I am turning thirty-two next week and I am taking stock, which is what I do before every birthday because anxiety demands an annual audit. What do I have? A daughter who says "more rice." A husband who does not understand my writing. A blog with fifteen hundred readers. A grandmother in Sacramento who is eighty-nine and irreplaceable. An apartment that is too small. A yoga practice that keeps me upright. A medication that keeps me functional. A cabinet full of Fumiko's ingredients. A heart full of something I cannot name but that might be the beginning of ambition.
I made zaru soba this week — the cold buckwheat noodles served on a bamboo draining mat with a cold dipping sauce. It is the ultimate summer food, the meal I make when the heat is too much for hot food and the day is too much for complicated cooking. The noodles are cooked, rinsed, chilled. The sauce is dashi, soy sauce, mirin — mixed and chilled. That is it. Ten minutes. Perfection. Fumiko says the test of a Japanese cook is how well they make the simplest things, and zaru soba is the simplest thing, and I make it well. I make it very well. This is not arrogance. This is the slow-won confidence of a woman who has been making cold noodles in the same kitchen for ten summers and has finally earned the right to say: I am good at this.
My writing course instructor returned my Fumiko's kitchen essay with notes. "This is publishable," she wrote. Three words that rearranged my entire week. Publishable. Not "interesting" or "promising" or any of the other words that mean "not ready." Publishable. As in: someone would pay to read this. Someone would put this in a magazine, between advertisements, on purpose. I read her note four times. I saved it. I will read it again when the anxiety says I am not good enough. The anxiety will say it. It always does. But now I have a counter-argument, written in red ink by someone who has published three books. Publishable.
Miya helped me make soba tonight. Not really — she is fifteen months old and her "help" consisted of grabbing noodles from the colander and eating them raw — but she was there, in the kitchen, standing on a step stool I bought this week for this exact purpose, watching me cook. This is how it starts. This is how Fumiko started me. Not with instructions. With proximity. You stand in the kitchen. You watch. You absorb. The teaching happens in the spaces between words, in the steam rising from the pot, in the hands that know what to do without being told.
There is no zaru soba recipe here, and I want to be honest about that—the soba belongs to Fumiko’s kitchen, to ten summers of repetition, to a tradition that does not need to be packaged. What I can give you is the next closest thing I reach for when the heat is too much and the day has already asked everything of me: cold orzo, briny and bright, dressed simply and served straight from the refrigerator. The logic is the same as soba—cook, rinse, chill, done—and on a week when a writing instructor wrote “publishable” in red ink and my daughter ate raw noodles from a colander and I turned thirty-two in my heart before I technically turned it on the calendar, simple food made with intention felt exactly right.
Greek Orzo Salad
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 10 min | Total Time: 25 min + 30 min chill | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 cups dry orzo pasta
- 1 cup cherry tomatoes, halved
- 1 English cucumber, diced (about 1 1/2 cups)
- 1/2 cup kalamata olives, pitted and halved
- 1/2 cup red onion, finely diced
- 1/2 cup roasted red peppers, chopped
- 3/4 cup crumbled feta cheese
- 1/4 cup fresh parsley, chopped
- 3 tablespoons extra-virgin olive oil
- 3 tablespoons red wine vinegar
- 1 teaspoon dried oregano
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1/2 teaspoon salt, plus more for pasta water
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
Instructions
- Cook the orzo. Bring a large pot of salted water to a boil. Add orzo and cook according to package directions, usually 8–10 minutes, until just tender. Do not overcook—orzo that is slightly al dente holds up better when chilled.
- Rinse and cool. Drain the orzo in a fine-mesh strainer and rinse thoroughly under cold running water until the pasta is completely cool. Shake off excess water and transfer to a large mixing bowl.
- Make the dressing. In a small bowl or jar, whisk together the olive oil, red wine vinegar, dried oregano, garlic powder, salt, and black pepper until combined.
- Combine the salad. Add the cherry tomatoes, cucumber, olives, red onion, roasted red peppers, and parsley to the bowl with the orzo. Pour the dressing over everything and toss well to coat.
- Add the feta. Gently fold in the crumbled feta so it stays in visible pieces rather than dissolving into the salad.
- Chill before serving. Cover and refrigerate for at least 30 minutes before serving. Taste and adjust salt, pepper, or vinegar as needed after chilling—cold dulls seasoning slightly, so a small extra pinch often helps. Serve cold, straight from the refrigerator.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 310 | Protein: 9g | Fat: 13g | Carbs: 38g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 520mg