Halloween again. James is eighteen and officially too old for costumes, though he attended a Halloween party at Marcus's house dressed as "a college student," which involved a sweatshirt and a book and which I appreciated for its minimalism and accuracy. Carrie went as Sei Shonagon, the eleventh-century Japanese court lady who wrote "The Pillow Book," which involved a kimono borrowed from Mrs. Yamamoto and a notebook that Carrie carried all evening, occasionally stopping to write observations in the manner of a Heian-era courtier at a twenty-first-century high school party. She is magnificent.
I made caramel apples for the neighborhood children — the annual tradition, Mama's recipe, the candy thermometer, the vigilance. This year I made eighteen, two more than last year, because Mrs. Chen's grandchildren are visiting and because the more apples I make, the longer I stand at the stove, and the longer I stand at the stove, the more I feel connected to the lineage of women who have stood at stoves in every season making things that bring people joy.
The move planning continues. Robert finished Joy's bookshelf and installed it in the third-floor bedroom. It is simple and sturdy, made from reclaimed cypress, and it holds Joy's dimensions perfectly — low enough for her to reach, wide enough for her collection of photographs and stuffed animals, beautiful enough to be worthy of the room. Robert is not a man who expresses love in words. He expresses it in wood and nails and the precise angle of a shelf that will hold the treasures of a woman who measures the world in softness and color.
I have been in contact with group homes and activity programs in the North Charleston area for Joy. The research is promising: there is a program called Pathways that offers daytime activities for adults with cognitive disabilities, and the reviews from families are uniformly positive. I plan to visit in November. The logistics of the move are falling into place. The emotions are not. The logistics are a spreadsheet. The emotions are a novel.
I made candied pecans this week — Mama's recipe, sugar and cinnamon and a pinch of cayenne, roasted until they're glossy and fragrant. I bag them in cellophane and give them as gifts, because fall is the season of giving and because pecans, like love, are best when they're shared.
Standing at the stove this week, watching the candy thermometer climb while eighteen apples waited on the counter, I kept thinking about how caramel is really just sugar and patience and heat — the same ingredients, when you think about it, that hold most traditions together. Mama’s caramel apple recipe will always be the centerpiece, but these foolproof no-stir caramels are the recipe I turn to when I want to fill cellophane bags alongside the candied pecans, when I want something to press into a neighbor’s hand or tuck into a gift basket for Mrs. Chen’s visiting grandchildren. They require the same vigilance, the same thermometer, the same willingness to stand and stir and believe that something golden is coming.
Foolproof No-Stir Homemade Caramels
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 45 minutes | Total Time: 55 minutes (plus 2 hours setting time) | Servings: 48 caramels
Ingredients
- 1 cup (2 sticks) unsalted butter, plus more for greasing the pan
- 2 cups granulated sugar
- 1 cup light corn syrup
- 1 can (14 ounces) sweetened condensed milk
- 1 cup heavy cream
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- 1/2 teaspoon flaky sea salt, for finishing
Instructions
- Prepare the pan. Line a 9x13-inch baking dish with parchment paper, leaving an overhang on two sides. Grease the parchment generously with butter.
- Combine the base. In a heavy-bottomed 4-quart saucepan, combine the butter, sugar, corn syrup, sweetened condensed milk, and heavy cream. Place over medium heat and stir gently until the butter melts and the sugar dissolves.
- Attach the thermometer. Clip a candy thermometer to the side of the pan, making sure the tip does not touch the bottom. Once the mixture begins to boil, stop stirring entirely — this is the no-stir secret.
- Cook to temperature. Let the mixture boil undisturbed over medium heat until the thermometer reads 245°F (firm-ball stage), about 35 to 45 minutes. The color will deepen to a rich amber gold. Watch the thermometer closely in the final minutes — it climbs quickly at the end.
- Add the vanilla. Remove the pan from heat and carefully stir in the vanilla extract. The mixture will bubble vigorously, so take care.
- Pour and set. Pour the caramel into the prepared baking dish. Do not scrape the bottom of the saucepan. Sprinkle the top evenly with flaky sea salt. Let the caramel cool at room temperature for at least 2 hours, or until completely firm.
- Cut and wrap. Lift the caramel from the pan using the parchment overhang. Use a sharp, buttered knife to cut into 1-inch squares. Wrap each piece in a small square of wax paper or parchment, twisting the ends closed.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 110 | Protein: 1g | Fat: 5g | Carbs: 16g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 45mg