Polar week. Minus 10 Monday. I drove anyway — a short Lincoln run, weather manageable on I-80 with salt and experience. Came home Tuesday. Did not drive again all week. Wrote. Cooked. Checked on Gayle every day.
Gayle had a very bad Wednesday. Her blood pressure spiked. She called me at 8 a.m. from her kitchen. "Brenda. I don't feel right." I was there in seven minutes. She was pale and dizzy and her hands shook. I drove her to the ER at St. Francis. We sat for three hours. They ran tests. Her blood pressure was 180/110. They adjusted her medication. They kept her overnight. I stayed. Dave brought me dinner and a change of clothes. I slept in the chair beside her bed.
She came home Thursday afternoon. I moved her into our guest room again. No debate this time. She did not argue. She said, "For a while." I said, "For the rest of the winter at least." She said, "Okay." That one word was the concession of a lifetime. She is sleeping in our guest room. I will check on her in the night. I will cook the soft foods she can eat. I will monitor her medications on her pill caddy. I will also continue my own life, because I have to, because Dave and the kids and the book and the truck do not stop. But my mother is under my roof now. That is the new geography.
The kids are helpful. Tyler fetches her coffee in the morning. Justin walks the dog past her room and talks to her on his way out to school — something he has started doing unprompted. Josie sits in her room and shows her the keyboard. Dave has been the steadiest. He has told Gayle, at least three times, "We want you here." Gayle said, "I know, David." He is David to her, always has been; everyone else calls him Dave. Gayle has her own small dignities.
I cooked softer food all week. Chicken and rice soup. Mashed potatoes with butter and milk. A tender pork roast. Custards, puddings, bread-and-butter simplicity. Gayle ate more than she had been eating. She is already looking a little better. Saturday she said, "Brenda. This is like a hotel." I said, "Ma. It is our house." She said, "I am going to be fine." I said, "Yes, Ma." I mean both: yes, she will be fine this week. And: no, I do not know about next year. But I kept that silent. She did not need to hear it.
Between the hospital vigil, the sleepless nights in that chair at St. Francis, and rearranging our whole house to bring my mother home, I needed a dinner that would come together without much fight — something warm enough to land on the table and make everyone feel steadied. Dave had been so solid all week, and the boys were pitching in without being asked, and I wanted to feed all of them something that felt like a reward for that. This Spanish rice with sausage was exactly right: one pan, real flavor, enough for everyone, and nothing about it required more than I had left to give.
Spanish Rice with Sausage
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 35 minutes | Total Time: 45 minutes | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 1 lb smoked sausage, sliced into 1/4-inch rounds
- 1 cup long-grain white rice, uncooked
- 1 can (14.5 oz) diced tomatoes, undrained
- 1 can (8 oz) tomato sauce
- 1 medium yellow onion, diced
- 1 green bell pepper, diced
- 2 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 1/2 cups chicken broth
- 1 tsp chili powder
- 1/2 tsp cumin
- 1/2 tsp smoked paprika
- 1/2 tsp salt
- 1/4 tsp black pepper
- 1 tbsp olive oil
- Fresh parsley, chopped, for garnish (optional)
Instructions
- Brown the sausage. Heat olive oil in a large deep skillet or Dutch oven over medium-high heat. Add the sliced sausage and cook for 3–4 minutes, stirring occasionally, until lightly browned. Remove sausage with a slotted spoon and set aside.
- Soften the vegetables. In the same pan, add the diced onion and bell pepper. Cook over medium heat for 4–5 minutes until softened. Add the minced garlic and cook for another 30 seconds until fragrant.
- Toast the rice. Add the uncooked rice to the pan and stir to coat with the pan drippings. Toast for 1–2 minutes, stirring frequently, until the rice is lightly golden.
- Add liquids and seasoning. Pour in the diced tomatoes (with their juice), tomato sauce, and chicken broth. Stir in the chili powder, cumin, smoked paprika, salt, and black pepper. Mix well to combine.
- Return the sausage. Nestle the browned sausage back into the pan and stir to distribute evenly.
- Simmer covered. Bring the mixture to a boil, then reduce heat to low. Cover tightly and simmer for 20–25 minutes, until the rice has absorbed the liquid and is tender. Check at 20 minutes and add a splash of broth if the rice looks dry.
- Rest and serve. Remove from heat and let stand, covered, for 5 minutes. Fluff gently with a fork, garnish with fresh parsley if desired, and serve directly from the pan.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 420 | Protein: 17g | Fat: 22g | Carbs: 38g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 890mg