It is Thursday evening, November tenth, and I have been standing in my kitchen for twenty minutes doing nothing more productive than staring at a head of cauliflower.
I am aware that this is not normal behavior. I am aware that a grown woman — a retired-adjacent English teacher who has read Chekhov in the original translation and can explain the thematic structure of Middlemarch to a room full of teenagers who do not want to be there — should be able to make a decision about a vegetable without a significant processing delay. And yet. Here we are. Thursday. November. The cauliflower. Me.
Marvin came into the kitchen at some point during this vigil and looked at me the way he sometimes looks at me, which is the look of a man who has been married to a complicated woman for thirty-four years and has long since made his peace with it. He said, “You’ve been standing there for a while.” I said, “I’m thinking.” He said, “About the cauliflower?” I said, “Among other things.” He said, “Ruthie, make the soup,” and went back to the living room. Thirty-four years, and he still knows exactly what I need before I do. The man has his talents.
I don’t want to make this week’s post about Tuesday. I will say only this: I grew up the daughter of Irving Rosen, a union man, an FDR Democrat, a man who believed in the promise of this country with the particular fervor of someone whose parents had fled a country that made them no promises at all. My father pressed coats in a factory on Seventh Avenue and came home and read the newspaper every evening and voted in every election from the moment he turned twenty-one until the last year of his life, without exception, because he understood that the vote was not a convenience but a covenant. I inherited his politics with his nose and his serious eyebrows, and I have voted in every election since 1976 without missing one. Tuesday, I voted. And then I watched the returns. And then I sat in my kitchen at two in the morning and drank a glass of Manischewitz — not because it’s good wine, it is definitively not good wine, but because it was what my parents drank and I needed my parents Tuesday night — and I thought about Irving, and I thought: I don’t know what to tell you, Pop.
So. The cauliflower.
My mother Sylvia had opinions about vegetables, and her primary opinion was that they were not to be trusted with the starring role. Vegetables were supporting actors. Vegetables went into the brisket, into the soup, alongside the chicken, under the roast. They held up the real food. They did not become the real food. This was not a prejudice but a conviction, and it was a conviction born of the immigrant Jewish kitchen, which was a kitchen of pragmatism and nourishment. You fed people. You fed them protein and fat and starch and warmth. You did not make a meal out of a vegetable and call it dinner. A meal out of a vegetable was what happened when you didn’t have any meat. It was a memory of poverty, not a choice of sophistication. Sylvia did not romanticize poverty. She had seen enough of it.
I understood her position. I held it myself for a long time. And then, somewhere in my fifties, I started making this soup.
It happened the way a lot of things happen in a long life: gradually and then all at once. Rebecca — my daughter, the Columbia professor, the woman who can find thematic parallels between Borges and Brecht at seven in the morning before coffee — had become, at some point, a person who ate less meat. Not a vegetarian, not fully, but a person who preferred her meals to make a lighter footprint. She came home for a weekend in October some years ago and I was trying to cook something that would satisfy her without triggering the part of my brain that associates meatless meals with shortage. I had a head of cauliflower. I had a good onion and some garlic and chicken broth and heavy cream and the accumulated instincts of a woman who learned to cook from Sylvia Rosen. I roasted the cauliflower until it was dark at the edges, almost nutty, transformed from the pale and frankly apologetic vegetable Sylvia had always dismissed into something serious and caramelized and worthy of consideration. And then I made it into soup.
Rebecca ate two bowls and asked for the recipe. I didn’t have one yet. I made it again and wrote it down.
I have thought about what Sylvia would have said if I’d served her this soup and told her it was the main course. I think she would have eaten it — because Sylvia ate what was put in front of her, she had not survived the Depression and forty years of New York apartment cooking to become picky — and I think she would have said something like, “Not bad, for cauliflower.” Which, from Sylvia, would have been a standing ovation.
There is something about roasting that changes the conversation between a vegetable and your expectations of it. You put the cauliflower in the oven at high heat and you let the Maillard reaction — yes, I know what the Maillard reaction is, forty-three years of teaching and I still pick things up — do the work of transformation. The sugars brown. The bitterness recedes. The thing that was merely white and blankly nutritious becomes something with depth and complexity and what I can only describe as character. It develops a point of view. By the time it goes into the pot with the onion and garlic and broth, it has something to say.
This week, I needed something with something to say. I needed a meal that required effort and rewarded it. I needed the particular therapy of kitchen work — the chopping, the roasting, the stirring, the tasting, the adjusting — that has gotten me through more difficult weeks than I can count. Marvin had suggested, mildly, that we could just order from the Chinese place on Merrick Road. Marvin is a sensible man. But I did not need sensible. I needed to make the soup.
I roasted the cauliflower. I sweated the onion in butter until it was translucent and sweet. I added garlic — three cloves, not negotiable — and then the broth and then the roasted cauliflower, and I let it all simmer together until the vegetables were tender enough to be honest with the blender. I blended it until it was smooth, the kind of smooth that requires both a blender and a willingness to be patient, and then I stirred in the cream and tasted it and added salt and white pepper and tasted it again, and I felt, for the first time since Tuesday night, that things were not entirely beyond management.
