New Year's. Quiet. Ryan and I sat on the couch with sparkling water and watched the ball drop. The kids slept through it. The military life teaches you to not party hard on holidays — you might get an alert at 0400.
Wednesday morning meal prep — Sunday afternoon, hours of containers. The freezer is full. The future-me thanks present-me. Donna taught me this routine. Donna's freezer was always full. Donna saved her sanity with quart bags labeled in Sharpie.
The kitchen counter has a chip in it from someone before us. Some military housing thing. I have stopped asking what. The chip is fine. The whole kitchen is provisional. We are renting from Uncle Sam.
The Friday before-school morning was chaos. Three kids, two backpacks, one missing shoe. We all made it to the bus. I drank cold coffee at nine AM because that's when I sat down. Standard.
My therapy session was Tuesday. We talked about the deployment cycle and the way the body holds dread and the ways the body holds it. The hour passed. The work continues. I have been doing this work for years. The work pays.
Ryan went to his counselor Wednesday. He always comes home calmer. I am calm too, just from him being calm. The man Torres was killed with — Ryan calls his wife twice a year on Torres's birthday and the anniversary. The military widows are their own community.
I made a casserole for a neighbor whose husband is deployed. I dropped it off. She cried. I told her, eat the casserole, baby. The food is the saying. The casserole was a mostly-frozen tater-tot situation that took fifteen minutes of effort and six months of practice to perfect.
Ryan's friends came over Friday for a beer. I made wings and chips. They demolished both. Standard Marine appetite — they eat like they are still on rations. The kitchen looked like a battlefield by the end. They cleaned up. Marines clean up. Donna would have been impressed.
Reading another military memoir at night. They make Ryan tense. They steady me. We negotiate. He doesn't ask what I'm reading. I don't tell him. The arrangement works.
Caleb watched the firefighters at a school visit Wednesday and came home buzzing. He is going to be one. I have known this since he was four. Some kids tell you who they are early.
The military spouses' Facebook group had a small drama this week. Two women fighting over the playgroup schedule. I muted notifications and cooked dinner. Some weeks the group is the lifeline. Some weeks it is the source of unnecessary stress. The skill is knowing which week you're in.
The PCS rumors are starting again. The official orders will come in a few months. We could move. We could stay. The waiting is the worst part. Three years here and I have learned to not put down deep roots in any military town. Nineteen-year-old me would not have believed how good I have gotten at packing.
I went for a walk Sunday morning before the kids got up. Half an hour. The fog was burning off. I needed it. Some weeks I get the walk in. Some weeks I don't. The week tells me which.
I went to the commissary Saturday morning. Got the grocery haul under sixty bucks for the week, which is a small victory. The cashier knows me. We talked about her grandkids while she scanned the chicken thighs and the family-size box of pasta. Small-town energy on a Marine base in California.
Ryan came home tired Wednesday. He showered, ate, sat on the couch, was asleep by eight. Standard for a Marine who has been up since four-thirty for PT and stayed late for a brief. The schedule is the schedule. The body adapts because it has to.
When Ryan’s friends showed up Friday and demolished everything in the kitchen, I filed that away as useful data. Wings and chips are fine, but next time I want something with a little more substance—something that actually sticks. These mushroom burgers are what I’ve been cycling back into the rotation for exactly those nights: fast enough that I’m not trapped in the kitchen while everyone else is in the living room, and hearty enough that a table full of Marines actually stays fed. The commissary had everything I needed for under ten dollars, which, given that week’s sixty-dollar grocery haul, felt like a personal win.
Mushroom Burgers
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 20 min | Total Time: 35 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1 lb ground beef (80/20 blend)
- 8 oz cremini or white button mushrooms, finely chopped
- 1/4 cup plain breadcrumbs
- 1 large egg
- 2 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 tbsp Worcestershire sauce
- 1/2 tsp onion powder
- 1/2 tsp salt
- 1/4 tsp black pepper
- 4 burger buns, toasted
- Optional toppings: sliced cheddar, lettuce, tomato, red onion, pickles, condiments
Instructions
- Prep the mushrooms. Finely chop mushrooms until they are nearly minced. Pat them dry with a paper towel to remove excess moisture—this step keeps your patties from falling apart.
- Mix the patties. In a large bowl, combine ground beef, chopped mushrooms, breadcrumbs, egg, garlic, Worcestershire sauce, onion powder, salt, and pepper. Mix until just combined. Do not overwork the meat.
- Form and chill. Divide mixture into 4 equal portions and shape into patties about 3/4 inch thick. Press a small indent into the center of each with your thumb. Refrigerate for 10 minutes if time allows.
- Cook the burgers. Heat a cast iron skillet or grill pan over medium-high heat. Cook patties 4–5 minutes per side for medium doneness, or until internal temperature reaches 160°F. If adding cheese, place it on the patties during the last minute of cooking and cover briefly to melt.
- Toast the buns. While burgers rest, toast buns cut-side down in the pan for 1–2 minutes until golden.
- Assemble and serve. Build burgers with your preferred toppings. Serve immediately.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 430 | Protein: 29g | Fat: 22g | Carbs: 27g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 510mg