The house was quiet in the way houses with grown children are quiet — a quiet that contains memory. The week was a summer week, the kind where the light through the kitchen window arrives at a particular angle and the freezer hums in a different register depending on the temperature in the garage. I made notes in my prep notebook on Sunday afternoon, the way I always do: meal name, ingredient list, cost per serving, prep time, freezer instructions. Twenty-eight bags. Two hours and eleven minutes. A little slow this week, by my standards, but Brandon was helping and the conversation was good, and I have learned, slowly and against my own grain, that the conversation is sometimes the point and the time is sometimes a courtesy I extend to my husband for being willing to chop onions on a Sunday afternoon.
The recipe of the week was corn casserole, which I have made some specific number of times in my life and have refined to a system that I now hand to other people in printed form. The version I made this week fed eight, cost under fifteen dollars, and required twenty-six minutes of active prep, which is within my requirements and not a coincidence. Three of the bags I pulled out this week were dated nine months ago and they were perfect, because labeling is theology in my house. I have stopped explaining the freezer-meal philosophy to people who already follow my work, and I have stopped apologizing for it to people who do not. The philosophy is simple: tomorrow is coming whether you are ready or not. You can either be ready or not. I pick ready.
Brandon called me at lunch on Tuesday for no particular reason and I knew without him saying so that he was thinking about Grace. Twenty-some years in, I can hear the silences. We have been married a long time. The arithmetic of it is the arithmetic of my whole life. There were years we missed each other in the same room, and there are years we find each other in the silences, and this is one of the latter, and I am old enough now to know that the latter is the achievement and the former was the cost.
The accountant in me keeps a private ledger of how old Grace would be. I do not consult it. It is automatic. I do not write about her every week. I do not avoid her either. She is in the kitchen the way the kitchen is in the kitchen — woven into the structure, not announcing herself, present. The photograph above the stove is the only one of her smiling, and it has watched me batch-prep more freezer meals than I can count, and I have stopped feeling strange about the parasocial relationship I have with a four-month-old who has been gone for years. She is my daughter. The photograph is what I have. I look. I keep cooking.
I'm Michelle. The freezer is full. Talk to you next week.
The corn casserole went into the freezer, same as it always does, but this was the recipe I kept coming back to when someone in my neighborhood group asked what to bring to the end-of-summer potluck — because Parmesan Baked Potatoes are what I call a showing-up dish: they travel well, they feed a crowd without drama, and they require almost nothing of you at the moment you can least afford to give something. Brandon helped me portion these out the same afternoon we did the casserole bags, and if you’re going to batch two things on a Sunday, this is the one worth stacking alongside whatever else is in your rotation. Simple is not the same as settling. This is proof.
Parmesan Baked Potatoes
Prep Time: 10 min | Cook Time: 50 min | Total Time: 1 hr | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 8 medium russet potatoes, scrubbed and halved lengthwise
- 1/3 cup unsalted butter, melted
- 3/4 cup finely grated Parmesan cheese, divided
- 1 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1 teaspoon onion powder
- 1/2 teaspoon smoked paprika
- 1 teaspoon kosher salt
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
- 2 tablespoons fresh flat-leaf parsley, chopped (for garnish)
- Sour cream, for serving (optional)
Instructions
- Preheat. Heat oven to 400°F. Lightly grease a large rimmed baking sheet or 9x13 baking dish with nonstick spray.
- Make the coating. In a small bowl, stir together the melted butter, 1/2 cup of the Parmesan, garlic powder, onion powder, smoked paprika, salt, and pepper until combined.
- Coat the pan. Pour the butter-Parmesan mixture evenly across the bottom of the prepared baking sheet, spreading it into a thin, even layer.
- Place the potatoes. Set each potato half cut-side down directly into the Parmesan mixture, pressing gently so the coating adheres to the flat surface.
- Bake. Transfer to the oven and bake uncovered for 45–50 minutes, until the potato skins are tender when pierced with a fork and the Parmesan crust on the bottom is deep golden and crisp.
- Finish and serve. Remove from oven. Use a thin spatula to lift each potato half, crust-side up, onto a serving platter. Sprinkle with remaining 1/4 cup Parmesan and chopped parsley. Serve immediately with sour cream on the side if desired.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 230 | Protein: 7g | Fat: 10g | Carbs: 30g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 310mg