November. The birthdays. Babcia ninety-nine. Tom sixty-two. Jake thirty-one. Tommy twenty-two months. And in Megan's belly, Ellie, who will be born in the spring, adding another birthday to the Kowalski calendar that already has more November entries than any month deserves.
Tom's sixty-second birthday dinner. The spread. The tradition. Tom held Tommy while eating pierogi one-handed. This has become Tom's signature move — one arm for the baby, one arm for the fork. He has perfected the one-armed dinner with the skill of a man who will not put down his grandson for any reason, including nutrition.
I made the mushroom soup for Babcia. The ninety-ninth birthday she didn't have. Next year would be one hundred. Next year I'll make the soup and think about what one hundred means — a century of a woman who came from Poland and made pierogi and raised a family and died peacefully at eighty-nine and left behind recipe cards that changed my life. One hundred. The soup will taste different at one hundred. The grief is the same. The reverence is the same. The hundredth year will just be... more.
Thanksgiving. Tommy ate turkey cranberry pierogi and said, "Mo." He said "mo" approximately forty times. Patrick ate his usual quantity and said, "The boy has my appetite." This is factually incorrect — Tommy has MY appetite — but I don't argue with retired firefighters about food genetics.
The small Lakefront Brewery shift-work continues to be the small steady-paycheck. The small forty-hour-week brewery-floor job pays the small twenty-two-an-hour rate that the small Milwaukee-blue-collar-economy supports. The small benefits are the small union-decent. The small ten-year-tenure-target is the small career-anchor.
Megan is from a small Irish-Catholic Milwaukee-suburban family. The small Sunday-dinners at her small parents’ house rotate with the small Sunday-dinners at Jake’s parents’ house. The small in-laws on both sides have been the small welcoming-presence. The small two-family-network is the small extended-support the small newlywed-life rests on.
The small future-kid-conversations have begun. Megan teaches small fourth-grade at a small public school in Wauwatosa. The small adoption-vs-biological conversation is in the small early-discussion stage. The small five-year-plan includes the small kid-or-kids in some form. The small kitchen is the small place where the small future is being practiced.
Megan and Jake married in June 2024. The small newlywed-rhythm is in its small second year. The small two-bedroom rental on the small east-side of Milwaukee continues to be the small first-home. The small thirty-year-mortgage-eventually-someday is the small five-year-goal. The small marriage is the small foundation the small life is being built on.
The small Lakefront Brewery shift-work continues to be the small steady-paycheck. The small forty-hour-week brewery-floor job pays the small twenty-two-an-hour rate that the small Milwaukee-blue-collar-economy supports. The small benefits are the small union-decent. The small ten-year-tenure-target is the small career-anchor.
The small Polish-American heritage is the small kitchen-identity. The small pierogi-recipe-cards from Babcia Helen (Jake’s grandmother who passed in 2018, who had lived two blocks from the small Bay-View family-house) is the small monthly-Saturday-tradition. The small kielbasa-and-sauerkraut. The small bigos. The small recipes that came over from the small Krakow-region in the small 1910s.
Megan is from a small Irish-Catholic Milwaukee-suburban family. The small Sunday-dinners at her small parents’ house rotate with the small Sunday-dinners at Jake’s parents’ house. The small in-laws on both sides have been the small welcoming-presence. The small two-family-network is the small extended-support the small newlywed-life rests on.
The small Milwaukee-winter is the small six-month-condition. The small cold-weather-comfort-food rotation runs October through April. The small soups, the small stews, the small braises, the small heavy-baked-goods. The small Midwestern-comfort-vocabulary is the small kitchen-language.
The small future-kid-conversations have begun. Megan teaches small fourth-grade at a small public school in Wauwatosa. The small adoption-vs-biological conversation is in the small early-discussion stage. The small five-year-plan includes the small kid-or-kids in some form. The small kitchen is the small place where the small future is being practiced.
The mushroom soup carries Babcia, and the pierogi carry her hands, but every November table needs something light after all that weight — something that dissolves on your tongue the way grief sometimes softens into gratitude between one bite and the next. These holiday meringue miniatures are what I put out for Tommy to look at (he’s too young to eat them, but he likes the shapes) and for Patrick to reach for before anyone else does, and for the rest of us who need one small sweet thing to close out a month that holds nearly everyone we love inside it.
Holiday Meringue Miniatures
Prep Time: 20 minutes | Cook Time: 1 hour 30 minutes | Total Time: 1 hour 50 minutes (plus cooling) | Servings: 48 miniatures
Ingredients
- 3 large egg whites, at room temperature
- 1/4 teaspoon cream of tartar
- 1/8 teaspoon fine salt
- 3/4 cup granulated sugar
- 1/2 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- 1/4 teaspoon almond extract (optional)
- Food coloring gel in red, green, or gold (optional, for holiday color)
- 2 tablespoons mini chocolate chips or festive sprinkles (optional, for topping)
Instructions
- Preheat and prep. Preheat oven to 225°F. Line two large baking sheets with parchment paper. Set aside.
- Beat the whites. In a clean, grease-free bowl, beat egg whites with cream of tartar and salt on medium speed until foamy, about 1 to 2 minutes.
- Add sugar gradually. Increase speed to medium-high and add sugar one tablespoon at a time, beating continuously. Continue beating until stiff, glossy peaks form, about 8 to 10 minutes total.
- Add flavorings. Beat in vanilla and almond extract. If using food coloring, gently fold in a small amount of gel color with a rubber spatula until just streaked or fully tinted, depending on your preference.
- Pipe the meringues. Transfer meringue to a piping bag fitted with a star tip. Pipe small rosettes or kisses about 1 inch in diameter onto prepared baking sheets, spacing them 1 inch apart. Top each with a few mini chocolate chips or a pinch of sprinkles if desired.
- Bake low and slow. Bake for 1 hour 30 minutes, rotating pans once halfway through, until meringues are dry to the touch and lift cleanly off the parchment without sticking.
- Cool in the oven. Turn off the oven and leave the door cracked. Allow meringues to cool completely inside the oven for at least 1 hour or overnight. This prevents cracking and keeps them crisp.
- Store properly. Once fully cooled, store in an airtight container at room temperature for up to 2 weeks. Do not refrigerate — humidity will make them sticky.
Nutrition (per serving, 2 miniatures)
Calories: 28 | Protein: 0g | Fat: 0g | Carbs: 7g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 10mg