Year two. That's what I keep saying to myself — year two, year two — like if I say it enough times it'll feel less terrifying. Last year I was the new girl. This year I'm supposed to know things. I'm supposed to hold the scaler with confidence and read an X-ray without squinting and talk to patients without my hands shaking. The shaking has mostly stopped. Mostly. On Tuesdays it comes back, but Tuesdays are long and I've learned that my body processes stress through my fingers.
Spring break is over and I'm back in the routine: Waffle House mornings, kids in the afternoon, school at night. The routine is a groove now, not a rut. There's a difference. A rut is something you fall into. A groove is something you carved yourself. I carved this one with a Goodwill backpack and Tanisha's flashcards and Lorraine Mitchell's willingness to watch two small children three nights a week without ever making me feel like I owe her a thing.
Chloe is five now — five and a half, she'd correct me — and she's reading everything. Cereal boxes. Road signs. The Waffle House menu, which she studied with the intensity of a food critic on Tuesday when Mama brought the kids to visit me at work. She pointed at the menu and said, "Mama, what's a SMOTHERED hash brown?" I explained. She said, "That sounds gross." She ordered a waffle. She's not wrong — smothered hash browns are an acquired taste, like jazz and black coffee and adulthood.
Jayden is two and has fully embraced what I call the "why decade." Everything is why. Why do birds fly? Why is the grass green? Why can't I eat the remote control? The answers are: evolution, chlorophyll, and because I said so. He accepts none of these answers. He asks again. I answer again. This is parenthood: an infinite loop of curiosity and exhaustion, held together by snacks and the stubborn belief that one day they'll stop asking and you'll miss it terribly.
I made a one-pot lemon chicken and rice this week — chicken thighs browned in the Dutch oven, pulled out, then rice toasted in the drippings with garlic and broth and lemon juice, chicken nestled back on top, lid on, into the oven for thirty minutes. One pot. One mess. Enough food for three dinners. This is my cooking philosophy now: if it requires more than one pot and forty-five minutes, it's for a holiday. Tuesday night is a one-pot situation. Tuesday night has always been a one-pot situation. I'm just getting better at making the one pot count.
Tanisha and I have a new study schedule — Saturday mornings at the library, plus Wednesday nights after class at the Waffle House (employee discount, free refills, Mr. Gerald occasionally quizzes us on dental terminology he doesn't understand). We're in the clinical rotation now, seeing patients twice a week, and the material is harder — periodontal assessment, treatment planning, patient education. I have to learn to look at someone's mouth and tell them the truth about what I see, even when the truth isn't easy. I'm practicing. I've been practicing truth-telling my whole life, actually. Dental school just gave it a vocabulary.
Kevin called. He and Crystal are talking about getting engaged. "Talking about" is Kevin-speak for "I already bought the ring and I'm waiting for the right moment." I know my brother. The right moment for Kevin will be something quiet and certain, like him. Not a Jumbotron. Not a flash mob. Probably a Tuesday night on the couch, because Kevin Mitchell proposes the way he does everything: steady, sure, without fanfare. I can't wait.
The one-pot lemon rice version is what I made this week, but the recipe I keep coming back to — the one that started my Dutch oven era — is this creamy beer cheese chicken. Same philosophy: brown the chicken, build something worth eating in the same pot, let the oven do the work. It’s the kind of dish that tastes like you had more time than you did, which on a Tuesday night is exactly the kind of small victory that keeps you going.
Creamy Beer Cheese Chicken With Crispy Bacon
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 35 minutes | Total Time: 45 minutes | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 4 bone-in, skin-on chicken thighs
- 4 strips thick-cut bacon, chopped
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 3/4 cup lager or pale ale beer
- 1 cup low-sodium chicken broth
- 6 oz cream cheese, softened and cubed
- 1 cup shredded sharp cheddar cheese
- 1 tsp Dijon mustard
- 1/2 tsp smoked paprika
- 1/2 tsp onion powder
- Salt and black pepper to taste
- Fresh parsley, chopped, for garnish
Instructions
- Render the bacon. In a large Dutch oven or oven-safe skillet over medium heat, cook the chopped bacon until crispy, about 5–6 minutes. Transfer bacon to a paper towel-lined plate, leaving the drippings in the pot.
- Brown the chicken. Pat chicken thighs dry and season generously with salt, pepper, and smoked paprika. Place skin-side down in the hot drippings and sear undisturbed for 5–6 minutes until deep golden brown. Flip and cook 3 minutes more. Transfer to a plate — chicken does not need to be cooked through at this stage.
- Build the sauce. Reduce heat to medium-low. Add garlic to the pot and cook 30 seconds until fragrant. Pour in the beer, scraping up any browned bits from the bottom. Add chicken broth and Dijon mustard, then whisk in the cream cheese a few cubes at a time until fully melted and smooth. Stir in cheddar and onion powder until the sauce is cohesive.
- Simmer together. Nestle the chicken thighs back into the sauce, skin-side up. Bring to a gentle simmer, then reduce heat to low, cover, and cook 18–20 minutes until the chicken is cooked through and registers 165°F internally.
- Finish and serve. Remove the lid and scatter the reserved crispy bacon over the top. Garnish with fresh parsley. Serve directly from the pot alongside rice, egg noodles, or crusty bread to catch the sauce.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 530 | Protein: 39g | Fat: 36g | Carbs: 5g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 790mg