Marvin ate two bowls. He said it was the best soup I’d ever made, which he says every time I make it, which is either evidence that his memory is not what it used to be or that he has been paying attention to thirty-four years of marriage and knows what is required of him. I choose to believe the latter. I have always chosen to believe the latter.
I called Rebecca afterward, because the soup always makes me think of her, and because I wanted to hear her voice. She’s fine. She was at a rally in the city Tuesday night and has been in her own recovery process since then. We talked about our father, Irving, and about what he would have said about all of it. Rebecca thinks he would have been furious. I think he would have been quiet — that deep, considered quiet of his — and then he would have said something brief and definitive about what comes next. That was Irving. He didn’t waste words on the thing that had already happened. He spent them on what to do about it.
I am trying to be more like Irving this week. It is harder than it looks. It always was.
Make this soup. Make it this weekend, while November is doing what November does on Long Island, which is turning the sky the color of old pewter and sending a cold off the Atlantic that suggests it would be wise to stay inside and feed people. Make it for whoever is in your house. Make it for yourself, if that’s who’s in your house. It will not fix anything that needs fixing. Neither will brisket. But it will warm you from the inside, and sometimes — this is the wisdom I have accumulated in fifty-nine years, for whatever it is worth — that is enough to make it possible to get up and try again tomorrow.
My mother was wrong about cauliflower. She was right about everything else. I’ll take it.
Irving would have approved of this soup — no fuss, no drama, just good ingredients doing what they’re supposed to do. After a week of trying to spend my words on what to do next rather than what had already happened, I wanted to cook something that felt the same way: purposeful, unfussy, quietly warming. Cauliflower seemed right, partly because my mother didn’t believe in it and partly because roasting it first turns something plain into something almost sweet, which felt like exactly the kind of small transformation I was after. Here’s how I made it.
Roasted Cauliflower Soup
Prep Time: 15 minutes | Cook Time: 50 minutes | Total Time: 1 hour 5 minutes | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 1 large head cauliflower (about 2 1/2 pounds), cut into florets
- 3 tablespoons olive oil, divided
- 1 teaspoon kosher salt, plus more to taste
- 1/2 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
- 3 tablespoons unsalted butter
- 1 large yellow onion, roughly chopped
- 3 cloves garlic, smashed and peeled
- 4 cups good chicken broth (homemade if you have it; if you don’t, Swanson will not disgrace you)
- 1/2 cup heavy cream
- 1/4 teaspoon white pepper
- Pinch of freshly grated nutmeg
- Fresh chives or flat-leaf parsley, for serving
- A drizzle of good olive oil, for serving
- Crusty bread, which is not optional
Instructions
- Preheat and prepare. Heat your oven to 425 degrees. Line a large rimmed baking sheet with parchment paper. Spread the cauliflower florets on the sheet, drizzle with 2 tablespoons of the olive oil, sprinkle with the kosher salt and black pepper, and toss to coat evenly. Spread them in a single layer. They need room. Crowded cauliflower steams instead of roasts, and steamed cauliflower is cauliflower that has not reached its potential.
- Roast the cauliflower. Roast for 25 to 30 minutes, turning once at the halfway point, until the florets are tender and deeply golden at the edges — you want real color here, not pale gold but dark amber in places. This browning is the whole point. Don’t pull them too soon.
- Build the base. While the cauliflower roasts, melt the butter with the remaining tablespoon of olive oil in a large, heavy-bottomed pot or Dutch oven over medium heat. Add the onion and cook, stirring occasionally, for about 10 minutes, until soft and beginning to turn translucent and sweet. Add the garlic and cook another 2 minutes, until fragrant.
- Combine and simmer. Add the roasted cauliflower to the pot, reserving a small handful of the nicest florets for garnish if you want to be fancy about it (I am sometimes fancy). Pour in the chicken broth. Bring to a gentle boil, then reduce the heat and simmer, partially covered, for 15 minutes, until everything is very tender and willing.
- Blend until smooth. Remove the pot from the heat. Using an immersion blender — or working in careful batches in a regular blender, with the lid held firmly in place, because hot soup in a blender is one of the ways a person ends up in the emergency room — blend until completely smooth and velvety. Take your time here. Lumpy cauliflower soup is sad cauliflower soup.
- Finish and season. Return the pot to low heat. Stir in the heavy cream, white pepper, and nutmeg. Taste. Add more salt as needed. The soup should be rich but not heavy, savory but with a faint sweetness from the roasting. If it’s thicker than you like, add a splash more broth. Simmer gently for another 5 minutes to let everything come together.
- Serve. Ladle into bowls. Top with the reserved roasted florets if you saved them, a drizzle of good olive oil, and a scattering of fresh chives or parsley. Serve immediately, with as much bread as your conscience will permit, which in this house means a great deal of bread.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 210 | Protein: 5g | Fat: 17g | Carbs: 12g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 480mg