Fried Cornmeal Mush

November and the deer came. I got a doe the first week of season and a small six-point the second Saturday, which is a good year by any measure. The processing went faster than it used to, which is the strange efficiency of grief—you learn to do things alone because you have to, and after a while alone doesn't mean the same thing it used to. I was in the garage with the radio on low, working through the cuts in the order Danny taught me, and at some point I realized I wasn't sad about doing it alone. I was just doing it.

There's venison in the freezer for another full year. That means something concrete and reassuring—protein that doesn't cost money, meat from an animal that lived a wild life and died cleanly, food that carries the land in it. I don't take that for granted. A lot of people in a lot of places can't grow or harvest a significant portion of what they eat. That we can is a kind of wealth that doesn't show up in any accounting I've seen.

Thanksgiving was smaller this year—still pandemic-shaped, still cautious. Just the four of us plus Caleb, who needed to be around people. Hannah made her cranberry bread. Caleb brought the beans. I did a small turkey and a pan of cornbread dressing that was more than enough for five people and still left us with leftovers for three days.

Caleb was quieter than usual at dinner, but present. He ate well. He helped clean up the kitchen. He stayed for a game of cards afterward. The outpatient program was helping—I could see it in small ways, in the way he sat, in the quality of his attention. He was working on something. I tried not to watch too closely.

The cornbread dressing I made for Thanksgiving left the kitchen smelling like something good had happened there, and that smell stuck around into the next morning. I had cornmeal on the counter and nowhere I needed to be fast, and that combination almost always ends the same way for me — fried cornmeal mush, which is the kind of breakfast that doesn’t ask anything of you except patience and a decent cast iron pan. It felt right after a holiday that had been quiet and real and enough.

Prep Time: 10 min | Cook Time: 30 min (plus chilling) | Total Time: 4 hr 40 min | Servings: 6

Ingredients

1 cup yellow cornmeal
1 teaspoon salt
4 cups water, divided
2 tablespoons butter or bacon drippings, for frying
Maple syrup or honey, for serving

Instructions

Make the mush. In a medium saucepan, bring 3 cups of water to a boil. In a small bowl, whisk the cornmeal and salt into the remaining 1 cup of cold water until smooth. Slowly pour the cornmeal mixture into the boiling water, stirring constantly to prevent lumps.
Cook through. Reduce heat to low and cook, stirring frequently, for 10–15 minutes until the mixture is very thick and pulls away from the sides of the pan.
Chill. Pour the hot mush into a lightly greased loaf pan, smooth the top, and refrigerate for at least 4 hours or overnight until firm and fully set.
Slice. Turn the chilled mush out onto a cutting board and cut into 1/2-inch slices.
Fry. Heat butter or bacon drippings in a cast iron skillet over medium-high heat. Add slices in a single layer and cook 4–5 minutes per side, pressing gently, until a deep golden crust forms on each side. Work in batches to avoid crowding the pan.
Serve. Serve immediately while crispy, drizzled with maple syrup or honey.

Nutrition (per serving)

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