Spring is here in full force and I am outside as much as possible, because after six months of being mostly horizontal on a couch, the outdoors feels like an extravagance. I walked Hank every day this week — real walks, not the shuffle of the chemo months, but actual walks with a pace and a destination and occasionally a mild sweat. Hank is nine now and his three-legged gait is slower than it used to be, but he still pulls on the leash when he smells something interesting, which is everything, because to a pit bull the whole world is interesting and worth investigating.
Mason has a new friend — a girl named Priya whose family moved to Boise from Portland. He talks about Priya with the reverence usually reserved for religious figures. Priya knows about rocks. Priya can do a cartwheel. Priya has a cat named Toothpaste. I asked, "Is Priya your girlfriend?" and Mason looked at me with the horror of a five-year-old confronted with the concept of romance and said, "No! She's my FRIEND friend," emphasizing "friend" as if the distinction were a matter of life and death, which at five, it is.
Lily is in full spring mode — outside every minute that Rosa allows, covered in dirt by pickup time, talking about bugs with the enthusiasm of a tiny entomologist. She found a caterpillar this week and named it Harold and kept it in a jar for two days before I convinced her that Harold needed to be free. She released Harold into the backyard with a speech that can only be described as a eulogy for the living: "Harold, you were a good caterpillar. Be a good butterfly. I'll miss you." Then she went inside and asked for a snack. The emotional range of a three-year-old is genuinely operatic.
Scott and I continue in our orbit of polite distance. We are roommates who share children. We eat at the same table but not together. He goes to the garage. I go to the kitchen. The house is divided into territories and neither of us crosses into the other's. I know this can't last. I know that the conversation — THE conversation, the one about us, about what we've become, about whether there's anything left to save — is coming. But not yet. Not while I'm still recovering. Not while the scan is still ahead. One thing at a time. I can only face one ending at a time.
I made chicken stir-fry this week — a quick weeknight dinner that I used to make before cancer, before everything. Chicken thighs, broccoli, bell peppers, snap peas, soy sauce, garlic, ginger, over rice. It took twenty-five minutes and it tasted like a Tuesday in the before-times, a regular Tuesday when dinner was just dinner and not a symbolic act of defiance. I want regular Tuesdays again. I want dinners that are just dinners. I'm getting there.
The stir-fry I made this week reminded me how much I’d missed dinners that are just dinners — no ceremony, no meaning, just food on a Tuesday. This recipe is the same kind of quiet miracle: smoky chipotle, honey, a good hit of lime, chicken over rice with whatever fresh toppings you have around. It takes thirty minutes, it tastes like something you’d order at a restaurant and then decide you could absolutely make at home, and it gives you exactly what I’ve been craving — a meal that asks nothing of you except showing up hungry.
Honey Chipotle Lime Chicken Bowls
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 20 minutes | Total Time: 30 minutes | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 lbs boneless, skinless chicken thighs
- 2 tablespoons honey
- 2 chipotle peppers in adobo sauce, minced, plus 1 tablespoon adobo sauce
- 3 tablespoons fresh lime juice (about 2 limes)
- 2 cloves garlic, minced
- 2 tablespoons olive oil, divided
- 1 teaspoon cumin
- 1/2 teaspoon smoked paprika
- 1/2 teaspoon salt
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- 2 cups cooked white or brown rice
- 1 can (15 oz) black beans, drained and rinsed
- 1 cup corn kernels (fresh, frozen and thawed, or canned)
- 1 avocado, sliced
- 1/4 cup fresh cilantro, roughly chopped
- Lime wedges, for serving
Instructions
- Make the marinade. In a medium bowl, whisk together the honey, minced chipotle peppers, adobo sauce, lime juice, garlic, 1 tablespoon olive oil, cumin, smoked paprika, salt, and pepper until well combined.
- Coat the chicken. Add the chicken thighs to the bowl and toss to coat thoroughly. Let marinate for at least 5 minutes at room temperature, or up to 30 minutes in the refrigerator if you have time.
- Cook the chicken. Heat the remaining 1 tablespoon olive oil in a large skillet over medium-high heat. Add the chicken thighs and cook for 6–7 minutes per side, until cooked through and deeply caramelized on the outside. An internal temperature of 165°F confirms doneness.
- Rest and slice. Transfer the chicken to a cutting board and let it rest for 5 minutes, then slice or chop into bite-sized pieces.
- Warm the beans. While the chicken rests, add the black beans and corn to the same skillet over medium heat and stir for 2–3 minutes, scraping up any browned bits from the pan, until warmed through.
- Assemble the bowls. Divide the cooked rice among four bowls. Top each with the warm beans and corn, sliced chicken, and avocado. Spoon any pan drippings over the top.
- Finish and serve. Scatter fresh cilantro over each bowl and serve with lime wedges for squeezing. Add extra adobo sauce on the side if you like more heat.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 510 | Protein: 38g | Fat: 16g | Carbs: 52g | Fiber: 8g | Sodium: 640mg