Thanksgiving 2024. The annual tradition continues in this kitchen that has held every holiday since I started cooking through cancer and came out the other side with a cast iron skillet and a refusal to stop. I am 41 and Thanksgiving means what it has always meant: too much food, the right people, and the gratitude spoken aloud because life taught me that gratitude unspoken is gratitude wasted.
The table is full. Mason (13) and Lily (11) are here, growing taller and more themselves with each passing year. Tom is here, beside me, where he has been since the day he showed up with wildflowers and patience and the quiet understanding that love is not a grand gesture but a daily one.
Brett is here — always here, every holiday, every Wednesday, the constant brother in the wheelchair who has been my anchor since we were children on a ranch that no longer exists. Kyle calls from wherever the Army has him, and his voice on the phone is the voice of the brother who left and came back and left again, and the leaving and returning is the rhythm of this family.
I made apple pie this week, because Thanksgiving demands the food that says: I am here, you are here, we are together, and together is the only word that matters. The recipe is the same as last year and the year before and all the years stretching back to the ranch kitchen where Diane stood at 6 AM making cinnamon rolls for a family that ate them without knowing they were eating love. I know now. I've always known. And I make the food and serve it and watch my family eat and think: this. This is why I survived. For this table. For this food. For these people. For this.
Apple pie was already cooling on the counter when I remembered the raisin squares — the ones that belong to the same category of food as Diane’s cinnamon rolls: desserts that don’t announce themselves, that just sit there quietly on the table and mean everything. These Sour Cream Raisin Squares are ranch-kitchen food, the kind that has no interest in being trendy, and that’s exactly why they belong on a Thanksgiving table surrounded by the people who have stayed. I made a pan of them for Brett and the kids, and Brett ate two before dinner, and I let him, because that is love and this is the table I survived for.
Sour Cream Raisin Squares
Prep Time: 20 min | Cook Time: 40 min | Total Time: 1 hr | Servings: 20
Ingredients
- For the crust — top and bottom:
- 1 1/2 cups old-fashioned rolled oats
- 1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
- 1 cup packed brown sugar
- 3/4 cup (1 1/2 sticks) cold unsalted butter, cut into small cubes
- 1/2 teaspoon baking soda
- 1/4 teaspoon salt
- For the sour cream raisin filling:
- 2 cups raisins
- 1 1/2 cups full-fat sour cream
- 3 large egg yolks
- 3/4 cup granulated sugar
- 3 tablespoons cornstarch
- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
- 1/4 teaspoon cinnamon
- 1/8 teaspoon nutmeg
Instructions
- Preheat and prep. Preheat your oven to 350°F. Grease a 9x13-inch baking pan and set aside.
- Make the oat crust mixture. In a large bowl, combine the oats, flour, brown sugar, baking soda, and salt. Cut in the cold butter using a pastry cutter or your fingers until the mixture resembles coarse crumbs with some pea-sized pieces remaining.
- Press the bottom crust. Reserve 1 1/2 cups of the oat mixture for the topping. Press the remaining mixture firmly and evenly into the bottom of the prepared pan. Bake for 12 minutes, until just set and lightly golden. Remove from oven and set aside.
- Cook the filling. In a medium saucepan over medium heat, whisk together the sour cream, egg yolks, granulated sugar, and cornstarch until smooth. Stir in the raisins, vanilla, cinnamon, and nutmeg. Cook, stirring constantly, for 8–10 minutes until the mixture thickens to a pudding-like consistency. Do not let it boil hard.
- Assemble. Pour the warm raisin filling evenly over the par-baked crust and spread to the edges. Sprinkle the reserved oat crumble topping evenly over the filling and press down gently.
- Bake. Return the pan to the oven and bake for 22–25 minutes, until the topping is golden and the filling is bubbling at the edges.
- Cool completely. Allow the pan to cool fully at room temperature — at least 1 hour — before cutting into squares. The filling firms up as it cools. Cut into 20 bars and serve.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 265 | Protein: 3g | Fat: 11g | Carbs: 40g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 115mg