January in Memphis, and the heat has settled over the city like a blanket nobody asked for but everybody accepts, because Memphis in summer is not a choice, it is a condition, and the condition is sweating. I am 61 years old and retired from the Postal Service, walking the neighborhood by choice instead of duty, and the week brought its own kind of weather — the personal kind, the family kind, the kind that no meteorologist can forecast.
The week\'s main current was virtual sickle cell fundraiser raises $14. Denise was close this week. Closer than usual. There are weeks when she recedes, when the grief becomes a low hum instead of a sharp note, and there are weeks when she fills every room I enter, when her absence is so present it has its own weight and temperature. This was one of those weeks. I don\'t fight it. I don\'t try to manage it. I let the grief be what it is — a love story without an ending, playing on repeat, the melody familiar and unfinished.
I cooked this week the way I cook every week: with intention, with the ingredients at hand, and with the understanding that food made in a home kitchen for people you love is fundamentally different from food made anywhere else. The recipe doesn\'t matter as much as the hands that make it and the table that receives it. I stood at my stove or sat beside my smoker and I made smoked pork to share with neighbors, and the making was the medicine, and the eating was the communion, and the cleaning up afterward was the humility that every cook needs — the reminder that the meal is over but the feeding continues, tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow.
Sunday at Mt. Zion, the choir sang and I added my bass to the foundation, and the sound rose through the sanctuary the way smoke rises through the air — upward, always upward, seeking something higher than itself. After church, I drove to Whitehaven or I called Mama or I sat in the backyard and thought about the things I always think about: family, fire, food, and the faith that holds them all together. The week was done. The next one was coming. And I would show up for it, as I show up for everything, because showing up is the only skill I have that never fails.
The pork I smoked this week was its own thing — but when I thought about what to put in writing, what to hand to somebody and say “here, this is what I made,” jerk chicken was the honest answer, because the spice and the smoke together are what this season of life tastes like to me: sharp in places, deep in others, and better when shared than eaten alone. There is something about standing beside a fire with good seasoning and no hurry that does what the choir on Sunday does — it lifts. After a week heavy with Denise and the fundraiser and the particular weight of grief that has no resolution, I needed a recipe that demanded my full attention at the fire and rewarded patience, and this one does exactly that.
Jerk Chicken
Prep Time: 20 minutes (plus 4–8 hours marinating) | Cook Time: 45 minutes | Total Time: 5–9 hours | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 3 lbs bone-in, skin-on chicken thighs and drumsticks
- 4 green onions, roughly chopped
- 4 cloves garlic
- 2 Scotch bonnet or habanero peppers, seeded (use gloves)
- 2 tablespoons soy sauce
- 2 tablespoons olive oil
- 2 tablespoons brown sugar
- 1 tablespoon fresh lime juice
- 1 tablespoon ground allspice
- 1 teaspoon dried thyme
- 1 teaspoon smoked paprika
- 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 1/2 teaspoon ground black pepper
- 1/2 teaspoon salt
- 1/4 teaspoon ground nutmeg
Instructions
- Make the marinade. Combine green onions, garlic, Scotch bonnet peppers, soy sauce, olive oil, brown sugar, lime juice, allspice, thyme, smoked paprika, cinnamon, black pepper, salt, and nutmeg in a blender or food processor. Blend until smooth.
- Marinate the chicken. Score the chicken pieces with a sharp knife 2–3 times each so the marinade penetrates. Place in a large zip-top bag or covered dish, pour the marinade over, and turn to coat thoroughly. Refrigerate for at least 4 hours, or overnight for best results.
- Prepare the grill or smoker. Set up your grill for indirect heat at 375°F, or preheat a smoker to the same temperature. If using a charcoal grill, add a handful of soaked wood chips (allspice wood or hickory works well) directly to the coals for that authentic smoke.
- Grill the chicken. Remove chicken from the marinade and shake off excess. Place skin-side down over indirect heat. Cook for 20–25 minutes, then flip and cook another 20–25 minutes, until the internal temperature reaches 165°F and the skin is deeply browned and slightly charred at the edges.
- Rest and serve. Let the chicken rest for 5 minutes before serving. Arrange on a platter and serve alongside rice and peas, grilled corn, or whatever your neighbors bring to the table.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 340 | Protein: 31g | Fat: 19g | Carbs: 8g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 480mg