The anatomy scan came back. It's a boy.
Michael Devon Brooks. Due in October. A boy who will carry the name of a man who died before his daughter could remember him, who will be born into a family that has been waiting for him without knowing it was waiting, who will eat shrimp and grits before he has teeth because that is how this family works — we feed first, we ask questions later, and the feeding starts in the womb with the food his mother eats and continues at the table until the table can't hold any more chairs.
Kayla called me from the parking lot again. She is a parking lot crier — she holds it together inside the building and falls apart in the car, which is the most professional way to feel everything, and I respect it. "Granny," she said, "it's a boy. It's Michael." I said, "I know, baby." She said, "How do you know?" I said, "Because I've been dreaming about him. A boy with Michael's chin and your hands and Devon's laugh. He's been in my dreams for weeks. He was just waiting for the scan to confirm what the dreams already told me."
I am not a woman who believes in mystical things. I am a Baptist who believes in God and cornbread and the reliability of a well-seasoned cast iron skillet. But I have dreamed about this boy. Three times in the last month. A baby boy in my kitchen, in the high chair that's been in the basement since Kayla outgrew it, eating something off a spoon and looking at me with Michael's eyes. The dreams are not prediction. They're preparation. My heart is getting ready for what my arms will hold.
Devon called me an hour later. "Granny Dot," he said. "Michael." Just the name. Just the word. Like a prayer. Like a promise. Like the sound of a man becoming a father for the first time and understanding that the name he's giving his son is bigger than a name — it's a debt and a gift and a continuation and a beginning, all in seven letters.
Made shrimp and grits tonight. For Michael. Not for baby Michael — he won't eat for months yet — but for the Michael who left us in 1998 and who deserves to know, wherever he is, that his name is coming back. That his name will sit in a high chair and eat off a spoon and grow up in a kitchen that remembers him. That his name will live.
Now go on and feed somebody.
I didn’t make shrimp and grits that night — I made the squash dressing, because that’s what I had, and because Michael loved it just as much, and because feeding his name felt like the right thing to do with my hands while my heart was still catching up to what Kayla told me in that parking lot. This is the dressing I’ve made for every homecoming and every hard night and every celebration that needed something warm from the oven, and tonight it was all three at once. You don’t need shrimp and grits to honor somebody — you just need to cook with intention, and I had plenty of that.
Squash Dressing
Prep Time: 20 minutes | Cook Time: 45 minutes | Total Time: 1 hour 5 minutes | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 4 cups crumbled cornbread (day-old preferred)
- 4 medium yellow squash, sliced into 1/4-inch rounds
- 1 medium yellow onion, diced
- 3 stalks celery, diced
- 4 tablespoons unsalted butter, divided
- 2 cups chicken broth (or vegetable broth)
- 1 can (10.5 oz) cream of chicken soup
- 2 large eggs, lightly beaten
- 1 teaspoon dried sage
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
- 3/4 teaspoon salt, or to taste
Instructions
- Preheat and prep. Preheat your oven to 375°F. Grease a 9x13-inch baking dish and set aside.
- Cook the squash. In a large skillet over medium heat, melt 2 tablespoons of butter. Add the sliced squash and cook, stirring occasionally, for 8–10 minutes until tender and lightly golden. Transfer to a large mixing bowl.
- Sauté the aromatics. In the same skillet, melt the remaining 2 tablespoons of butter over medium heat. Add the diced onion and celery and cook for 5–6 minutes until softened and fragrant.
- Combine the dressing. Add the sautéed onion and celery to the bowl with the squash. Add the crumbled cornbread, broth, cream of chicken soup, beaten eggs, sage, garlic powder, salt, and pepper. Stir gently until everything is well combined — the mixture should be moist but not soupy. Add a splash more broth if needed.
- Bake. Pour the mixture into the prepared baking dish and spread evenly. Bake uncovered for 40–45 minutes, until the top is golden brown and the center is set. A toothpick inserted in the middle should come out clean.
- Rest and serve. Let the dressing rest for 5 minutes before serving. Serve warm, straight from the dish.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 235 | Protein: 7g | Fat: 11g | Carbs: 27g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 620mg