Sean III turned three. The party was at Patrick and Colleen's small house in West Roxbury — a backyard, a bouncy castle, twelve children, four exhausted adults, and a sheet cake decorated with fire trucks because the boy is obsessed with what his father does for a living.
Liam was the oldest kid there. Patrick made him junior commander of the bouncy castle. Liam took it seriously. Nora had blue frosting on her face for two hours.
I made my potato salad. Colleen had assigned me potato salad in March, which is how Colleen does parties.
Connor and Jess drove up from Plymouth — the second time in three weeks, which feels almost normal. Jess sat next to me at the picnic table and asked if I wanted to come down to the Cape for a weekend in August. I said yes before I thought about it. I will think about it later.
Clinic — a 78-year-old man came in Monday with his daughter, who told me he hasn't been eating. He told me he has been eating. The daughter and I exchanged the look. I made a referral to nutrition and a follow up in three weeks. It's not always cancer. It's sometimes loneliness.
Group Tuesday. Diane talked for the first time about the day her husband died. I cried. I do not always cry in group. This week I did.
Meghan called at 11 Saturday after the party. She said Sean III ate seven hot dogs. I said no he didn't. She said I counted. He did.
Sunday dinner at Ma's. Light dinner because of the party. Soup and a salad. Ma made minestrone — the way she does it, with the rind of parmesan boiled in the broth.
Saturday pancakes. Burned the first one. The blue plate is starting to chip on one edge. I will not replace it. I will not.
Food of the week: Ma's minestrone. The parmesan rind makes it.
Sunday dinner at Ma’s is a light lift after a party weekend — soup, salad, good company — but it’s never actually light in the way that matters. The minestrone with the parmesan rind is hers and hers alone, but what I always want alongside it is something to tear and pass down the table, something warm and a little sweet that makes the whole meal feel like it was planned with love even when it wasn’t. This Italian sweet bread is that thing. It’s what I bring when Ma’s already made the soup and I want to contribute something that says I showed up.
Italian Sweet Bread
Prep Time: 20 minutes + 1 hour 30 minutes rise | Cook Time: 30 minutes | Total Time: 2 hours 20 minutes | Servings: 12
Ingredients
- 3 1/2 cups all-purpose flour, plus more for kneading
- 2 1/4 teaspoons active dry yeast (1 packet)
- 1/2 cup warm whole milk (110°F)
- 1/4 cup warm water (110°F)
- 1/3 cup granulated sugar
- 1/4 cup unsalted butter, softened
- 2 large eggs, room temperature
- 1 teaspoon fine sea salt
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- Zest of 1 lemon
- 1 egg yolk + 1 tablespoon milk (egg wash)
- Coarse sugar or sesame seeds for topping (optional)
Instructions
- Activate the yeast. Combine warm water, warm milk, and 1 teaspoon of the sugar in a small bowl. Sprinkle yeast over the top and let sit 5–10 minutes until foamy.
- Mix the dough. In a large bowl, whisk together flour, remaining sugar, salt, and lemon zest. Make a well in the center and add the yeast mixture, softened butter, eggs, and vanilla. Stir until a shaggy dough forms.
- Knead. Turn dough onto a lightly floured surface and knead 8–10 minutes until smooth and elastic. The dough should be soft and slightly tacky but not sticky. Add flour a tablespoon at a time only if needed.
- First rise. Place dough in a lightly oiled bowl, cover with a clean kitchen towel or plastic wrap, and let rise in a warm spot for 1 hour, or until doubled in size.
- Shape the loaf. Punch dough down gently. Divide into three equal pieces and roll each into a 16-inch rope. Braid the ropes together on a parchment-lined baking sheet and tuck the ends under. Or shape into a single round loaf.
- Second rise. Cover loosely and let rise 30 minutes, until noticeably puffed.
- Preheat and egg wash. Preheat oven to 350°F. Whisk together egg yolk and milk and brush gently over the loaf. Sprinkle with coarse sugar or sesame seeds if desired.
- Bake. Bake 28–32 minutes until deep golden brown and the loaf sounds hollow when tapped on the bottom. An instant-read thermometer should read 190°F at the center. Cool on a wire rack at least 15 minutes before slicing.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 235 | Protein: 6g | Fat: 6g | Carbs: 38g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 195mg