I drove to my mother's house in Orem on Wednesday because I do that on Wednesdays, and Wednesday is a day I have organized around my mother. The week was a spring week, the kind where the light through the kitchen window arrives at a particular angle and the freezer hums in a different register depending on the temperature in the garage. I made notes in my prep notebook on Sunday afternoon, the way I always do: meal name, ingredient list, cost per serving, prep time, freezer instructions. Twenty-eight bags. Two hours and eleven minutes. A little slow this week, by my standards, but Brandon was helping and the conversation was good, and I have learned, slowly and against my own grain, that the conversation is sometimes the point and the time is sometimes a courtesy I extend to my husband for being willing to chop onions on a Sunday afternoon.
The recipe of the week was baked oatmeal, which I have made some specific number of times in my life and have refined to a system that I now hand to other people in printed form. The version I made this week fed eight, cost under fifteen dollars, and required twenty-six minutes of active prep, which is within my requirements and not a coincidence. The vacuum sealer is the most important small appliance in this house and I will die on this hill. I have stopped explaining the freezer-meal philosophy to people who already follow my work, and I have stopped apologizing for it to people who do not. The philosophy is simple: tomorrow is coming whether you are ready or not. You can either be ready or not. I pick ready.
The children are doing what they do, which is the central report of every week of my adult life. Ethan, 19, is at BYU studying international development. He still cooks chicken adobo for me when he comes home for Sunday dinner. Olivia is 18, at BYU studying elementary education — the path she chose at age seven and has not deviated from once. Mason is 15, finishing high school, with calluses on his hands and a plan that does not yet have words. Lily is 13, in high school, asking the kind of questions in Sunday School that make the teachers uncomfortable, which I find difficult and also, secretly, admirable. Noah is 10, the comedian, the performer — the kid who does an impression of my disappointed face in front of company, and gets away with it. That is the family report. I do not have a system for these reports. I just listen and remember and call back when I said I would call back, which is most of the time and not all of the time, and the difference between most and all is the territory of motherhood.
Grace would have been 8. I do not let myself imagine the alternate version. I keep her in the facts. I do not write about her every week. I do not avoid her either. She is in the kitchen the way the kitchen is in the kitchen — woven into the structure, not announcing herself, present. The photograph above the stove is the only one of her smiling, and it has watched me batch-prep more freezer meals than I can count, and I have stopped feeling strange about the parasocial relationship I have with a four-month-old who has been gone for years. She is my daughter. The photograph is what I have. I look. I keep cooking.
Brandon is asleep on the couch. The dishwasher is running. The kitchen is clean. That is what counts as victory in a long marriage.
The baked oatmeal gets the freezer bags, but Sunday morning itself — the actual morning, before the prep notebook comes out and the vacuum sealer earns its keep — belongs to something a little warmer and a little less efficient, and this puffy apple omelet is exactly that. It came together faster than I expected, which is a quality I respect in a recipe, and the apples do something generous to the eggs that I cannot fully explain but do not need to. Brandon ate two portions. I wrote nothing down about it. That was intentional.
Puffy Apple Omelet
Prep Time: 10 min | Cook Time: 20 min | Total Time: 30 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 4 large eggs, separated
- 1/4 cup milk
- 1/4 teaspoon salt
- 1/8 teaspoon cream of tartar
- 2 tablespoons granulated sugar, divided
- 2 medium apples, peeled, cored, and thinly sliced
- 2 tablespoons unsalted butter, divided
- 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 1 tablespoon brown sugar
- Powdered sugar for dusting (optional)
Instructions
- Preheat oven. Heat oven to 375°F. Place an oven-safe 10-inch skillet on the center rack while the oven warms.
- Cook the apples. In the skillet over medium heat, melt 1 tablespoon butter. Add apple slices, brown sugar, and cinnamon. Cook, stirring occasionally, for 5–6 minutes until apples are tender and lightly caramelized. Remove apples from pan and set aside. Wipe pan clean.
- Separate the eggs. In a medium bowl, whisk egg yolks with milk, salt, and 1 tablespoon granulated sugar until pale and slightly thickened, about 1 minute.
- Beat the whites. In a clean large bowl, beat egg whites with cream of tartar using a hand mixer on medium-high speed until soft peaks form. Add remaining 1 tablespoon granulated sugar and continue beating until stiff, glossy peaks form.
- Fold together. Gently fold the yolk mixture into the beaten whites in two additions, using a rubber spatula and a light hand to preserve as much volume as possible.
- Cook on stovetop. Melt remaining 1 tablespoon butter in the cleaned skillet over medium heat. Pour the egg mixture into the pan and spread gently to the edges. Arrange the caramelized apple slices evenly over the top.
- Finish in oven. Transfer skillet to the preheated oven and bake for 12–15 minutes, until the omelet is puffed, set in the center, and lightly golden on top.
- Serve immediately. Dust with powdered sugar if desired. Cut into wedges and serve straight from the pan — the omelet will begin to settle as it cools, which is expected and not a failure.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 210 | Protein: 8g | Fat: 11g | Carbs: 22g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 210mg