything to say but because I needed to hear his voice and know he was alive. He answers the same way every time: "I am fine, mijo. Your mother is driving me crazy, but I am fine." Elena, in the background, always: "I heard that, Roberto." The comedy of their marriage continues uninterrupted by global catastrophe. Thank God.
The stew I made that day was green chile — my mother’s recipe, the one I reach for on instinct when things go badly wrong — but this Sweet Potato Chili is what I make when I want that same weight and warmth and I need to feel like I am building something instead of just surviving. Rodriguez had thirds. Travis did not say a word, just cleaned his bowl. That is how you know a recipe is doing its job: not because anyone complimented it, but because the table got quiet in the right way.
Sweet Potato Chili
Prep Time: 15 minutes | Cook Time: 40 minutes | Total Time: 55 minutes | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 2 tablespoons olive oil
- 1 large yellow onion, diced
- 4 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 green bell pepper, diced
- 1 red bell pepper, diced
- 2 medium sweet potatoes (about 1 1/2 lbs), peeled and cut into 3/4-inch cubes
- 1 can (14.5 oz) diced fire-roasted tomatoes, undrained
- 1 can (15 oz) black beans, drained and rinsed
- 1 can (15 oz) kidney beans, drained and rinsed
- 2 cups vegetable broth
- 2 tablespoons chili powder
- 1 1/2 teaspoons ground cumin
- 1 teaspoon smoked paprika
- 1/2 teaspoon dried oregano
- 1/4 teaspoon cayenne pepper, or to taste
- 1 teaspoon kosher salt, plus more to taste
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
- Juice of 1 lime
- Optional toppings: sour cream, shredded cheddar, sliced green onions, cilantro, pickled jalapeños
Instructions
- Sweat the aromatics. Heat olive oil in a large heavy-bottomed pot or Dutch oven over medium heat. Add the onion and bell peppers and cook, stirring occasionally, until softened and the onion is translucent, about 6–8 minutes. Add the garlic and cook 1 minute more, until fragrant.
- Bloom the spices. Add the chili powder, cumin, smoked paprika, oregano, and cayenne directly to the pot. Stir constantly for about 60 seconds, letting the spices toast in the oil with the vegetables. This step builds the base flavor — don’t skip it.
- Add the sweet potatoes. Stir in the cubed sweet potatoes and coat them in the spiced mixture. Cook for 2 minutes, stirring a few times.
- Build the pot. Pour in the diced tomatoes (with their liquid), both cans of beans, and the vegetable broth. Stir everything together, scraping up any bits from the bottom of the pot. Season with the salt and black pepper.
- Simmer. Bring the chili to a boil over medium-high heat, then reduce to a steady simmer. Cook uncovered for 25–30 minutes, stirring occasionally, until the sweet potatoes are completely tender when pierced with a fork and the chili has thickened to your liking. If it thickens too much, add a splash of broth.
- Finish and adjust. Squeeze in the lime juice and stir. Taste and adjust salt, cayenne, or lime as needed. If you want a thicker texture, use the back of a spoon to lightly mash some of the sweet potato cubes against the side of the pot.
- Serve. Ladle into bowls and add toppings as desired. This chili holds well and is better the next day — make a full batch.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 310 | Protein: 11g | Fat: 6g | Carbs: 54g | Fiber: 13g | Sodium: 620mg