Mother's Day.
The cruelty of the timing is not lost on me. It's Mother's Day and I am secretly, fragilely, six weeks pregnant and I cannot tell the one person I most want to tell — my mother — because it's too early and the statistics are what they are and I'm a pharmacist and I know too much.
We went to Amma's for brunch. I brought flowers (lilies, her favorite, because Amma considers roses "too common" and sunflowers "too American," which is a uniquely Lakshmi Krishnamurthy position). Raj made pancakes to bring — his one reliable contribution, which Amma accepts with the grudging acknowledgment of a woman who recognizes that at least he's trying.
I watched Amma in her kitchen and thought: next year. Next year I'll have a baby and I'll be a mother and this day will mean something different. Next year I'll bring my child to this house and Amma will hold her grandchild and everything will be new.
If everything goes right. If the statistics are kind. If.
The nausea was manageable today, which I attribute to the ginger chai Amma made — she puts fresh ginger in everything and has been inadvertently treating morning sickness without knowing it. I ate Amma's idli sambar and kept it down and counted this as a victory.
Appa gave Amma a card. Hallmark, same as every year. She read it, said "hmph" (the affectionate hmph, not the disapproving hmph — they sound identical to the untrained ear but I've had thirty years of practice), and put it on the refrigerator.
Arvind called from Trenton. He's not one for sentimental holidays, but he never misses Mother's Day. He sent Amma a fruit basket because he's a man who doesn't know what to give women and defaults to "something healthy," which Amma pretended to appreciate while clearly wishing it were a sari.
I sat at my parents' table and ate my mother's food and held my secret inside me — literally, figuratively, completely — and felt the strange telescoping of time that happens when you're becoming something you've only ever seen from the other side.
I am my mother's daughter. And maybe — please, maybe — someone's mother.
The idli were perfect. Light, airy, slightly sour from the fermentation. I ate four, which is two more than usual, and Amma noted this with the hawk-eyed precision of a woman who tracks her children's appetites the way Raj tracks heart rhythms.
"You're eating more," she said.
"I was hungry."
"You're never hungry for four idli."
"I am today."
She looked at me. That look. The one that says she knows. She can't possibly know — but she knows.
Mothers know.
I couldn’t recreate Amma’s idli sambar that afternoon — that recipe lives in her hands, not in any measurements I could write down — but the ginger was what stayed with me on the drive home, warm and grounding in a way I desperately needed. I’ve been making these ginger molasses cookies for years, but that evening I made them for a different reason: to hold onto something spiced and certain when everything else felt so fragile and unspoken. Fresh ginger, the way Amma uses it, makes all the difference — add a teaspoon to the dough if you want the version that tastes like someone is looking after you.
Ginger Molasses Cookies
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 11 min | Total Time: 30 min (plus 1 hour chill) | Servings: 24 cookies
Ingredients
- 2 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
- 2 teaspoons ground ginger
- 1 teaspoon baking soda
- 3/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 1/4 teaspoon ground cloves
- 1/4 teaspoon fine salt
- 3/4 cup (1 1/2 sticks) unsalted butter, softened to room temperature
- 1 cup granulated sugar, divided (3/4 cup for dough, 1/4 cup for rolling)
- 1 large egg, room temperature
- 1/4 cup unsulphured molasses
- 1 teaspoon fresh ginger, finely grated (optional, but recommended)
Instructions
- Whisk dry ingredients. In a medium bowl, whisk together the flour, ground ginger, baking soda, cinnamon, cloves, and salt. Set aside.
- Cream butter and sugar. Using a hand mixer or stand mixer fitted with the paddle attachment, beat the softened butter and 3/4 cup granulated sugar on medium-high speed for 2–3 minutes until pale and fluffy, scraping down the sides as needed.
- Add egg and molasses. Add the egg and beat until fully combined, about 1 minute. Add the molasses (and fresh grated ginger if using) and mix on medium speed until smooth and evenly incorporated.
- Combine wet and dry. Reduce mixer speed to low and gradually add the flour mixture, mixing just until no dry streaks remain. Do not overmix.
- Chill the dough. Cover the bowl tightly with plastic wrap and refrigerate for at least 1 hour, or up to 48 hours. Chilling is essential for thick, chewy cookies that don’t spread flat.
- Preheat and prep. When ready to bake, preheat your oven to 375°F (190°C). Line two baking sheets with parchment paper. Place the remaining 1/4 cup granulated sugar in a shallow bowl.
- Portion and roll. Scoop the chilled dough into balls approximately 1 1/2 tablespoons each (a medium cookie scoop works well). Roll each ball between your palms until smooth, then roll generously in the granulated sugar to coat all sides.
- Bake. Arrange dough balls 2 inches apart on the prepared baking sheets. Bake for 10–12 minutes, until the edges are just set and the centers look slightly underdone — they will continue to firm up on the pan. Do not overbake; a soft center is the goal.
- Cool. Let the cookies cool on the baking sheet for 5 minutes before transferring to a wire rack. They will crackle and settle as they cool. Serve warm or at room temperature.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 128 | Protein: 1g | Fat: 6g | Carbs: 18g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 82mg
About the cook who shared this
Priya Krishnamurthy
Week 59 of Priya’s 30-year story
· Edison, New Jersey
Priya is a pharmacist, wife, and mom of two in Edison, New Jersey — the town she grew up in, surrounded by the sights and smells of her mother's South Indian kitchen. These days, she splits her time between the hospital pharmacy, school pickups, and her own kitchen, where she cooks nearly every night. Her style is a blend of the Tamil recipes her mother taught her and the American comfort food her kids actually want to eat. She writes about the beautiful mess of balancing two cultures on one plate — and she wants you to know that ordering pizza is also an act of love.