The discharge paperwork is moving. That's the word they use — moving — like it's a living thing with its own pace, its own agenda. Specialist Combs in the admin office told me Tuesday that my medical board review is scheduled for November, which means December for the actual separation, which means I might be home by Christmas or I might be sitting in this barracks filling out forms that ask me to rate my pain on a scale of one to ten. I always write four. Four means it's there but I'm functional. Four means stop asking.
Called Mom Wednesday night. She said the elk are moving down from the high country earlier than usual, which means a hard winter coming. Dad filled his tag last Saturday — a five-by-five bull in the Crazies, which she told me like she was reading the weather report because that's how Colleen Gallagher delivers news, good or bad, in the same steady tone. She said Dad's processing the meat in the shop. I could hear the silence behind her voice — the silence that meant she knew I should be out there with him, breaking down the quarters, wrapping the cuts, labeling them with masking tape and a Sharpie the way we've done every October since I was old enough to hold a knife. I said, "Save me some backstrap." She said, "It's already in the freezer with your name on it." I hung up and sat on the bunk for a while.
Made pan-fried potatoes. The kind Mom makes when there's leftover baked potatoes from the night before — sliced thick, into a cast iron skillet with butter and salt, cooked until the edges are brown and crisp and the centers are soft and almost creamy. You don't move them too much. That's the secret. People want to stir, want to flip, want to fuss. Don't. Let the heat do the work. Let the potato sit in the butter and get golden on one side before you touch it. Patience. Everything I cook requires patience and everything in my life requires patience and I'm starting to think the cooking is teaching me something the therapy can't, or maybe it's teaching me the same thing in a language I actually understand.
Added some dried rosemary. Crushed it between my fingers and the smell was sharp and green and alive and for a second I was standing in Colleen's kitchen watching her do the same thing over a roast. The body remembers. The hands remember. The nose remembers. The rest of me is still catching up.
The fried potatoes that morning were mine—something I made for myself, from what was already there, because I knew how. But there’s another way I keep coming back to when I need food to feel like an answer: slow, patient, and yielding—everything going soft under low heat until it’s something new. This mashed potato recipe is that. It doesn’t rush, it doesn’t ask much of you, and somehow it always turns out right.
Creamy Slow Cooker Mashed Potatoes
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 4 hours | Total Time: 4 hours 15 min | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 3 lbs russet potatoes, peeled and cut into 1-inch chunks
- 4 tablespoons unsalted butter, cut into pieces
- 1 teaspoon kosher salt, plus more to taste
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1/2 teaspoon dried rosemary, crushed between your fingers
- 1/2 cup chicken broth
- 1/2 cup sour cream
- 1/4 cup heavy cream, warmed
- Fresh chives or parsley for garnish (optional)
Instructions
- Load the slow cooker. Place the peeled, chunked potatoes into the slow cooker. Add butter, salt, pepper, garlic powder, and crushed rosemary. Pour in the chicken broth. Stir briefly to distribute.
- Cook low and slow. Cover and cook on LOW for 4 hours or HIGH for 2 to 2 1/2 hours, until the potatoes are completely tender and break apart easily with a fork. Don’t lift the lid early — let the heat do its work.
- Mash and finish. Drain any excess liquid if needed, leaving just enough moisture in the pot. Mash the potatoes directly in the slow cooker using a potato masher or hand mixer. Add the sour cream and warmed heavy cream. Mash until smooth and creamy, adjusting consistency with more cream as needed.
- Season and rest. Taste and adjust salt and pepper. Switch the slow cooker to WARM and let the potatoes sit for up to 30 minutes — they hold beautifully. Patience pays off here the same as anywhere else.
- Serve. Spoon into a bowl, add a pat of butter on top if you like, and garnish with chives or parsley. These are best alongside anything browned in a cast iron skillet.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 290 | Protein: 5g | Fat: 13g | Carbs: 39g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 380mg