Spring. Easter. Tommy is seventeen months old and he's running through the house shouting "mo" at every plate of food. He sat in the high chair and ate pieces of pierogi and golabki and zurek-soaked bread and Easter lamb and he clapped after every bite and the table was full and both families were there and Megan's belly was just starting to show — seven weeks, barely a bump, hidden under a loose dress.
Nobody knows about the new baby. Not yet. Not until twelve weeks. We eat Easter dinner and smile and keep the secret warm between us like a coal. Linda asked Megan why she wasn't drinking wine. Megan said, "I'm driving." Linda said, "Jake's driving." Megan said, "I'm driving Jake." Linda squinted. The squint of maternal suspicion. She knows something. She always knows something.
Tom ate four golabki and discussed the Brewers starting rotation with Patrick, oblivious to the undercurrents of maternal intelligence swirling around the table. Fathers see the surface. Mothers see the depths. The table operates on two levels at all times.
Made the full Easter feast in the kitchen that is now running at full capacity. Six burners, wide counter, pot rack, the window. The kitchen that Babcia would have loved. I made the zurek and the golabki and the lamb and the pierogi and I stood at the stove stirring and Tommy was on my hip because he wanted "up" and I cooked one-handed and he watched the soup bubble and I thought, this is everything. This is the whole point of all of it.
The small future-kid-conversations have begun. Megan teaches small fourth-grade at a small public school in Wauwatosa. The small adoption-vs-biological conversation is in the small early-discussion stage. The small five-year-plan includes the small kid-or-kids in some form. The small kitchen is the small place where the small future is being practiced.
The small Lakefront Brewery shift-work continues to be the small steady-paycheck. The small forty-hour-week brewery-floor job pays the small twenty-two-an-hour rate that the small Milwaukee-blue-collar-economy supports. The small benefits are the small union-decent. The small ten-year-tenure-target is the small career-anchor.
Megan is from a small Irish-Catholic Milwaukee-suburban family. The small Sunday-dinners at her small parents’ house rotate with the small Sunday-dinners at Jake’s parents’ house. The small in-laws on both sides have been the small welcoming-presence. The small two-family-network is the small extended-support the small newlywed-life rests on.
Megan and Jake married in June 2024. The small newlywed-rhythm is in its small second year. The small two-bedroom rental on the small east-side of Milwaukee continues to be the small first-home. The small thirty-year-mortgage-eventually-someday is the small five-year-goal. The small marriage is the small foundation the small life is being built on.
The small Lakefront Brewery shift-work continues to be the small steady-paycheck. The small forty-hour-week brewery-floor job pays the small twenty-two-an-hour rate that the small Milwaukee-blue-collar-economy supports. The small benefits are the small union-decent. The small ten-year-tenure-target is the small career-anchor.
The small Polish-American heritage is the small kitchen-identity. The small pierogi-recipe-cards from Babcia Helen (Jake’s grandmother who passed in 2018, who had lived two blocks from the small Bay-View family-house) is the small monthly-Saturday-tradition. The small kielbasa-and-sauerkraut. The small bigos. The small recipes that came over from the small Krakow-region in the small 1910s.
Megan is from a small Irish-Catholic Milwaukee-suburban family. The small Sunday-dinners at her small parents’ house rotate with the small Sunday-dinners at Jake’s parents’ house. The small in-laws on both sides have been the small welcoming-presence. The small two-family-network is the small extended-support the small newlywed-life rests on.
The small Milwaukee-winter is the small six-month-condition. The small cold-weather-comfort-food rotation runs October through April. The small soups, the small stews, the small braises, the small heavy-baked-goods. The small Midwestern-comfort-vocabulary is the small kitchen-language.
The small future-kid-conversations have begun. Megan teaches small fourth-grade at a small public school in Wauwatosa. The small adoption-vs-biological conversation is in the small early-discussion stage. The small five-year-plan includes the small kid-or-kids in some form. The small kitchen is the small place where the small future is being practiced.
After the golabki and the zurek and the pierogi and the lamb — after Tommy clapped for every bite and Linda squinted at Megan across the table and we kept our secret warm between us like a coal — I wanted something bright at the end of it. Something that tasted like spring arriving. I put this lemon buttercream on a simple yellow cake, and when Megan had a slice she smiled the particular smile she’d been smiling all day, the one that meant she knew something nobody else at the table knew, and it was perfect.
Lemon Buttercream Frosting
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 0 minutes | Total Time: 10 minutes | Servings: 12 (frosts one 9-inch layer cake)
Ingredients
- 1 cup (2 sticks) unsalted butter, softened to room temperature
- 4 cups powdered sugar, sifted
- 3 tablespoons fresh lemon juice (about 1 large lemon)
- 1 tablespoon lemon zest
- 2–3 tablespoons heavy cream or whole milk
- 1/4 teaspoon fine salt
- 1/2 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
Instructions
- Beat the butter. In a large bowl using a hand mixer or stand mixer fitted with the paddle attachment, beat the softened butter on medium-high speed for 2–3 minutes until pale, fluffy, and smooth.
- Add the sugar. Reduce mixer speed to low and gradually add the sifted powdered sugar, 1 cup at a time, mixing until fully incorporated before adding the next cup. Scrape down the sides of the bowl as needed.
- Add the lemon. Add the fresh lemon juice, lemon zest, vanilla extract, and salt. Mix on medium speed until combined, about 1 minute.
- Adjust consistency. Add heavy cream one tablespoon at a time, mixing on medium-high speed for 1–2 minutes after each addition, until the frosting is light, fluffy, and spreadable. For a stiffer piping consistency, use less cream; for a softer spreading consistency, add the full 3 tablespoons.
- Taste and adjust. Taste the frosting and add additional lemon juice for more brightness or powdered sugar to sweeten further. Use immediately or store covered at room temperature for up to 4 hours before using.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 290 | Protein: 0g | Fat: 16g | Carbs: 38g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 55mg