Year two begins and I am in my mother's kitchen, cooking an Easter ham that my mother requested from a bed in the living room. The ham is in the refrigerator, thawing. It is a ten-pound bone-in ham from Honey Baked — not homemade, because even I have limits and my limit is curing a ham while my mother is on hospice. I will glaze it with pineapple and cloves, Mama's way, the way she's done every Easter since before I was born, and it will taste like every Easter I remember and it will taste different because she won't be standing over it telling me I used too many cloves.
Mama is having more bad days than good ones now. The hospice nurse, Patricia, comes every morning and evening. The pain medication keeps Mama comfortable, which is the word everyone uses — comfortable — as if comfort is possible when your body is being consumed from the inside. But she sleeps more peacefully. She eats small things when she wants them. She asks for water with lemon. She asks to hear the kitchen.
I cook with the kitchen door open so the sounds carry. The sizzle of onions. The rhythm of a knife on the cutting board. The timer dinging. These are the sounds of Brenda Jackson's life, and I will play them for her like a symphony until the concert ends. I am making everything she loves, one dish at a time, cycling through her recipe notebook — the spiral-bound book with thirty years of Thanksgiving menus and birthday cakes and Tuesday night dinners. I am cooking the book. Page by page. Meal by meal. As if the food can hold her here.
Darnell arrives Friday. Andre is coming Saturday. Miss Ernestine will be brought Sunday morning. Easter dinner is planned: ham, deviled eggs, potato salad, collard greens, rolls, and peach cobbler. Mama's menu. Mama's table. I will set it and I will serve it and she will hear it from the living room and she will know that her kitchen is alive. That is all I can give her now. That is everything.
Marcus asked me tonight, standing at the stove while I made chicken and rice, "Is Grandma going to make it to Easter?" I looked at him. Twelve years old — his birthday was in January, he's twelve now — and asking the question that I've been asking God every night on the bathroom floor. I said, "She's going to try, baby." He said, "Me too." And he stirred the rice and I didn't ask him what he meant because I think I know: he's going to try to be okay. He's going to try to hold it together. He's twelve and he's trying, and that is the bravest thing I've ever seen my son do.
That night at the stove with Marcus—both of us quiet, both of us trying—I didn’t want something heavy or ceremonial. I wanted something warm and a little bit unexpected, something that could hold us without demanding anything from us. This Paprika Chicken Stroganoff was exactly that: it started as the chicken and rice I’d planned, and then I kept reaching for more—more depth, more comfort, more of whatever it is that good food gives you when words won’t come. Here’s how I made it.
Paprika Chicken Stroganoff
Prep Time: 10 min | Cook Time: 30 min | Total Time: 40 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 lbs boneless, skinless chicken thighs, cut into 1-inch pieces
- 2 tbsp olive oil
- 1 medium yellow onion, diced
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 2 tbsp sweet paprika
- 1/2 tsp smoked paprika
- 1/2 tsp salt, plus more to taste
- 1/4 tsp black pepper
- 1 tbsp all-purpose flour
- 1 cup low-sodium chicken broth
- 1 cup sour cream, room temperature
- 1 tbsp Worcestershire sauce
- 2 tbsp fresh flat-leaf parsley, chopped
- 3 cups cooked white rice, for serving
Instructions
- Season the chicken. Toss the chicken pieces with the sweet paprika, smoked paprika, salt, and pepper until evenly coated. Set aside.
- Sear the chicken. Heat olive oil in a large skillet over medium-high heat. Add the chicken in a single layer and cook without stirring for 3–4 minutes until golden brown on the bottom. Flip and cook another 2 minutes. Transfer to a plate—it does not need to be fully cooked through yet.
- Soften the onion. Reduce heat to medium. Add the diced onion to the same skillet and cook, stirring occasionally, for 4–5 minutes until soft and translucent. Add the garlic and cook 1 minute more until fragrant.
- Build the sauce. Sprinkle the flour over the onion mixture and stir to coat, cooking for about 1 minute. Pour in the chicken broth and Worcestershire sauce, scraping up any browned bits from the bottom of the pan. Bring to a gentle simmer.
- Return the chicken. Nestle the seared chicken back into the skillet. Cover and simmer over medium-low heat for 12–15 minutes, until the chicken is cooked through and the sauce has thickened slightly.
- Finish with sour cream. Remove the skillet from heat. Stir in the sour cream until fully incorporated and the sauce is smooth and creamy. Taste and adjust salt as needed. Do not return to high heat once the sour cream is added or the sauce may break.
- Serve. Spoon over warm white rice and finish with fresh parsley.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 410 | Protein: 34g | Fat: 19g | Carbs: 26g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 510mg