The "closer" project begins. I spent two hours this week researching the Korean adoption search process — not casually, not as a distraction, but deliberately, with the same focus I'd bring to a technical investigation. I learned: there are official channels through the Korean adoption agencies (the Hague Convention requires cooperation between sending and receiving countries), DNA databases specifically for Korean adoptees and birth families, private search services, and social media groups where adoptees and birth parents post identifying information. The options are more numerous and more organized than I expected. The search is not a needle-in-a-haystack situation — it's a structured process with established pathways, and the pathways exist because thousands of adoptees have walked them before me.
I didn't take any action. I just researched. Reading about the process was emotionally draining in a way I didn't expect — every FAQ and every guide and every "What to Expect When Searching" article was written by or for someone like me, someone who was left and then found and then spent decades wondering. The universality of the experience is both comforting and gutting. I'm not alone. There are hundreds of thousands of us — Korean adoptees, scattered across the globe, all carrying some version of the same questions, all with varying degrees of appetite for the answers.
I told Dr. Yoon about the research. She said, "Research is a step. Research is closer." She's calibrating. She knows I need encouragement without pressure, movement without urgency. The birth mother search is a dish that requires slow fermentation — force it and it'll sour wrong; patience and it'll develop the depth it needs.
This week's cooking: I made jangjorim — soy-braised eggs and beef, a banchan staple. Beef brisket and hard-boiled eggs simmered in a sweet soy sauce with garlic and peppers until the meat is tender and the eggs are mahogany-colored, the soy sauce having penetrated to the yolk. It's the kind of banchan that improves over days in the fridge, the flavors deepening like a good argument: more complex the longer you sit with it. I ate jangjorim all week — with rice, on its own as a snack, the eggs sliced in half revealing the dark soy-colored whites and the golden yolk inside. Something about the dish — the patience of it, the slow penetration of flavor into the egg — felt parallel to my own process: slow change, happening below the surface, invisible until you crack it open.
Saturday: Bellevue. I brought jangjorim. David loved the eggs — "These taste like teriyaki eggs," he said, which is wrong but close enough. Karen liked the beef — "So tender, like pot roast but different." Like pot roast but different. That's the thesis of my entire culinary journey: like American food but different. Like the life I was raised in but different. Like the identity I was given but different. Different in ways that matter, in ways that make me more whole, in ways that require soy sauce and patience and the willingness to wait for the flavor to penetrate.
The jangjorim I made this week wasn’t just banchan—it was a kind of practice, a reminder that some things can’t be rushed, only trusted to the process. If you’ve never made soy-braised eggs, I want you to try it, because the technique itself teaches you something: you put the eggs in, you wait, and the flavor finds its way in without you forcing it. That’s the egg recipe I keep coming back to right now—not the fastest, not the flashiest, but the one that asks for patience and pays you back in depth.
Soy-Braised Eggs (Jangjorim-Style)
Prep Time: 10 min | Cook Time: 35 min | Total Time: 45 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 6 large eggs
- 1/2 lb beef brisket, cut into 2-inch chunks
- 1/2 cup soy sauce
- 2 tablespoons sugar
- 1 tablespoon mirin
- 1 cup water
- 6 cloves garlic, smashed
- 3–4 dried red chili peppers (or 1 teaspoon red pepper flakes)
- 1 teaspoon sesame oil (optional, to finish)
Instructions
- Hard-boil the eggs. Place eggs in a saucepan, cover with cold water, and bring to a boil. Reduce heat and simmer for 10 minutes. Transfer eggs to an ice bath, then peel and set aside.
- Blanch the beef. Add brisket to a pot of cold water, bring to a boil, and cook for 5 minutes to remove impurities. Drain and rinse the beef under cold water.
- Build the braise. In a medium saucepan, combine soy sauce, sugar, mirin, water, garlic, and dried chili peppers. Add the blanched brisket and bring to a boil over medium-high heat.
- Simmer low and slow. Reduce heat to low, cover partially, and simmer for 20 minutes until the beef begins to soften and the braising liquid deepens in color.
- Add the eggs. Nestle the peeled hard-boiled eggs into the pot with the beef and braising liquid. Continue simmering, uncovered, for 10–15 more minutes, turning the eggs occasionally so they color evenly to a rich mahogany.
- Rest and deepen. Remove from heat and let everything cool in the braising liquid for at least 15 minutes before serving. For best flavor, refrigerate overnight—the eggs and beef will continue absorbing the soy glaze. Drizzle with sesame oil before serving if desired.
- Serve. Slice eggs in half to reveal the dark whites and golden yolk. Arrange alongside the braised beef and serve as banchan with steamed white rice.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 210 | Protein: 20g | Fat: 10g | Carbs: 8g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 890mg