July 18, 2022. I was at the plant. It was two PM, the afternoon stretch, the part of the shift where the line runs on autopilot and the body knows the work without the mind's full attention. My phone buzzed in my pocket. I do not usually check my phone on the line — Patterson has a policy, and I respect it — but the buzz was insistent, three calls in two minutes, and something in me knew.
I stepped away. Checked the phone. Mama's number. Darius's number. Mama's number again. I called Mama. She answered on the first ring. She was screaming. Cheryl Carter, who does not scream, was screaming. "Marcus. Marcus is hurt. They shot Marcus. They shot my baby."
I walked off the line. I did not tell Patterson. I did not tell Jerome. I walked off the line and out of the building and got in my car and drove to the hospital. I do not remember the drive. I remember pulling into the parking lot at Henry Ford Hospital and sitting in the car for — I do not know how long. Five minutes. An hour. Time had stopped.
The hospital. The ER. A police officer in the hallway. Mama, collapsed in a chair, Keisha holding her. Darius, standing, rigid, his face a mask. Dad, sitting, silent, his hands shaking. A doctor came out. The doctor said words. Some of the words were: "gunshot," "robbery," "Seven Mile Road," "gas station," "did not survive."
Did not survive. Marcus Carter. Lil Marc. Twenty-seven years old. Shot outside a gas station on Seven Mile Road during a robbery. Dead before the paramedics arrived.
I identified the body. They asked the family if someone could identify the body. I said I would go. I went. My brother was on a table. He looked like he was sleeping, except the stillness was different — the stillness of a body that is no longer hosting a person, the specific emptiness of a physical form that the life has left. I looked at him and I said, "That's my brother. That's Marcus Carter." The nurse wrote something down. I walked out of the room and stood in the hallway and did not move for a long time.
I did not eat that day. I did not cook. The kitchen was silent. The grill was cold. The food stopped.
It was weeks before I stood at the stove again — really stood there, with purpose, not just making coffee or pouring cereal. When I finally did cook, I needed it to be something that demanded my full attention, something that took time and care, something Mama could sit down to and feel like somebody still loved her enough to try. Glazed Cornish hens were what Marcus used to request every Thanksgiving, every birthday, every time he wanted to say a occasion was real. Making them again was not about moving on. It was about saying his name through the only language I have left that feels honest.
Glazed Cornish Hens
Prep Time: 20 minutes | Cook Time: 1 hour | Total Time: 1 hour 20 minutes | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 4 Cornish game hens (about 1 1/4 lbs each), thawed and patted dry
- 1/2 cup apricot preserves
- 1/4 cup honey
- 2 tablespoons soy sauce
- 2 tablespoons unsalted butter, melted
- 1 tablespoon Dijon mustard
- 2 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 teaspoon smoked paprika
- 1/2 teaspoon onion powder
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
- 1 teaspoon kosher salt
- Fresh thyme sprigs, for garnish
Instructions
- Preheat and prep. Preheat your oven to 375°F. Place the hens breast-side up in a large roasting pan or rimmed baking sheet, spacing them so they are not touching.
- Season the hens. Combine the salt, pepper, paprika, and onion powder. Rub the mixture evenly over the outside and inside cavities of each hen. Drizzle with the melted butter and use your hands to coat thoroughly.
- Make the glaze. In a small saucepan over medium-low heat, combine the apricot preserves, honey, soy sauce, Dijon mustard, and minced garlic. Stir and heat for 3 to 4 minutes until the preserves melt and the glaze is smooth and slightly thickened. Remove from heat.
- First glaze. Brush the hens generously with about half the glaze, covering the tops and sides. Place the roasting pan in the preheated oven.
- Roast and baste. Roast for 45 minutes, then brush the hens with the remaining glaze. Return to the oven and roast an additional 15 minutes, or until the skin is deep golden brown and a meat thermometer inserted in the thickest part of the thigh reads 165°F.
- Rest before serving. Remove the hens from the oven and let them rest uncovered for 10 minutes before serving. This allows the juices to settle and the glaze to set. Garnish with fresh thyme sprigs.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 610 | Protein: 48g | Fat: 28g | Carbs: 42g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 780mg
About the cook who shared this
DeShawn Carter
Week 320 of DeShawn’s 30-year story
· Detroit, Michigan
DeShawn is a thirty-six-year-old single dad, auto plant worker, and a man who didn't learn to cook until his wife left and his five-year-old asked, "Daddy, can you cook something?" He called his mama, who came over with two bags of groceries and spent six months teaching him the basics. Now he's the dad at the cookout who brings the ribs, the guy at the plant whose leftover gumbo starts fights, and living proof that it's never too late to learn.