The Danny piece published on RecipeSpinoff. "Eight Years and a Number."
I didn't check the numbers for three days. I was too raw, too exposed. Writing about Babcia is emotional but familiar — I've told that story many times. Writing about Danny was different. Danny's story is the one I've kept in the dark room, the one I've shared only in cemeteries and with Megan (who I haven't met yet) and in the quiet hours of my own head. Putting it on a platform for a hundred thousand people felt like ripping something open.
When I finally checked: a hundred and sixty thousand reads. The most-read piece on RecipeSpinoff that month. Not just my most-read — the platform's most-read.
The comments broke me. Not from food people — from grief people. From parents who lost children. From friends who lost friends. From teenagers who are right now where I was at seventeen, sitting in a hospital hallway pretending to be strong. Hundreds of messages. Thousands of words from strangers who needed to know they weren't alone in their loss.
A man in Ohio lost his best friend to a drunk driver at nineteen. He wrote: "I've been carrying this for twelve years and I've never read anything that made me feel less alone. Thank you for the number 8. I'm going to get my friend's number tattooed on my wrist." That message. That man. That's why I write.
I didn't respond to all the DMs this time. I couldn't. There were too many and each one required more emotional energy than I had. Instead, I posted a single Instagram story: a photo of the number 8 on my wrist, no caption. Fifteen thousand people watched it.
Mrs. Wojcik called. She'd had someone read her the piece. She was quiet — unusual for Mrs. Wojcik. Then: "I didn't know about Danny." I said, "I don't talk about it much." She said, "You should. The world needs to hear about the boys we lost." The boys we lost. A phrase that covers Danny and also, I think, boys she lost in her own life that she hasn't told me about. Everyone has a dark room.
Made rosół. For no one. For everyone. For Danny. For the man in Ohio. For the dark rooms and the numbers on wrists and the stools that will always be empty. The soup is warm. The kitchen is open. The grief is carried. We continue.
After “Eight Years and a Number” went out into the world and the messages started coming in — from the man in Ohio, from Mrs. Wojcik, from teenagers sitting in hospital hallways — I needed something to do with my hands and my body and the unbearable fullness of it all. I made rosół. Not from a box. From a whole chicken and a pile of vegetables and time, the way Babcia made it, the way grief has always been processed in my kitchen. This pressure cooker version gets you there faster, but the ritual is the same: you put the raw things in, you wait, and something clarifying comes out the other side.
Pressure Cooker Homemade Chicken Broth
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 45 min | Total Time: 1 hr | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 1 whole chicken (3 to 4 lbs), cut into pieces, or equivalent bone-in parts
- 2 large carrots, scrubbed and cut into large chunks
- 3 stalks celery with leaves, cut into large chunks
- 1 large yellow onion, quartered (unpeeled for color)
- 4 cloves garlic, smashed
- 6 sprigs fresh flat-leaf parsley
- 2 bay leaves
- 1 teaspoon whole black peppercorns
- 1 1/2 teaspoons kosher salt, plus more to taste
- 8 cups cold water
Instructions
- Load the pot. Place the chicken pieces, carrots, celery, onion, garlic, parsley, bay leaves, peppercorns, and salt into the pressure cooker insert. Pour in the cold water — liquid should not exceed the max fill line.
- Seal and cook. Secure the lid and set the valve to sealing. Cook on high pressure for 45 minutes. Allow pressure to release naturally for 15 minutes, then carefully quick-release any remaining pressure.
- Strain the broth. Set a fine-mesh strainer over a large bowl or pot. Ladle or carefully pour the broth and solids through the strainer. Discard solids (or pull chicken meat for another use).
- Skim and season. Use a spoon to skim excess fat from the surface, or refrigerate the broth overnight and lift the solidified fat cap off easily. Taste and adjust salt as needed.
- Store or serve. Use immediately as a soup base, or ladle into jars and refrigerate for up to 5 days. Freeze in quart containers for up to 3 months. Serve on its own with thin egg noodles if you want it the way it’s meant to be eaten.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 38 | Protein: 5g | Fat: 1g | Carbs: 2g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 340mg
About the cook who shared this
Jake Kowalski
Week 259 of Jake’s 30-year story
· Milwaukee, Wisconsin
Jake is a twenty-nine-year-old brewery worker, newlywed, and proud Polish-American from Milwaukee's Bay View neighborhood. He didn't start cooking until his grandmother Babcia Helen passed away and left behind a stack of grease-stained recipe cards. Now he makes pierogi from scratch, smokes meats on a balcony smoker his landlord pretends not to notice, and writes for guys who want to cook good food but don't know a roux from a rub.