Thirty-seven weeks. Full term. She could come any day now. ANY day.
I've started having Braxton Hicks contractions — the practice contractions, the body's dress rehearsal. They're not painful exactly, more like a tightening, a squeeze, the uterus doing push-ups. They come and go at random, usually when I'm standing at the pharmacy counter, which makes me freeze mid-sentence while counseling a patient and then resume as if nothing happened.
"Are you okay?" Mrs. Chen asked on Tuesday, watching me grip the counter.
"Braxton Hicks," I said.
"Oh! The fake ones."
"They feel very real from the inside."
"Wait until the real ones. Then you'll know the difference."
Mrs. Chen had four children. She speaks with the authority of experience.
I'm finishing up at work — tying up loose ends, transitioning patients to Jessica, writing detailed notes for every case. The pharmacist in me wants to leave everything perfect. The pregnant woman in me wants to lie on the couch and eat ice cream and never move again.
Amma has been cooking. Not for today — for after. She's been making and freezing meals for the postpartum period: sambar concentrate (frozen in ice cube trays, each cube a single serving), rasam paste (add water and boil, instant comfort), poriyal portions, rice. My freezer is a library of Tamil food, organized by dish, labeled in Amma's handwriting with heating instructions.
"You won't have time to cook," she said, stacking containers with the efficiency of a woman who has done this before. "The baby will eat all your time. The freezer will feed you."
She's thought of everything. Even the dried ginger laddus — the traditional postpartum food, made with dried ginger, jaggery, ghee, and spices, believed to help with milk production and recovery. She made fifty of them. They're in a steel container on my counter, waiting.
I watched her label the containers — small, precise handwriting, Tamil letters and English instructions — and thought: this is love. Not the grand gestures. This. Sambar in ice cube trays. Labels in two languages. Fifty laddus for a daughter who hasn't delivered yet.
I made nothing tonight. Everything I need is already in the freezer, prepared by the hands that taught me to cook.
Any day now.
When I opened that steel container on the counter and the smell of dried ginger and jaggery hit me, I realized I wanted to write down Amma’s recipe before the baby fog sets in. These laddus are the one thing she insists every new mother needs — warming, nourishing, easy to grab one-handed while nursing at 3 a.m. If your mother or mother-in-law isn’t filling your freezer and your counter with food made from love and muscle memory, here’s Amma’s recipe so you can make your own batch of fifty.
Dried Ginger Laddus (Sukku Urundai)
Prep Time: 15 minutes | Cook Time: 25 minutes | Total Time: 40 minutes | Servings: 50 laddus
Ingredients
- 1 cup dried ginger powder (sukku)
- 2 cups jaggery, grated or crushed
- 1 cup ghee
- 1/2 cup roasted moong dal flour (or whole wheat flour)
- 1/4 cup desiccated coconut
- 1/4 cup roasted cashew pieces
- 2 tablespoons poppy seeds
- 1 teaspoon cardamom powder
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper powder
- 1/4 teaspoon turmeric powder
- 1/4 teaspoon nutmeg powder
- Pinch of edible camphor (pachai karpooram), optional
Instructions
- Dry roast the base. In a heavy-bottomed pan over medium-low heat, dry roast the moong dal flour for 3-4 minutes until fragrant. Transfer to a large mixing bowl.
- Toast the add-ins. In the same pan, lightly toast the desiccated coconut and cashew pieces for 2-3 minutes until golden. Add to the mixing bowl along with the poppy seeds.
- Combine the dry spices. Add the dried ginger powder, cardamom powder, black pepper, turmeric, nutmeg, and edible camphor (if using) to the mixing bowl. Stir everything together well.
- Melt the jaggery. In a saucepan, combine the jaggery with 3 tablespoons of water over medium heat. Stir until the jaggery melts completely. Strain through a fine mesh sieve to remove impurities. Return to the pan and cook until it reaches a soft ball consistency — a drop in water should form a soft ball you can roll between your fingers.
- Add ghee. Stir the ghee into the melted jaggery until fully incorporated. Remove from heat.
- Bring it together. Pour the jaggery-ghee mixture into the dry ingredients and mix quickly with a spoon, then with greased hands as soon as it’s cool enough to handle. The mixture should hold together when pressed.
- Shape the laddus. Grease your palms with a little ghee and roll the mixture into small balls, about 1 inch in diameter. Work quickly while the mixture is still warm — if it cools and cracks, warm your hands under hot water and try again.
- Cool and store. Let the laddus cool completely on a parchment-lined tray. Store in an airtight steel container at room temperature. They keep well for 3-4 weeks without refrigeration.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 65 | Protein: 1g | Fat: 4g | Carbs: 8g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 2mg
About the cook who shared this
Priya Krishnamurthy
Week 112 of Priya’s 30-year story
· Edison, New Jersey
Priya is a pharmacist, wife, and mom of two in Edison, New Jersey — the town she grew up in, surrounded by the sights and smells of her mother's South Indian kitchen. These days, she splits her time between the hospital pharmacy, school pickups, and her own kitchen, where she cooks nearly every night. Her style is a blend of the Tamil recipes her mother taught her and the American comfort food her kids actually want to eat. She writes about the beautiful mess of balancing two cultures on one plate — and she wants you to know that ordering pizza is also an act of love.