April's end. Finals approaching. The study group has entered what Marcus (study group Marcus, not my father) calls "the bunker" — the mode where we study from 8 a.m. to midnight with breaks only for food and bathroom and the occasional bout of hysteria that comes with sustained intellectual pressure. I am the food provider. This is my role, established through two years of feeding people who cannot feed themselves because they are too busy memorizing amino acid sequences to remember that humans require nutrients. I make a big pot of something — soup, stew, jambalaya — and leave it on the stove and people eat when they eat and the pot is always there and the pot is always full because that is what I do: I keep the pot full.
MawMaw Shirley would understand the pot metaphor better than anyone. Her pot — the cast iron one, the one that is now mine by declaration if not by possession — has been full for decades. It has never been empty when someone needed it. The pot is not just a cooking vessel. It is a promise: there will be food here when you come. There will be something warm. You will not be hungry in the presence of this pot. I am keeping that promise in a one-bedroom apartment with a study group that runs on my jambalaya and box wine and the shared understanding that we are all building something — careers, futures, the specific lives we decided on when we were eighteen and too young to know what we were promising but too stubborn to promise anything less.
Organic Chemistry final exam is Thursday. I am ready. Not confident — confidence is a luxury I do not permit myself before exams — but ready, which is the practical cousin of confidence, the version that comes from having done the work rather than from believing the outcome. I have done the work. The outcome will follow. The roux will darken. The grade will come.
I drove to Baker Sunday for an hour. MawMaw Shirley was quilting — the baby quilt for Jalen, which she has been working on since November and which is nearly done. It is blue and yellow, with a pattern of interlocking stars, and it is beautiful the way handmade things are beautiful: imperfect, intentional, full of the hours and the hands that made it. She held it up and said, "Two more rows." I said, "It's beautiful, MawMaw." She said, "It's warm. Beautiful is secondary." This is her philosophy in everything: function first, beauty follows. The quilt will keep Jalen warm. That is what it is for. That it is also beautiful is a bonus. That it was made by a great-grandmother who is eighty years old and refuses to stop creating — that is the real warmth.
The jambalaya is already the pot’s main act, but MawMaw Shirley’s philosophy — function first, beauty follows — demanded something sweet to go alongside it, something that could sit patient on the counter the way her cast iron always did: ready, warm, full when someone needed it. Pressure Cooker Butternut Rice Pudding is that thing for me. It comes together fast enough that I can make it between study blocks, it scales for a crowd, and the color — that deep, honest gold of the squash blooming into the cream — is exactly the kind of beauty that arrives without being asked for.
Pressure Cooker Butternut Rice Pudding
Prep Time: 10 min | Cook Time: 25 min | Total Time: 35 min | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 cups Arborio or short-grain white rice
- 3 cups butternut squash, peeled and cut into 1/2-inch cubes (about 1 small squash)
- 3 1/2 cups whole milk
- 1 cup heavy cream
- 1/3 cup granulated sugar
- 3 tablespoons light brown sugar, packed
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 1/4 teaspoon ground nutmeg
- 1/4 teaspoon fine salt
- 2 tablespoons unsalted butter
Instructions
- Prep the squash. Peel and cube the butternut squash into roughly 1/2-inch pieces so they cook evenly and break down into the pudding.
- Combine in the pot. Add the rice, squash cubes, milk, cream, granulated sugar, brown sugar, cinnamon, nutmeg, and salt to the pressure cooker insert. Stir everything together until the sugars begin to dissolve.
- Pressure cook. Seal the lid and set to high pressure for 8 minutes. Once cooking completes, allow a natural pressure release for 10 minutes, then carefully quick-release any remaining pressure.
- Mash and finish. Open the lid and stir vigorously — the squash will break apart into the pudding, deepening the color and body. Add the butter and vanilla extract and stir until fully incorporated.
- Rest before serving. Let the pudding sit uncovered for 5 minutes; it will thicken as it cools slightly. Stir once more before spooning into bowls. Serve warm with an extra pinch of cinnamon on top if you like.
- Store. Leftovers keep well in the refrigerator for up to 4 days. Reheat gently on the stovetop or in the microwave with a splash of milk to loosen.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 315 | Protein: 7g | Fat: 13g | Carbs: 44g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 135mg