The anatomy scan. Saturday, January 25th — wait, that's before the week starts. Let me recalculate. The anatomy scan happened this week. Twenty-one weeks. Terrence drove up Friday night, arrived at midnight, slept on the couch (co-parents don't share a bed — another boundary, another small pain, another thing that's right even when it hurts). Saturday morning, 9 AM, Nashville OB-GYN Associates.
The baby is healthy. The baby has ten fingers, ten toes, two kidneys, one heart that beats strong and fast and certain. The baby's spine is curved and perfect. The baby's brain is developing exactly as it should. The baby weighs approximately one pound. One pound of person. One pound of Sarah and Terrence and Earline and Gloria and Danny and Lorraine and every ancestor who ever lived and loved and ate cornbread without sugar.
The tech asked: "Do you want to know the sex?" Terrence looked at me. I looked at him. I said: "Write it down. Put it in an envelope." She did. The envelope sat between us in the car like a small, paper bomb. Terrence held it. He looked at me. He said: "Can I?" I said: "It's your baby too." He opened it. He read it. His face did something — a collapse and a bloom at the same time, a face that was trying to hold two emotions in one expression. He folded the paper. He put it in his wallet. Next to the orange heart. Next to the Father's Day card. My son's drawings and my baby's secret, all in one wallet. He said: "I'm not telling you." I said: "Good." He said: "You're going to love this kid." I said: "I already do."
Terrence stayed the weekend. He assembled the crib — Jayden's old one, from storage at Mama's. He assembled it in the corner of my bedroom because there is no nursery, because a two-bedroom apartment does not have a nursery, because the baby will sleep in my room and Chloe and Jayden will share the other room and the logistics of three children in two bedrooms is a geometry problem that I will solve with bunk beds and a prayer.
Chloe helped him with the crib. She handed him screws with the efficiency of a surgical nurse. She said: "The baby is going to sleep HERE?" pointing at the crib, three feet from my bed. I said: "Yes." She said: "That's close." I said: "Babies need to be close." She said: "I was close too?" I said: "You were the closest. You slept on my chest for three months." She smiled — a small, private smile, the smile of a child learning that she was once the most important person in the room and still is, even when the room is getting more crowded.
I made beef stew — the thick, dark, winter kind that Earline made with stew meat and potatoes and carrots and a splash of red wine that Earline would have called "cooking wine" and I call "the cheap bottle from Kroger that's too bad to drink and too good to waste." The stew simmered while Terrence built the crib and the apartment filled with two things: the smell of stew and the sound of a man assembling a place for our child to sleep. Two sounds. Two warmths. Dinner and devotion. The baby kicked while I stirred.
I couldn’t make Earline’s exact beef stew that day — I was missing half the ingredients and fully unwilling to leave the apartment while a crib was being built in my bedroom and my daughter was handing over screws like she was born for it. So I reached for the next best thing: something thick and warm that could take care of itself while I took care of everything else. This slow-cooker corn chowder is that kind of recipe — the kind you start before the chaos, and it’s ready by the time the last bolt is tightened and everyone finally exhales. The baby kicked while I poured in the broth. That counts as a sign.
Slow-Cooker Corn Chowder
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 6 hrs | Total Time: 6 hrs 15 min | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 4 cups frozen corn kernels (or cut fresh from 4 ears)
- 1 lb Yukon Gold potatoes, peeled and diced into 1/2-inch cubes
- 1 medium yellow onion, diced
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 2 stalks celery, sliced
- 1 medium carrot, diced
- 3 cups low-sodium chicken or vegetable broth
- 1 can (14.75 oz) cream-style corn
- 1 tsp smoked paprika
- 1/2 tsp dried thyme
- 1/2 tsp black pepper
- 1/2 tsp salt, plus more to taste
- 1 cup whole milk or heavy cream, stirred in at the end
- 2 tbsp unsalted butter
- Optional toppings: shredded cheddar, crispy bacon crumbles, sliced green onion, sour cream
Instructions
- Load the slow cooker. Add the corn kernels, diced potatoes, onion, garlic, celery, and carrot to a 6-quart slow cooker. Pour in the broth and cream-style corn. Stir in the smoked paprika, thyme, pepper, and salt until everything is combined.
- Cook low and slow. Cover and cook on LOW for 6–7 hours or on HIGH for 3–4 hours, until the potatoes are completely tender and the flavors have melded.
- Mash for texture. Using a potato masher or the back of a large spoon, partially mash the chowder directly in the slow cooker — about 8–10 presses. You want it thick and creamy but still chunky, not pureed.
- Add the cream and butter. Stir in the milk or cream and the butter. Replace the lid and cook on HIGH for an additional 15–20 minutes until heated through and slightly thickened.
- Taste and finish. Adjust salt and pepper as needed. Ladle into bowls and top with shredded cheddar, green onion, or a spoonful of sour cream if desired. Serve with crusty bread or cornbread.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 285 | Protein: 7g | Fat: 9g | Carbs: 46g | Fiber: 4g | Sodium: 420mg