Halloween. James is too old for trick-or-treating and too young to admit he misses it. Carrie made herself a costume — a literary character, she said, though the costume appeared to be a school uniform with a stack of books, which could have been any number of characters or, for that matter, her normal Wednesday. She went to a party at a friend's house. James went to the bookstore's Halloween event — a reading of Edgar Allan Poe by candlelight — and came home quoting "The Raven" with the dramatic intensity of a boy who has just discovered that words can be theatrical.
"Nevermore," he said, standing in the kitchen doorway in a black t-shirt. "Nevermore what?" I said. "Everything," he said, and grinned, and I thought: this is what seventeen looks like in the Blackwood house — half child, half man, full of Poe and possibilities.
I made caramel apples for the neighborhood children, a tradition I started when James was five. The apples are dipped in homemade caramel — Mama's recipe, which uses dark brown sugar and butter and cream and a candy thermometer and the kind of attention that, if diverted for thirty seconds, results in burned caramel and a ruined evening. I made twelve this year. I gave away ten. I ate one. Robert ate one. We sat on the porch and watched the children in their costumes and did not talk about anything important, which was exactly right.
The library held a Dia de los Muertos display this week — our first — and the response was remarkable. Families brought photos of their deceased loved ones to add to the ofrenda, and by Friday we had 47 photographs on the altar. I stood in front of the ofrenda after closing and thought about Reverend James. Daddy would have disapproved of Dia de los Muertos — too Catholic, too foreign for his Baptist sensibilities — but he would have understood the impulse behind it: the need to say the names of the people we have lost, to keep them alive in the speaking.
I am reading "Beloved" again. I read it every October. It is a novel about memory and its costs, about the dead who do not stay dead, about the price of freedom and the higher price of forgetting. Every time I read it, I find something new, which is the sign of a great novel and also the sign of a reader who is still growing.
Standing in front of that ofrenda, thinking of Daddy and the names we keep alive by speaking them, I wanted to bake something that felt like memory itself—layered, sweet, a little complicated, deeply Southern. Pecan pie has always been his territory in my mind, the smell of it enough to bring him back to a room. Adding cheesecake felt right somehow, like the way grief and gratitude sit together without canceling each other out. So here’s what I made.
Pecan Pie Cheesecake Bars
Prep Time: 20 min | Cook Time: 45 min | Total Time: 1 hr 5 min (plus 2 hr chilling) | Servings: 16 bars
Ingredients
- Graham Cracker Crust
- 1 1/2 cups graham cracker crumbs (about 10 full crackers)
- 1/4 cup granulated sugar
- 6 tablespoons unsalted butter, melted
- Cheesecake Layer
- 16 oz cream cheese, softened to room temperature
- 1/2 cup granulated sugar
- 2 large eggs
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- 1/4 teaspoon fine salt
- Pecan Pie Topping
- 1 1/4 cups pecan halves or roughly chopped pecans
- 3/4 cup packed dark brown sugar
- 1/2 cup light corn syrup
- 2 large eggs
- 3 tablespoons unsalted butter, melted and slightly cooled
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- 1/4 teaspoon fine salt
Instructions
- Prepare the pan. Preheat oven to 325°F. Line a 9x13-inch baking pan with parchment paper, leaving overhang on the long sides for easy lifting. Lightly butter any exposed pan edges.
- Make the crust. In a medium bowl, stir together graham cracker crumbs, granulated sugar, and melted butter until the mixture resembles wet sand. Press firmly and evenly into the bottom of the prepared pan. Bake for 10 minutes, until just set. Remove and let cool for 5 minutes while you prepare the cheesecake layer. Keep the oven on.
- Mix the cheesecake layer. Using a hand mixer or stand mixer on medium speed, beat the softened cream cheese and granulated sugar together for 2–3 minutes until completely smooth and fluffy. Add the eggs one at a time, beating well after each addition. Mix in the vanilla and salt. Do not overbeat once the eggs are in — stop when just combined.
- Bake the cheesecake base. Pour the cheesecake mixture over the warm crust and spread into an even layer. Bake for 20 minutes, until the edges are just set but the center still has a slight wobble. Remove from the oven.
- Make the pecan topping. While the cheesecake bakes, whisk together the dark brown sugar, corn syrup, melted butter, eggs, vanilla, and salt in a medium bowl until smooth. Fold in the pecans. The mixture will be thick and deeply fragrant — this is the part of the recipe that asks for your full attention.
- Layer and finish baking. Carefully spoon the pecan topping over the partially baked cheesecake layer, spreading it gently to the edges. Return the pan to the oven and bake for an additional 22–25 minutes, until the pecan topping is set and no longer jiggles in the center when the pan is nudged.
- Cool completely before cutting. Let the bars cool in the pan on a wire rack for 1 hour at room temperature, then transfer to the refrigerator and chill for at least 2 hours (overnight is ideal). Use the parchment overhang to lift the entire slab onto a cutting board, then slice into 16 bars with a sharp knife, wiping the blade clean between cuts.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 335 | Protein: 5g | Fat: 21g | Carbs: 34g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 185mg