First year of medical school: complete. I survived. Not gracefully — there were supply closet cries, midnight gumbos, 2 a.m. study sessions, and a week in March where I ate nothing but rice and determination. But I survived. The grades are acceptable. The knowledge is building. The white coat is one year closer.
I drove to Baton Rouge the day after exams ended. Mama's red beans were on the stove. Friday. The tradition that does not care about medical school calendars. I ate three bowls. Mama watched and said nothing, because Mama knows that three bowls means the semester was hard and the hardness needs red beans and the red beans need silence and the silence needs Mama. She provided all three.
Baker Saturday. MawMaw Shirley at the table. Coffee. Cotton gloves. She said, "One year." I said, "One year." She said, "Three more." I said, "Three more." She said, "I will be here." She means it as a promise. I receive it as a prayer.
The small LSU senior year is the small academic-final-stretch. The small pre-med-biology-major with the small 3.8-GPA. The small May-2026-graduation is the small approaching-milestone. The small future-medical-school target is the small Aaliyah-mission.
The small off-campus-apartment in Baton Rouge since sophomore year. The small budget-cooking on the small apartment-kitchen with two-burners-and-a-cutting-board-balanced-on-the-counter. The small budget-Louisiana ($6-jambalaya, $4-red-beans-and-rice, stretching-a-Walmart-rotisserie-chicken-into-three-meals). The small cooking-for-roommates-and-study-groups.
The small parents Marcus and Tanya Robinson in the small Scotlandville-Baton-Rouge house Marcus rebuilt after the small 2016 thousand-year-flood. Marcus is the small Amazon-warehouse-supervisor. Tanya is the small certified-medical-coder-working-from-home. The small Christmas-and-summer-home visits. The small parent-Aaliyah relationship is the small steady-presence.
The small cousin DeAndre (Marcus’s brother Terrence’s son, Jamal’s age) had been shot and killed in a small gas-station-parking-lot in north Baton Rouge in 2020 at age 18 in the small social-media-dispute that had escalated to guns in 48 hours. The small ongoing-grief continues. The small Aaliyah-decided-to-succeed-so-completely the world-would-have-to-make-room engagement.
The small dorm-budget cooking is the small kitchen-identity. The small one-pot-everything in the small dorm-microwave. The small mason-jar overnight-oats. The small protein-and-bean-bowls. The small Aaliyah-on-fifty-dollars-a-week for the small grocery-supplementation budget. The small budget-cooking has been the small lifelong-practice from the small Pamela-mother kitchen.
The small Louisiana-Black-Southern food heritage runs through Tanya’s kitchen and continues in Aaliyah’s apartment-adaptation. The small red-beans-and-rice (the small Monday-staple, inherited from Marcus’s mother MawMaw Shirley in Baker). The small jambalaya (when Aaliyah cooks on weekends). The small MawMaw-Shirley-roux taught over every-other-Saturday visits to Baker. The small heritage is the small portable-thing.
The small Sunday-publishing-rhythm of the recipe blog continues to be the small organizing-spine of the small week. The small Sunday-cooking happens in the small late-morning-to-early-afternoon window. The small photographing of the finished dish happens at the small three-PM kitchen-light-window. The small writing-up of the recipe happens at the small four-PM workspace at the kitchen-counter. The small final-edit happens at the small five-PM. The small post publishes at seven PM. The small ritual has been running for years.
The small recipe-development-philosophy continues to be the small small-batch-test-then-publish approach. The small first cook of a small new recipe happens on the small Saturday afternoon. The small adjustments are noted in the small kitchen-notebook. The small second cook happens Sunday with the small adjustments incorporated. The small Sunday-cook is the small version that gets photographed and published. The small two-test process catches the small recipe-flaws before they reach the small reader.
The small kitchen-equipment-inventory has the small key-pieces that show up in nearly every recipe. The small heavy-bottomed Dutch oven for the small braises. The small twelve-inch cast-iron skillet for the small sears and the small pan-roasts. The small half-sheet baking-pans for the small roasted vegetables and the small cookies. The small wooden-spoon-collection in the small ceramic-pitcher on the counter. The small chef’s-knife and the small paring-knife and the small bread-knife that are the small daily-tools.
The small grocery-shopping rhythm runs through the small Tuesday-evening trip and the small Saturday-morning top-off. The small Tuesday-trip is the small weekly-stock-up for the small staples and the small produce and the small protein. The small Saturday-trip is the small quick-fill for whatever the small Sunday-recipe requires that is not already in the small pantry. The small two-trip-per-week pattern keeps the small grocery-bill manageable and the small food-waste low.
