Halloween, year three. Anaya's first. She's four and a half months old and her costume is: a pumpkin. Because when you're four and a half months old, your mother dresses you as whatever she finds cutest, and Anaya in a pumpkin onesie is the cutest thing in Edison.
Amma's review of the pumpkin costume: "She looks like a vegetable."
"It's a fruit, Amma."
"She looks like a fruit."
"She looks adorable."
"She would look more adorable in a pavadai."
This is the eternal tension: Amma wants Anaya dressed in traditional Indian clothing. I want Anaya dressed in whatever is seasonally appropriate and makes me smile. Anaya wants to be naked and free, but nobody asked her.
We didn't trick-or-treat (she's four months old — the candy would be for me, which is tempting but ethically questionable). Instead, I took photos — approximately four hundred photos of a baby in a pumpkin costume looking variously confused, content, and asleep. I posted one on the blog with the caption: "The tiniest pumpkin in the patch. She brings nothing to the recipe except joy."
The blog is growing. One hundred and thirty readers now. I published a post this week about Amma's Christmas tree history — the annual debate, the reluctant concession, the Ganesh ornament. People loved it. The comments section was full of stories from other children of immigrants who grafted their parents' traditions onto American holidays. A woman in Houston described her Mexican mother making tamales for Thanksgiving. A man in Chicago described his Polish father putting kielbasa on the Fourth of July grill. We are a nation of people who celebrate one thing while eating another.
I made pumpkin halwa — an Indian dessert I invented by combining American pumpkin season with the halwa technique Amma taught me. Pumpkin puree cooked with ghee, sugar, cardamom, and milk until thick and golden. It's not traditional. It's not in any cookbook. It's mine.
Anaya watched me make it from her bouncer. She's always watching now. Those dark eyes, tracking my hands, learning the movements before she has any idea what they mean.
The pumpkin halwa was good. Amma would say it's "interesting." I'll take it.
The pumpkin halwa was the experiment, but these creamy orange caramels were the reward — same golden color, same October energy, same kitchen with Anaya blinking up at me from her bouncer like a very small, very serious food critic. Orange is pumpkin’s closest cousin on the color wheel and in the candy bowl, and there’s something about pulling a tray of caramels from a buttered pan that feels like a small act of invention even when the recipe has existed forever. Amma would call them “interesting.” I’ll take it.
Creamy Orange Caramels
Prep Time: 15 minutes | Cook Time: 40 minutes | Total Time: 55 minutes + 2 hours cooling | Servings: 36 caramels
Ingredients
- 2 cups heavy whipping cream, divided
- 2 cups granulated sugar
- 1 cup light corn syrup
- 1/2 cup (1 stick) unsalted butter, cut into tablespoon-sized pieces
- 1 tablespoon fresh orange zest (from about 1 large orange)
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- 1/2 teaspoon fine sea salt, plus more for topping if desired
- Vegetable oil or butter, for greasing
Instructions
- Prepare the pan. Lightly grease a 9x9-inch baking pan with butter or vegetable oil, then line it with parchment paper, leaving an overhang on two sides. Lightly grease the parchment as well. Set aside.
- Start the caramel base. In a heavy-bottomed 4-quart saucepan, combine the sugar, corn syrup, and 1 cup of the heavy cream. Stir to combine, then clip a candy thermometer to the side of the pan. Cook over medium heat, stirring gently until the sugar dissolves, then stop stirring and bring to a boil.
- Add remaining cream slowly. Once boiling, carefully and slowly pour in the remaining 1 cup of heavy cream in a thin, steady stream — the mixture will bubble vigorously. Stir gently to incorporate, then stop stirring and continue cooking over medium heat.
- Cook to temperature. Continue cooking, without stirring, until the thermometer reads 245°F (firm-ball stage), 20 to 25 minutes. Watch carefully near the end; the temperature climbs quickly.
- Finish the caramel. Remove the pan from heat. Carefully stir in the butter pieces one at a time, stirring until each piece is fully melted and incorporated. Stir in the orange zest, vanilla extract, and salt.
- Pour and cool. Pour the caramel evenly into the prepared pan without scraping the sides of the saucepan. Sprinkle lightly with additional flaky salt if desired. Let cool at room temperature for at least 2 hours, or until fully set.
- Cut and wrap. Using the parchment overhang, lift the caramel slab out of the pan and onto a cutting board. Use a sharp, lightly oiled knife to cut into 36 squares (6 rows by 6 rows). Wrap individual caramels in small squares of wax paper, twisting the ends to seal, or layer in an airtight container with parchment between layers.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 110 | Protein: 0g | Fat: 5g | Carbs: 16g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 40mg
About the cook who shared this
Priya Krishnamurthy
Week 135 of Priya’s 30-year story
· Edison, New Jersey
Priya is a pharmacist, wife, and mom of two in Edison, New Jersey — the town she grew up in, surrounded by the sights and smells of her mother's South Indian kitchen. These days, she splits her time between the hospital pharmacy, school pickups, and her own kitchen, where she cooks nearly every night. Her style is a blend of the Tamil recipes her mother taught her and the American comfort food her kids actually want to eat. She writes about the beautiful mess of balancing two cultures on one plate — and she wants you to know that ordering pizza is also an act of love.