June. Seattle's metamorphosis. The gray lifts like a curtain and behind it: blue sky, green hills, the mountains visible from everywhere, the whole city sparkling as if it's been polished. I love June in Seattle with the specific love of someone who has earned the sunshine by surviving the gray, and the walking-to-work-through-Cal-Anderson-Park version of June is my favorite version: warm mornings, the light sharp and generous, everyone in short sleeves and good moods.
I've been intensifying my Korean studies in preparation for the trip. Three hours a day now, minimum: Duolingo (streak at 380+ days), the Korean textbook (I'm halfway through Beginning 2), the heritage speaker class (where I'm finally keeping up with the others), and a new addition: a language exchange app where I video chat with Korean people who want to practice English. My language partner is a woman named Mina, twenty-six, a graphic designer in Seoul, who speaks excellent English and is endlessly patient with my terrible Korean. We chat for thirty minutes twice a week — half in Korean, half in English — and the Korean half is painful and wonderful. I mispronounce everything. My grammar is held together with duct tape. But Mina understands me, and the understanding is the point. She told me about her favorite restaurant in Mapo-gu (jjigae place, pork kimchi jjigae, her "soul food"), and I told her about my kimchi and she said, "You should bring your kimchi to Korea and have Koreans judge it." She was joking. I was not joking when I said, "I might."
This week's cooking: I focused on a dish I've been wanting to master — haemul pajeon, seafood scallion pancake. Not the simple pajeon I've made dozens of times but the full version: scallions, shrimp, squid, and sometimes oysters, bound in a thin batter, pan-fried until crispy. The seafood version is more complex than the vegetable version — the timing is different, the moisture from the seafood affects the crispiness, and the batter has to be thinner to compensate. My first attempt was soggy. My second was better but uneven. My third, on Friday, was right: crispy on both sides, the seafood cooked through but not rubbery, the scallions tender and sweet. I cut it into wedges and ate it with the soy-vinegar dipping sauce and a cold beer (I rarely drink but haemul pajeon demands beer — it's a pairing so natural it feels genetic), and the combination was perfect. Restaurant-quality, I think. Not Korean-grandmother-quality — that's the unreachable standard — but restaurant-quality. I'll take it.
At work: the personalization project is moving well. I'm writing the ranking algorithm, the mathematical heart of the system, and the work is satisfying in the way that pure algorithm design always is — abstract, logical, elegant when it works, frustrating when it doesn't. I'm a good engineer. I say that now without qualification, without the hedging and self-deprecation that used to accompany any self-assessment. I am a good engineer. Dr. Yoon would be proud. She's been working on my ability to state positive things about myself without immediately undermining them, and "I'm a good engineer" said plainly, without "but" or "although," is therapeutic progress.
Saturday: Bellevue. Karen had made fish tacos — a summer dish she discovered last year and has been perfecting. I brought haemul pajeon, which looked spectacularly out of place next to corn tortillas but tasted spectacular nonetheless. David liked the pajeon — the crunch, the scallions, the savory dipping sauce. He said, "This is like a Korean pizza." It is not like a Korean pizza. It is like a Korean pancake. But David's culinary vocabulary for Korean food is still developing, and "Korean pizza" represents a genuine attempt to file Korean food into a category he understands, and I appreciate the attempt even as I correct the terminology.
Three months until Korea. The countdown has begun. Every dish I make is practice. Every Korean word I learn is preparation. Every therapy session is emotional scaffolding for the three weeks that might change everything. I'm ready. I'm not ready. Both things are true. They're always both true.
After three attempts to nail the haemul pajeon and finally landing on that perfect crispy Friday version, I found myself thinking about the soy-vinegar dipping sauce — that bright, sharp contrast that makes every bite of the pancake sing. That got me back to something I’ve been making on repeat lately: spicy quick-pickled veggies, which hit that same tangy, bold note and pair beautifully with anything coming out of a hot cast iron pan. Mina would probably laugh at me calling refrigerator pickles “banchan energy,” but honestly, the spirit is there — punchy, crunchy, and ready to make a good meal better.
Spicy Quick-Pickled Veggies
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 5 min | Total Time: 1 hr 20 min (includes cooling & pickling) | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 1 cup Persian cucumbers, thinly sliced into rounds (about 2 small)
- 1 cup radishes, thinly sliced
- 1 cup carrots, cut into matchsticks or thin coins
- 1/2 cup red onion, thinly sliced
- 2–3 fresh red or green chili peppers, thinly sliced (adjust to heat preference)
- 3 cloves garlic, thinly sliced
- 1 cup rice wine vinegar (or white distilled vinegar)
- 1/2 cup water
- 2 tablespoons granulated sugar
- 1 1/2 teaspoons kosher salt
- 1 teaspoon crushed red pepper flakes
- 1/2 teaspoon sesame oil (optional, for serving)
- 1 teaspoon sesame seeds (optional, for garnish)
Instructions
- Prep the vegetables. Wash and slice all vegetables as directed above. Combine the cucumbers, radishes, carrots, red onion, chili peppers, and garlic in a large heatproof bowl or divide evenly between two clean pint-sized mason jars.
- Make the brine. In a small saucepan over medium heat, combine the vinegar, water, sugar, kosher salt, and red pepper flakes. Stir and bring just to a simmer, about 3–5 minutes, until the sugar and salt are fully dissolved. Remove from heat.
- Pour and cool. Carefully pour the warm brine over the sliced vegetables, making sure everything is submerged. Press the vegetables down gently with a spoon. Let the mixture cool to room temperature, about 20–30 minutes.
- Chill and pickle. Once cooled, cover the bowl or seal the jars and refrigerate for at least 45 minutes before serving. For best flavor, allow 2–4 hours. The pickles will continue to develop flavor overnight.
- Serve. Drain lightly before serving. Drizzle with sesame oil and garnish with sesame seeds if desired. Serve cold alongside Korean pancakes, grilled proteins, rice dishes, or as a bright snack straight from the jar.
- Store. Keep refrigerated in a sealed jar for up to 1 week. The vegetables will soften slightly over time but remain flavorful.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 45 | Protein: 1g | Fat: 1g | Carbs: 9g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 390mg