New Year's Eve. Chloe's eulogy: "Goodbye, 2025. You were the year the table got bigger — literally and metaphorically. You were the year Mona learned the cornbread. The year the Instagram hit 2,000. The year we fed eighty-two families on Christmas and seventy on Thanksgiving. The year Elijah started kindergarten in orange shoes and Jayden got an A on a book report and I turned thirteen and made a soup that outsold the cornbread. You were the year Mama had a $41,000 month and didn't believe it. You were the year the catering started. The year the table left the building. Goodbye, 2025. You were enough. You were more than enough. You were: abundance." Abundance. The word. The word that a thirteen-year-old chose to summarize a year that I would have summarized as "exhausting" or "terrifying" or "what just happened." Chloe chose: abundance. Because she sees what I build better than I see it. She stands back and she sees the whole painting while I'm still holding the brush.
Black-eyed peas at the restaurant. Free with any order. Year three of the tradition. Elijah ate them. Year three of pea acceptance. The boy who only eats orange foods eats black-eyed peas because the tradition is bigger than the color and the color is: irrelevant on New Year's Day because New Year's Day is about hope and hope is every color. Elijah ate the peas and said: "Okay, Mama, but they're not GOOD orange. They're just okay." They're just okay. The five-year-old food critic. The boy has opinions and the opinions have ratings and the rating for black-eyed peas is: "just okay." I accept this rating. The hope has been eaten. The year can begin.
2026. The number looks strange. The way every new year looks strange for the first few weeks — the wrong number on checks (do people still write checks? Mama writes checks. Mama writes checks at Kroger and the twenty-two-year-old cashier has to call a manager because they don't know what a check is and Mama is OFFENDED). 2026. I'll be thirty-four in March. Thirty-four. Chloe will be fourteen. Jayden will be eleven. Elijah will be six. The numbers keep going up. The numbers don't ask permission. The numbers just: increase, like the table, like the business, like the love.
Resolutions: Hire an accountant (Amber's voice, patient and insistent, the sister-voice that doesn't let me avoid the practical). Build the emergency fund to $5,000 (Kevin's voice, steady and reasonable, the brother-voice that planned for the AC crisis I didn't plan for). Book more catering events (my voice, hungry and scared, the voice that says YES and then figures out how). Let Mona handle more of the kitchen (the hardest resolution, the one that requires trust, the one that requires me to stand at the counter instead of the stove and let someone else make the food and the letting-go is the growth and the growth is the whole point).
First cornbread of 2026. At the restaurant. At 5 AM. Alone. The tradition. The silence of the kitchen before anyone arrives, the overhead light, the cast iron heating in the oven, the batter in the bowl, the sizzle when it hits the grease. The first cornbread is always mine. The first one is always alone. The first one is the prayer — not to God, not to Earline, not to anyone specific, just to the year. The prayer is: be good to my kids. Be good to my business. Be good to Mama. Let me keep going. Let the table grow. Let the cornbread be enough. 2026. Amen.
We ate the black-eyed peas at the restaurant — that’s the tradition, the ritual, the prayer in a bowl — but when we got home that evening and Elijah announced he was “still hungry despite the hope,” I made this dense bean salad, which has become its own kind of ritual. Beans are beans. Hope is hope. And this one — layered and bold and unapologetically filling — felt exactly right for a family that just ate eighty-two Christmas dinners into the world and still had room for more.
Hetal Vasavada Taco Bell Inspired Dense Bean Salad
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 0 min | Total Time: 15 min | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 1 can (15 oz) black beans, drained and rinsed
- 1 can (15 oz) pinto beans, drained and rinsed
- 1 can (15 oz) kidney beans, drained and rinsed
- 1 cup frozen corn, thawed (or canned, drained)
- 1/2 cup red onion, finely diced
- 1/2 cup cherry tomatoes, halved
- 1/4 cup pickled jalapeños, chopped
- 1/4 cup fresh cilantro, chopped
- 1/2 cup shredded Mexican cheese blend
- 3 tablespoons olive oil
- 2 tablespoons red wine vinegar
- 1 tablespoon taco seasoning
- 1 teaspoon cumin
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- Salt and black pepper to taste
- Tortilla chips, for serving
Instructions
- Drain and rinse. Open all three cans of beans and drain thoroughly in a colander. Rinse under cold water and shake off excess moisture. This keeps the salad from getting watery.
- Make the dressing. In a small bowl, whisk together olive oil, red wine vinegar, taco seasoning, cumin, and garlic powder until fully combined. Taste and adjust salt and pepper as needed.
- Combine the salad. In a large mixing bowl, add all three beans, corn, red onion, cherry tomatoes, pickled jalapeños, and cilantro. Pour the dressing over the top and toss well to coat everything evenly.
- Add the cheese. Fold in the shredded cheese gently so it doesn’t break down — you want it distributed but still present in distinct pockets throughout the salad.
- Rest and chill. Let the salad sit at room temperature for 10 minutes, or refrigerate for up to an hour before serving. The flavors deepen as they sit.
- Serve. Scoop onto plates or into bowls alongside tortilla chips. Leftovers keep covered in the refrigerator for up to 3 days — it gets better overnight.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 310 | Protein: 14g | Fat: 10g | Carbs: 42g | Fiber: 11g | Sodium: 520mg