October and the light is changing — that fall light on Long Island that turns everything golden and makes the drive to school a watercolor. I love fall. I have always loved fall because fall is the real beginning, the Jewish New Year and the school year and the turning of the air from thick summer to something you can breathe in, and because fall is when the serious cooking starts: the soups, the stews, the braises, the foods that take hours and fill the house with warmth and the promise that even though the days are getting shorter, the kitchen is getting warmer.
I made a chicken soup this week — the real one, the one I make from scratch every few weeks, the one that starts with a whole chicken and vegetables and dill and goes for four hours on low heat until the broth is gold and the kitchen smells like memory. I made it because one of my students — a sophomore named Maria — told me her mother was in the hospital, and I said, "I'm sorry," and she said, "It's okay, Mrs. Feldman," in the way teenagers say things are okay when they are not okay at all, and I went home and made chicken soup and brought it to school the next day in a thermos and gave it to Maria and said, "It's not medicine. It's better than medicine." She looked at me like I was insane. She drank the soup. She said, "Thank you, Mrs. Feldman." I said, "Tell your mother I hope she feels better." This is what I do. This is what Sylvia did. You cannot fix everything. But you can make soup.
Marvin had a visit from Sol — the card game friend, the gin rummy opponent — on Saturday. They sat in the living room and Sol dealt cards and they played, and I don't know if Marvin fully remembered the rules or if Sol was adjusting the game to accommodate what Marvin could still do, but they played, and Marvin laughed at something Sol said, and the sound of Marvin laughing with his friend in the living room was so normal, so ordinary, so much like every Saturday for forty years, that I had to leave the room because the normalcy was too much. The extraordinary pain of ordinary things. I went to the kitchen. I stirred the soup. I let them play.
The dill is always the thing — the smell of it hitting the hot broth, the way it turns a pot of chicken and water into something that belongs to a person, a kitchen, a lineage. These Dilly Chicken Sandwiches are not the soup I brought to Maria in a thermos, but they carry the same herb and the same spirit: something made with your hands, something you give to someone who needs it, something that says what words cannot quite reach. On the days I don’t have four hours for a proper pot, this is what I make instead.
Dilly Chicken Sandwiches
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 20 min | Total Time: 35 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 lbs boneless, skinless chicken breasts
- 3 cups low-sodium chicken broth
- 1/2 cup mayonnaise
- 2 tablespoons sour cream
- 3 tablespoons fresh dill, chopped (or 1 tablespoon dried dill)
- 1 teaspoon Dijon mustard
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- 1/4 teaspoon kosher salt, plus more to taste
- 1 stalk celery, finely diced
- 2 scallions, thinly sliced
- 4 soft sandwich rolls or 8 slices sturdy white bread
- Butter lettuce leaves, for serving
- Sliced cucumber, for serving (optional)
Instructions
- Poach the chicken. Place chicken breasts in a medium saucepan and cover with chicken broth. Bring to a gentle boil over medium-high heat, then reduce heat to low. Cover and simmer for 15–18 minutes, until the chicken is cooked through and registers 165°F at the thickest part.
- Shred and cool. Transfer chicken to a cutting board and let rest for 5 minutes. Using two forks, shred the chicken into bite-sized pieces. Allow to cool slightly, about 10 minutes.
- Make the dill spread. In a large bowl, whisk together the mayonnaise, sour cream, Dijon mustard, dill, garlic powder, salt, and pepper until smooth and well combined.
- Mix the filling. Add the shredded chicken, diced celery, and scallions to the dill spread. Stir gently until everything is evenly coated. Taste and adjust salt and pepper as needed. Refrigerate for at least 10 minutes to let the flavors come together.
- Assemble and serve. Line each roll or bread slice with butter lettuce. Spoon a generous portion of the dilly chicken mixture on top. Add cucumber slices if using. Serve immediately, or wrap and refrigerate for up to one day — the flavor only deepens.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 430 | Protein: 38g | Fat: 18g | Carbs: 28g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 620mg