I PASSED.
Tuesday. 2:47 PM. I was at the Waffle House, in the break room, on my phone. I refreshed the results page for the nine hundredth time and the screen changed and there was my name and next to my name was the word PASS and I dropped my phone and I screamed. I SCREAMED in the Waffle House break room. Linda ran in. Keandra ran in. The line cook stuck his head through the window. I was standing in the middle of the break room with my phone on the floor and tears on my face and I said, "I passed. I passed the board exam. I'm a licensed dental hygienist."
Linda hugged me. Keandra hugged me. The line cook gave me a thumbs up and went back to the grill because someone's hash browns were burning and hash browns wait for no woman's triumph.
I called Mama. She said, "You passed?" I said, "I passed." She was quiet. Then she said, "I'll make a cake." Four cakes. Four cakes in two years. The Lorraine Mitchell Academic Achievement Bakery is running at full capacity. This one should say "LICENSED" on it. This one should say "SHE DID IT" on it. This one should say "THANK YOU, GOD, FOR MY SARAH" on it, because that's what Mama is thinking even if the cake only has room for numbers.
I called Dr. Patel at Harmony Dental. I said, "I passed." She said, "We knew you would. See you February 5th." We knew you would. They KNEW. The way Dr. Whitfield knew. The way Tanisha knew. The way Mama knew, and Kevin, and even Mr. Gerald, who doesn't know what a board exam is but knew that the woman who scored a 96 on her first midterm wasn't going to fail anything.
Tanisha passed too. She called me screaming. We screamed at each other through the phone for a full minute and said nothing coherent and didn't need to because the screaming WAS the conversation. Two licensed dental hygienists. Two single mothers. Two women who met on the first day of school and saved each other seats and cried in parking lots and quizzed each other on flashcards at midnight. We did it. Together. Apart. Both.
I signed the lease on the Hermitage apartment. I signed it on Wednesday, the day after the results, with a pen that felt like a sword. $1,150/month. Two bedrooms. Counter space. A kitchen where Earline's skillet will hang on a wall instead of sitting on top of the fridge. We move February 1st. Four days before I start at Harmony Dental. The timing is poetry.
I made Earline's cornbread. Again. Not because we needed it. Because the cornbread is how I celebrate. It's how I mark the moments. Other people buy champagne. I make cornbread. Cast iron. No sugar. Golden. The smell fills the apartment — the old apartment, the one we're leaving, the one that held us for years while I figured out who I was becoming — and I breathe it in and I think: this is the last time I make cornbread in this kitchen. The next time will be in the new kitchen. The new kitchen with the counter space. The new kitchen in the new life. But the cornbread will be the same. Earline's is always the same. That's the point. The woman changes. The bread holds.
Mama was already planning the cake, but I needed something just for me — something I could make in the same cast iron skillet that’s seen every late night, every flashcard session, every quiet moment of doubt in this apartment. I’d made Earline’s cornbread for the ritual, but for the celebration — the real, eyes-closed, arms-wide celebration — I wanted something a little richer, a little indulgent, something that tasted like you actually did it. A skillet red wine brownie felt exactly right: deep and dark and made in one pan, in the kitchen I’m saying goodbye to, the last sweet thing I’ll pull out of this oven before the new life starts.
Skillet Red Wine Brownie
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 25 minutes | Total Time: 35 minutes | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 1/2 cup (1 stick) unsalted butter, cut into pieces
- 4 oz dark chocolate (70% cacao), roughly chopped
- 3/4 cup granulated sugar
- 1/4 cup packed light brown sugar
- 2 large eggs
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- 1/2 cup dry red wine (such as Cabernet Sauvignon or Merlot)
- 3/4 cup all-purpose flour
- 1/4 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
- 1/2 teaspoon fine sea salt
- Flaky sea salt, for topping
- Vanilla ice cream or whipped cream, for serving (optional)
Instructions
- Preheat and prep. Preheat your oven to 350°F. Place a 10-inch cast iron skillet over low heat on the stovetop.
- Melt butter and chocolate. Add the butter and chopped dark chocolate to the warm skillet. Stir gently and continuously until both are fully melted and smooth, about 3–4 minutes. Remove from heat and let cool slightly, about 5 minutes.
- Mix in sugars. Whisk both sugars into the melted chocolate mixture until well combined and glossy.
- Add eggs and vanilla. Add the eggs one at a time, whisking vigorously after each addition. Stir in the vanilla extract.
- Pour in the wine. Add the red wine and whisk until the batter is smooth and fully incorporated. The mixture will deepen in color and smell absolutely incredible.
- Fold in dry ingredients. Sift the flour, cocoa powder, and fine sea salt directly into the skillet. Fold gently with a spatula until just combined — do not overmix.
- Bake. Transfer the skillet to the preheated oven and bake for 22–25 minutes, until the edges are set and the center is just barely firm with a slight wobble. A toothpick inserted 1 inch from the edge should come out clean; the center will continue to set as it cools.
- Finish and serve. Remove from the oven and immediately scatter flaky sea salt over the top. Let rest for at least 10 minutes before slicing. Serve warm straight from the skillet with vanilla ice cream or whipped cream if desired.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 320 | Protein: 4g | Fat: 17g | Carbs: 38g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 180mg