August, second week. I've been reading back through old journals — the physical ones I kept in the first years after Grace, before everything moved to typed documents and phone notes. The handwriting shifts across the years: tight and controlled in the months right after her death, then looser, then purposeful, then something that looks like the writing of a person who has found their ground. You can read grief recovery in handwriting if you know what to look for.
I've also been reading Noah's food writing notebooks alongside my own. The comparison is instructive: his prose is cleaner than mine was at his age, more precise about sensory detail. He's been paying a different kind of attention than I did — his is more analytical, mine was more emotional. Two different intelligences applied to the same subject. I'll mention this to him when he calls from Oregon. It's the kind of observation a writer wants when they're starting out: here is what's distinctive about how you see.
This week in the kitchen: I made a big batch of peach preserves from the last of the summer peaches. Twelve jars. The kitchen smelled like late summer — warm and sweet and slightly fermented, the particular smell of fruit cooking down. I thought about all the August batches before this one, all the jars lined up on the counter, the annual ritual of putting summer in glass so it can be opened in January.
Gary helped with the labeling. He's started helping with the kitchen projects more than he used to, which I think is what happens when the children leave and the kitchen becomes fully the two-person operation it will be for the remaining years. A different partnership than the one with children underfoot. I'm finding I like it.
Twelve jars of preserves cooling on the counter, and still a few peaches left in the box — the ones too soft for canning but too good to waste. Gary suggested we do something with them right then, together, while the kitchen was already warm and sweet-smelling. So I made these peach crumb bars: the same ripe fruit, the same August afternoon, just pressed into a pan instead of a jar. A different way of keeping summer close.
Peach Crumb Bars
Prep Time: 20 minutes | Cook Time: 45 minutes | Total Time: 1 hour 5 minutes | Servings: 12
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
- 1/2 cup granulated sugar
- 1/4 cup packed light brown sugar
- 1/4 teaspoon salt
- 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 1/2 cup (1 stick) cold unsalted butter, cut into small pieces
- 1 large egg, lightly beaten
- 4 cups fresh peaches, peeled and sliced (about 5–6 medium peaches)
- 2 tablespoons cornstarch
- 1 tablespoon lemon juice
- 1/4 cup granulated sugar (for filling)
- 1/4 teaspoon nutmeg
Instructions
- Preheat the oven. Set your oven to 375°F. Line a 9x9-inch baking pan with parchment paper, leaving an overhang on two sides for easy removal. Lightly grease the parchment.
- Make the crumb mixture. In a large bowl, whisk together the flour, 1/2 cup granulated sugar, brown sugar, salt, and cinnamon. Cut in the cold butter using a pastry cutter or your fingers until the mixture resembles coarse crumbs with some pea-sized pieces remaining. Stir in the beaten egg until just combined. The mixture should be crumbly but hold together when pressed.
- Press the base. Reserve about 1 cup of the crumb mixture for the topping. Press the remaining mixture firmly and evenly into the bottom of the prepared pan to form a crust.
- Prepare the filling. In a bowl, toss the sliced peaches with 1/4 cup sugar, cornstarch, lemon juice, and nutmeg until evenly coated. Spread the peach mixture over the pressed crust in an even layer.
- Add the crumb topping. Scatter the reserved crumb mixture over the peaches, pressing it gently into loose clumps as you go.
- Bake. Bake for 40–45 minutes, until the topping is golden brown and the peach filling is bubbling at the edges.
- Cool completely. Let the bars cool in the pan on a wire rack for at least 1 hour before lifting out by the parchment overhang and slicing. This allows the filling to set so the bars hold their shape.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 210 | Protein: 2g | Fat: 8g | Carbs: 33g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 55mg