Destiny passed. She called Friday evening and I heard it in her voice before she said the word — a particular quality of lift, like something that had been holding a deep breath had finally let it go. She said "I passed, Mama" and I sat down on the kitchen floor, which I have done exactly twice in my adult life in response to good news. I sat right down and said, I know. I know. I know.
Licensed Clinical Social Worker. My daughter. The girl who used to bring me her notebook of feelings when she was nine years old because she didn't have words for them yet has become the woman who helps other people find theirs. I cannot locate all my feelings about this. I have too many of them. I am keeping them in a container and taking them out one at a time.
I drove to Memphis on Saturday for my trip to Cousin Rosemary's, which I had planned months ago and which now had a celebratory charge to it on top of everything else. Rosemary is seventy-three and lives in a house in Whitehaven that she has been in for forty years and that smells exactly like our grandmother's kitchen, which I was not prepared for. I walked in and stopped in the doorway and she said, I know. It does that. Sit down.
We cooked for two days. Tomato preserves from the receipt-paper recipe. Stack cake, seven thin layers with apple butter between them. Rosemary's version of the chicken and dumplings with biscuit dough instead of drop dumplings, which is different from mine and is also right. I measured everything and wrote it all down. Rosemary watched me measure and write and said, your mother would have found this elaborate. I said, I know. That's exactly why I'm doing it.
I drove home Sunday with six jars of tomato preserves and three pages of recipes and my grandmother's name in my mouth the whole way, saying it like a prayer against forgetting.
I came home Sunday with my grandmother’s name still on my lips and more recipes in my bag than I had room for in my head — and on the morning after I got back, still carrying all of it, I made this pumpkin coffee cake before I did anything else. It is not Rosemary’s and it is not my grandmother’s, but it is the kind of thing that belongs on a table where good news has just been spoken: warm, spiced, unhurried, made for sitting down over. Destiny passed her exam. We cooked for two days. Some mornings call for something that honors both of those things at once.
Pumpkin Coffee Cake
Prep Time: 20 minutes | Cook Time: 45 minutes | Total Time: 1 hour 5 minutes | Servings: 12
Ingredients
- 2 cups all-purpose flour
- 1 teaspoon baking powder
- 1/2 teaspoon baking soda
- 1/2 teaspoon salt
- 1 1/2 teaspoons ground cinnamon
- 1/2 teaspoon ground nutmeg
- 1/4 teaspoon ground cloves
- 1/4 teaspoon ground ginger
- 1/2 cup (1 stick) unsalted butter, softened
- 3/4 cup granulated sugar
- 2 large eggs
- 1 cup pumpkin puree (not pumpkin pie filling)
- 1/2 cup sour cream
- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
- For the streusel topping:
- 1/2 cup all-purpose flour
- 1/2 cup packed brown sugar
- 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 4 tablespoons cold unsalted butter, cut into small pieces
- 1/2 cup chopped pecans (optional)
Instructions
- Preheat and prepare. Preheat your oven to 350°F. Grease a 9x13-inch baking pan or a 9-inch square pan for a thicker cake, and set aside.
- Make the streusel. In a small bowl, combine the flour, brown sugar, and cinnamon for the topping. Cut in the cold butter using a pastry cutter or your fingertips until the mixture resembles coarse crumbs. Stir in pecans if using. Refrigerate while you prepare the batter.
- Whisk the dry ingredients. In a medium bowl, whisk together the flour, baking powder, baking soda, salt, cinnamon, nutmeg, cloves, and ginger. Set aside.
- Cream the butter and sugar. In a large bowl, beat the softened butter and granulated sugar together until light and fluffy, about 3 minutes. Add the eggs one at a time, beating well after each addition.
- Add the pumpkin and wet ingredients. Mix in the pumpkin puree, sour cream, and vanilla extract until fully combined. The batter may look slightly curdled — this is fine.
- Combine wet and dry. Add the flour mixture to the pumpkin mixture and stir until just combined. Do not overmix.
- Assemble and top. Spread the batter evenly into the prepared pan. Remove the streusel from the refrigerator and scatter it evenly over the top of the batter, pressing gently so it adheres.
- Bake. Bake for 40–45 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted in the center comes out clean and the streusel is golden. If the topping browns too quickly, tent loosely with foil for the last 10 minutes.
- Cool and serve. Allow the cake to cool in the pan for at least 15 minutes before slicing. Serve warm with coffee or tea. Store covered at room temperature for up to 3 days.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 320 | Protein: 4g | Fat: 14g | Carbs: 45g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 180mg