Memorial Day weekend. I don't talk about Memorial Day the way I used to, which was not at all. Before Clay joined the Army, Memorial Day was a cookout holiday — burgers, hot dogs, the beginning of summer. After Clay deployed, Memorial Day became a day I couldn't look at without seeing a convoy in Afghanistan and an IED and two soldiers who didn't come home. After Clay came home damaged, Memorial Day became a day I couldn't look at without thinking about the garage and the rifle and the two AM phone call. Now it's all of those things — a cookout and a war and a son who survived and a debt that can never be repaid, all on the same Monday in May.
Clay came over Sunday. Eleven months sober. He was quiet, which is Clay's default setting, but this was a different quiet — the quiet of a man who's thinking about friends who died in a country most Americans couldn't find on a map. He sat on the back porch and I sat next to him and we didn't talk for thirty minutes, which is a long time to sit in silence but not as long as you'd think when you're sitting with someone who understands that silence is sometimes the only language honest enough for the occasion.
I smoked a brisket. Started it Saturday night at ten PM — fourteen-pound packer, trimmed, rubbed with salt and pepper and garlic powder, over hickory at 225 for sixteen hours. Wrapped it in butcher paper at the stall, which is the point where the internal temperature stops climbing and you either wrap it or wait it out, and I'm not patient enough to wait it out. The brisket came off at two PM Sunday, rested for an hour, and when I sliced it the juice ran red-brown and the bark was black and crusty and the meat was tender enough to pull apart with a fork. It was the best brisket I've ever made. Not because the technique was perfect but because the fire was steady and the wood was right and I had sixteen hours to tend it while the people I love slept, which is a kind of prayer.
Travis and Jolene came over. Amber was working. We ate brisket and coleslaw and baked beans and cornbread and sat on the porch as the sun went down and the fireflies came out, which is Kentucky's way of saying summer is here and also everything is temporary and also isn't it beautiful. Clay ate two plates. He said thanks, Dad. I said happy Memorial Day, son. He nodded. That was enough.
The brisket was the centerpiece, but a table that feeds grief and gratitude in equal measure needs more than one anchor. Pull-apart bacon bread was on that table too — smoky from the bacon, rich with cheddar, the kind of thing you tear into without ceremony, which is exactly what four people on a porch at dusk needed. There’s something about bread you pull apart with your hands rather than slice that fits a day like Memorial Day: no formal edges, no clean presentation, just people reaching in together. Clay took the first piece. That felt right.
Pull-Apart Bacon Bread
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 30 min | Total Time: 45 min | Servings: 10
Ingredients
- 2 cans (16.3 oz each) refrigerated buttermilk biscuit dough
- 10 strips thick-cut bacon, cooked crisp and crumbled
- 1 1/2 cups shredded sharp cheddar cheese
- 4 green onions, thinly sliced
- 4 tablespoons unsalted butter, melted
- 2 cloves garlic, minced
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1/2 teaspoon smoked paprika
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- Cooking spray or butter for the pan
Instructions
- Preheat and prep the pan. Preheat your oven to 350°F. Generously grease a 10-inch bundt pan or a 9x13-inch baking dish with cooking spray or softened butter. Set aside.
- Cook the bacon. Fry bacon in a skillet over medium heat until crisp, about 8–10 minutes. Drain on paper towels and crumble into small pieces once cool enough to handle.
- Make the butter mixture. In a small bowl, whisk together the melted butter, minced garlic, garlic powder, smoked paprika, and black pepper.
- Cut the biscuits. Open both cans of biscuit dough and cut each biscuit into quarters using kitchen shears or a sharp knife.
- Combine everything. In a large bowl, toss the biscuit pieces with the crumbled bacon, shredded cheddar, and sliced green onions. Pour the butter mixture over the top and toss gently until every piece is well coated.
- Fill the pan. Transfer the mixture into the prepared bundt pan, spreading evenly and pressing down lightly so the pieces nestle together. If using a 9x13 dish, spread into an even layer.
- Bake. Bake at 350°F for 28–32 minutes, until the top is deep golden brown and the center biscuits are cooked through. A toothpick inserted in the center should come out clean.
- Rest and serve. Let the bread cool in the pan for 5 minutes. If using a bundt pan, invert onto a serving plate. Serve warm, pulling apart pieces directly at the table.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 390 | Protein: 13g | Fat: 23g | Carbs: 33g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 850mg