The small meal-planning happens on the small Sunday-evening for the small week-ahead. The small dinners are mapped out across the small Monday-through-Saturday. The small repeating-meals are slotted in (the small pasta-Monday, the small taco-Tuesday or similar pattern). The small new-recipes are slotted for the small Wednesday-or-Thursday for the small variety. The small planning ahead reduces the small daily what-are-we-making-for-dinner stress.
The small weekday-cooking is the small efficient-and-fast mode. The small Sunday-cooking is the small slow-and-careful mode. The small two-modes serve the small two-different-needs. The small weekday-cooking has to be on the small table within forty-five minutes of getting home from the small work-or-school-pickup. The small Sunday-cooking can take three hours and benefit from every minute of that time.
The small recipe-archive on the small blog has grown to many hundreds of recipes over the years. The small archive is the small searchable-resource for the small weekday-meal-planning. The small reader-feedback in the small comments-section helps refine the small recipes over time.
The small Sunday-cooking-and-writing rhythm is the small thing that has held across years of life-changes and family-events and small ordinary-weekday-disruptions. The small constant is the small Sunday. The small constant is the small recipe. The small constant is the small posting-at-seven-PM ritual.
MawMaw Shirley does not let you leave Baker empty-handed — not after a year like mine. While we sat across from each other trading “one year” and “three more” like a call-and-response only the two of us know, she slid a wax-paper-wrapped stack across the table without a word. Napoleon Cremes. The tin lives on the second shelf of her pantry and it is always full when I arrive. I asked her once why she keeps them ready and she said, “Because you are always coming home.” I tested this recipe twice in my apartment kitchen — Saturday rough draft, Sunday final — so I could carry a version of that tin back to Baton Rouge with me.
Napoleon Cremes
Prep Time: 25 minutes | Cook Time: 5 minutes | Total Time: 30 minutes plus 2 hours chilling | Servings: 24 bars
Ingredients
- Base Layer
- 1/2 cup unsalted butter, melted
- 1/4 cup granulated sugar
- 1/3 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
- 1 large egg, lightly beaten
- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
- 2 cups graham cracker crumbs
- 1 cup sweetened shredded coconut
- 1/2 cup finely chopped walnuts or pecans
- Middle Custard Layer
- 1/2 cup unsalted butter, softened
- 3 tablespoons heavy cream or whole milk
- 2 tablespoons vanilla custard powder (or instant vanilla pudding mix)
- 2 cups powdered sugar, sifted
- Top Chocolate Layer
- 4 oz semi-sweet chocolate chips or chopped chocolate
- 2 tablespoons unsalted butter
Instructions
- Prepare the pan. Line a 9x13-inch baking dish with parchment paper, leaving overhang on two sides for easy lifting. Set aside.
- Make the base. In a medium saucepan over low heat, combine melted butter, sugar, and cocoa powder. Stir until smooth and just warmed through, about 2 minutes. Remove from heat. Quickly whisk in the beaten egg (the residual heat will cook it gently) and vanilla. Fold in graham cracker crumbs, coconut, and chopped nuts until fully combined. The mixture will be thick.
- Press and chill. Press the base mixture firmly and evenly into the prepared pan. Refrigerate for 15 minutes while you make the custard layer.
- Make the custard layer. Using a hand mixer or stand mixer, beat the softened butter on medium speed until fluffy, about 2 minutes. Add the cream, custard powder, and powdered sugar. Beat on low to combine, then increase to medium-high and beat until the mixture is pale, smooth, and spreadable, about 3 minutes. If it is too stiff, add cream one teaspoon at a time.
- Spread and chill again. Spread the custard layer evenly over the chilled base. Return to the refrigerator for 15 minutes until the custard layer is firm to the touch.
- Make the chocolate topping. In a small saucepan or microwave-safe bowl, melt the chocolate chips and butter together over low heat (or in 30-second microwave intervals), stirring until completely smooth. Let cool for 3 to 4 minutes — it should be pourable but not hot.
- Top and set. Pour the chocolate over the custard layer and tilt the pan gently to spread it to the edges. Refrigerate uncovered for at least 2 hours, or until the chocolate is fully set and firm.
- Slice and serve. Lift the slab from the pan using the parchment overhang. Use a sharp knife warmed under hot water and wiped dry to cut into bars — approximately 6 cuts one direction and 4 the other for 24 bars. Store covered in the refrigerator for up to one week.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 210 | Protein: 2g | Fat: 13g | Carbs: 23g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 85mg