Christmas 2023. Sarah, Jim, Teddy, and Finn arrived Christmas Eve afternoon in a light snowfall that continued through the evening, accumulating to about four inches by midnight, which is the correct amount of Christmas Eve snow — enough to be beautiful but not enough to cause concern. Finn saw the snow from the back window and pressed his palms flat against the glass and said something I could not quite hear but understood from the posture alone. Carol drove down from Stowe the morning of Christmas Eve and stayed through the twenty-seventh, so the house had six people in it for three days and every room was in use.
Christmas morning was Finn's, as it should be. He was up before five-thirty — we heard him on the stairs and Jim went down to hold the perimeter until six, which is the negotiated family hour. By six-fifteen the living room was organized chaos and Finn was a blur of wrapping paper and exclamations and Teddy was watching his brother with the same expression I have seen him wear watching a good cook work — attentive, slightly amused, respectful of the commitment being displayed. The smoked salmon and scrambled eggs breakfast happened at nine, by which point Finn had assembled enough of his gifts to provide a running commentary on each one.
I cooked the Christmas dinner myself this year — a standing rib roast, the first one I had done since before Helen died, because it always felt like too much for one person and I had been defaulting to leg of lamb which is more manageable. But with six people at the table it was the right call. I dry-aged the roast in the refrigerator for three days, seasoned it simply with salt, pepper, and rosemary, and roasted it on a high-heat start and low-heat finish, exactly the same logic as the turkey. The result was exactly right — deeply browned outside, the interior graduating from well-done at the edges to pink-red at the center. I made the au jus from the pan drippings and a quick beef stock and that was all it needed.
Carol and I washed the dishes together after dinner while Jim put Finn to bed. She said, washing a pan, that it was the best Christmas we had had in years. I agreed. She said Helen would have liked this version of the family — Teddy cooking the Thanksgiving turkey, Finn learning the cooking look, the whole direction of things. I did not disagree with that either. There are years when the people you have lost seem close in a way that does not feel like grief so much as presence, and this was one of those years.
The standing rib roast was the centerpiece, and it earned its place — but what I kept reaching for the rest of the evening, while Carol and I talked and the house slowly quieted, were these Spiced Cocoa Roasted Almonds I had set out before dinner. There is something right about having a small, effortless thing alongside a meal that took three days of dry-aging and all the confidence you can muster. Finn had claimed a handful before anyone sat down, and that felt like a reasonable endorsement. If you are building a Christmas table and you want something that asks almost nothing of you but gives back warmth and a little sweetness, this is it.
Spiced Cocoa Roasted Almonds
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 20 minutes | Total Time: 30 minutes | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 2 cups raw whole almonds
- 2 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder
- 2 tablespoons granulated sugar
- 1 tablespoon brown sugar, packed
- 1/2 teaspoon cinnamon
- 1/4 teaspoon cayenne pepper
- 1/4 teaspoon fine sea salt
- 1 tablespoon olive oil or melted coconut oil
- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
Instructions
- Preheat the oven. Heat your oven to 325°F. Line a rimmed baking sheet with parchment paper and set aside.
- Mix the spice coating. In a medium bowl, whisk together the cocoa powder, granulated sugar, brown sugar, cinnamon, cayenne, and salt until evenly combined.
- Coat the almonds. Add the almonds to the bowl and drizzle with the oil and vanilla extract. Toss thoroughly until every almond is coated with the spice mixture.
- Spread and roast. Spread the coated almonds in a single layer on the prepared baking sheet. Roast for 18 to 20 minutes, stirring once halfway through, until the coating looks dry and set and the almonds are fragrant.
- Cool completely. Remove from the oven and let the almonds cool on the baking sheet for at least 15 minutes — they will crisp up as they cool. Do not crowd them into a bowl while still warm or they may clump.
- Serve or store. Transfer to a serving bowl or an airtight container. They keep well at room temperature for up to one week.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 210 | Protein: 6g | Fat: 16g | Carbs: 13g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 75mg