Aquarium day. Just Jasmine and me. We drove downtown to the Georgia Aquarium and spent four hours watching fish, which sounds simple and was not. It was magnificent. Jasmine pressed her face against the whale shark tank and said, "Mama, how big is the ocean?" I said, "Bigger than we can imagine." She said, "Bigger than missing Grandma?" I said, "Nothing is bigger than that." She put her hand in mine and we watched the whale sharks drift through blue water and for a moment the grief was still there but it was the size of a fish instead of the size of the ocean, and that was enough.
We ate lunch at the aquarium café — overpriced sandwiches and chips, the kind of meal Mama would have been appalled by ("You're paying twelve dollars for THAT?"). But Jasmine was happy. She was chattering about sea otters and beluga whales and whether fish have feelings (she believes they do; I don't argue because she might be right). She was nine and happy and her mother was fully present and for three hours, nothing else existed. Not cancer. Not Terrell. Not the mortgage or the job or the empty chair. Just fish and sandwiches and my daughter's hand in mine.
August approaches. Back-to-school shopping soon. The familiar rhythm of lists and supplies and new shoes and the particular panic of realizing that summer is ending and you haven't done half of what you planned. I planned to paint the bathroom. I did not paint the bathroom. I planned to organize the garage. I did not organize the garage. I planned to grieve in an orderly fashion and emerge stronger. I did not do that either. I survived. That was the summer's plan, even if I didn't know it. Survival. And I survived.
Made a peach milkshake Saturday night — fresh Georgia peaches blended with vanilla ice cream and a splash of milk, served in mason jars because I am a Southern woman and mason jars are how we drink everything from water to wine to milkshakes. Marcus said, "This is basically dessert." I said, "It is dessert." He said, "For dinner?" I said, "Sometimes dinner is dessert, and sometimes the rules can go to hell." He looked at me with something approaching awe. Jasmine said, "Mama said hell." I said, "Mama said it once. Don't repeat it." She repeated it. I let it go. Some battles aren't worth fighting. Some milkshakes are worth making.
That Saturday night milkshake didn’t happen by accident — it happened because the peaches on the counter were at peak ripeness and because sometimes the only right response to a summer like this one is to blend something sweet and cold and share it with the people still standing beside you. The secret to getting it right is starting with good vanilla bean ice cream, creamy and simple, the kind that lets the fruit do its work. Make a batch of this, let it set, and when the peaches are ready, you’ll be ready too.
Light Vanilla Bean Ice Cream
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 0 min (plus 4–6 hrs freezing) | Total Time: ~5 hrs | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 2 cups whole milk
- 1 cup heavy cream
- 1/2 cup granulated sugar
- 2 tablespoons light corn syrup
- 1 vanilla bean, split and scraped (or 2 teaspoons pure vanilla extract)
- Pinch of fine sea salt
Instructions
- Combine the base. In a medium bowl, whisk together the milk, heavy cream, sugar, and corn syrup until the sugar is fully dissolved, about 2 minutes.
- Add vanilla and salt. Scrape the seeds from the vanilla bean pod directly into the mixture (or stir in vanilla extract). Add the pinch of salt and whisk to combine. If using a vanilla bean, drop the pod in and let the mixture steep in the refrigerator for 30 minutes, then remove the pod before churning.
- Chill the mixture. Cover the bowl and refrigerate for at least 1 hour, or until very cold. A cold base churns into smoother ice cream.
- Churn. Pour the chilled mixture into your ice cream maker and churn according to the manufacturer’s instructions, typically 20–25 minutes, until it reaches a soft-serve consistency.
- Freeze to firm. Transfer the churned ice cream to a freezer-safe container, smooth the top, and press a piece of plastic wrap directly against the surface. Freeze for at least 3–4 hours until firm.
- For the peach milkshake. Blend 2 scoops of this vanilla bean ice cream with 1 fresh Georgia peach (peeled and sliced) and a splash of whole milk until smooth and creamy. Pour into mason jars. Serve immediately — rules optional.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 210 | Protein: 3g | Fat: 11g | Carbs: 26g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 55mg